A conversation a week, recovery journal.

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So 2020 hit me hard with lockdowns impacting my old city which I moved out of but it has given a lot of tough times to me. Even before the lockdowns though, I was losing my sense of self and heading in the wrong direction in life. I started drinking more, gained a good deal of weight (30 lbs), stopped approaching women as much, became bitter, and looking back at it I gave up a lot of great moments.

Earlier this year, I lost a family member whom I had grown very very close to. Their death hit me hard and afterwards, I was sleeping poorly and not taking care of myself. At some point though, closer to the summer, my friend and I devised a plan where we chat a girl a day but it doesn't have to be around anything with game or getting laid. Just talk to her and see where it goes. I found it to be a good project but life hit me again as I had to attend this family member's funeral, basically be out of my city, and then get a lot of stuff done to help the rest of the family make sure we were in a good place.

A couple of months ago, I moved to a newer city. Lately, my life has been going better mentally. I feel like with what I have lost and the new person I have become, I can be something different than before.

I don't really obsess over game and getting laid like I used to but I think that talking to women is a great skill to have and I want to keep working on it. It's fun, you lose negative beliefs you have about women, and you can meet great women along the way.

I am going to see if I can talk to one random woman a week. My goal is to not make it forced or anything but just make it natural as I go about my day. Nothing may come of this but it is a step up from being holed into my apartment because I was too depressed, beaten, and bitter to go out. I'll update the report as it goes on and see what comes of it.

 

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October 13.

I went to the rooftop of my apartment to read a book, found that they were having some kind of a class up there. Not long after I am reading a book, two people walk by near me and sit near me too. One is a guy and one is a girl. The guy seemed quite flamboyant so I started to think that they might not be a couple. I keep reading and then moments later walk around to take a photo. Now I noticed that the guy had taken a photo in the opposite direction.

I open the couple as I walk back and say that the opposite direction has a great skyline view if they are curious about pics. The girl warmed up to me and we chatted. She is from Australia and is happy to be in the city compared to where she was in Australia. I sound awkward AF bros because I have not done an approach in forever.

Friendly girl, cool guy (he was gay), and they mentioned her partner coming. She lives in my building and is dating a guy but still a good warm up. It felt relieving because I am not even desperate to do approaches like the old me would have been which has ironically presented more opportunities to me, some basic psychology would explain that.

 

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Got too cocky with myself. Did an approach yesterday as I was at the park reading a book and this Asian girl got up in front of me. I made a comment on how the view is the best at this time, she looked at me smiled and then looked away.

Did an approach or small talk as they say today when a blonde crossed paths with me asking her for the time, she told me but seemed to be in a pissed off mood. Enough for this week but those two approaches were done only because I was out and about and those girls were near me. I find myself less going out of my way to do them.