FR Day 2 with Asian Ink

[Tyme2k]

Met at coffee shop, closed it down at 8p. Went straight to my place and sat on my bed. Talked for a while then made out. Pulled her to lay with me and made out, talked, escalated. Eventually I was on top of her kissing her stomach getting her BT through the roof. At times she was extremely turned on, but I would kind of let it die down. She told me I wasn't getting her pants off and I was lucky I got her sweater off. I just stayed nonreactive.

She kept asking,"what type of girl do you think I am?" I would say things like one who knows what she wants, and I know what you want. Funny thing She asked me what she wants and I censored myself and she called me on it! crazy, but I remained nonreactive still and then uncensored myself.

I got her pants unbuttoned and played with her panty line. We joked if she was naked there she still wouldn't be able to get my pants off. I probably really could have ripped her pants off idk. I finally said jokingly get out of my house, gave her a ride back to her car cause it's cold.

If there is a day 3 and we end up at my place it's on for sure.

Any suggestions on how to get tight jeans off when she is specifically saying they wont come off?

 

[Tyme2k]

Been thinking about this a ton since last night.. I have rationalized what happened which may or may not be healthy but I want to write it down.

I should have took her pants off anyway regardless of the vocal rejections. She was saying these with her voice, but her tone and body language were speaking entirely different words.

The reason I didn't continue is because there is still a gentleman inside of me, I'm slowly putting him to rest, but I feel if I would have escalated in that manner I would have been unsure and incongruent. She may have easily rejected me and left for good. I was afraid of going balls deep seeking to validate my ego with a first date lay. I have done it before, so it's not really a big deal. I want to free myself from ego pumping interactions and make all my interactions high quality experiences.

Anyways still beating myself up over not closing because I know I could have done it solid and smooth. My future self needed this though to handle what comes after in the future.