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I used to do model photography, and found it as a great way to GET ACCESS to the hottest girls.
I still needed game to get laid with models, but the photography provided a frame work to meet them and then could practice gaming them (not to mention the preselection aspect).
However, I've had a girlfriend now for 2 years, and during the relationship I unfortunately paused/abandoned my photography hobby. A bit part of this was that the whole process of photography did require a bit of work, so it wasn't pure fun or anything.
Anyways, during the relationship it finally clicked in my head how bad porn is for men. It fucks with the dopamine system and can ruin your focus/motivation. Even instagram is loaded with light porn nowadays (see through shirts, cleavage, asses everywhere).
I made efforts to stop watching any porn or sexual images (pretty challenging because even just opening IG will immediately present it to you - for now I only use the website version of instagram and have my feed blocked).
I had a nice nofap streak of about 40 days 10 months ago and now I'm currently on a 16 day nofap streak. I've found some ways recently that seem to be working in stopping me from looking at porn, and I'm pretty happy with that.
I also have been reading this thread by @StrayDog https://www.skilledseducer.com/threads/how-to-draw-orgasms-up-your-spine.26872/
and, I think I really want to move forward with consistent semen retention for 15-30 day periods and learn how to control it even while having sex...
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Anyways, all of that was just context of my current mindstate.
If I end up breaking up with my GF, I'd definitely have a desire to get back into model photography...
Mainly because:
1. It's a great way to get access to the hottest girls to game them
2. it's a great way to have preselection with hot girls, which makes hooking up with ALL girls easier
3. It's an art form and expression that I enjoy, and I seem to have a pretty good "eye" for what a good photo looks like.
However... I'm really experiencing cognitive dissonance when it comes to the idea of working with girls that have onlyfans, or even just the idea of creating sexual images, that are fully clothed, basically any image that sparks arousal in men.
Two sides to this...
On one hand, I enjoy crafting these images, I enjoy being around nude/sexy women and gaming them before/during/after photographing them. And as mentioned it's a great lead source for me.
On the other hand, editing the photos is very similar to browsing instagram... it jacks up my dopamine system in a similar way, and feel like it increases the chance of me jacking it.
I suppose I could potentially find an editing workflow to get around this, like paying someone else to edit the images for me.
Still, the main concern is an ethical one...
If I believe that porn is bad for men, then if I participate in the production of sexual images... doesn't that make me an enabler of addicts ?
And, I feel like if I present myself as a photographer, I'm not only participating in the production but I'm also influencing others to think what I'm doing is OK/cool.. just like for every girl that signs up to onlyfans, they slowly normalize it, until we've reached our current society where it's considered normal/cool for a female influencer to have an onlyfans.
Ethically and Morally it feels like I'm just adding to the problem... but at the same time I selfishly enjoy the lifestyle and art form a lot so that's why I get a cognitive dissonance, and freeze up... can't make a decision.
Not to mention there is a whole other can of worms if I start managing girls' onlyfans...
Any thoughts on this ?
I'm just trying to be very cautious about living in delusions. I'm not going to lie to myself. If I choose to do sexual photography, then I would have to also accept that it's harming some people out there. At the same time, if it's not my photos, those guys would jack it to someone else.
Yet, I just hate being a hypocrite and to sell/promote something that I don't actually believe in....
I still needed game to get laid with models, but the photography provided a frame work to meet them and then could practice gaming them (not to mention the preselection aspect).
However, I've had a girlfriend now for 2 years, and during the relationship I unfortunately paused/abandoned my photography hobby. A bit part of this was that the whole process of photography did require a bit of work, so it wasn't pure fun or anything.
Anyways, during the relationship it finally clicked in my head how bad porn is for men. It fucks with the dopamine system and can ruin your focus/motivation. Even instagram is loaded with light porn nowadays (see through shirts, cleavage, asses everywhere).
I made efforts to stop watching any porn or sexual images (pretty challenging because even just opening IG will immediately present it to you - for now I only use the website version of instagram and have my feed blocked).
I had a nice nofap streak of about 40 days 10 months ago and now I'm currently on a 16 day nofap streak. I've found some ways recently that seem to be working in stopping me from looking at porn, and I'm pretty happy with that.
I also have been reading this thread by @StrayDog https://www.skilledseducer.com/threads/how-to-draw-orgasms-up-your-spine.26872/
and, I think I really want to move forward with consistent semen retention for 15-30 day periods and learn how to control it even while having sex...
----
Anyways, all of that was just context of my current mindstate.
If I end up breaking up with my GF, I'd definitely have a desire to get back into model photography...
Mainly because:
1. It's a great way to get access to the hottest girls to game them
2. it's a great way to have preselection with hot girls, which makes hooking up with ALL girls easier
3. It's an art form and expression that I enjoy, and I seem to have a pretty good "eye" for what a good photo looks like.
However... I'm really experiencing cognitive dissonance when it comes to the idea of working with girls that have onlyfans, or even just the idea of creating sexual images, that are fully clothed, basically any image that sparks arousal in men.
Two sides to this...
On one hand, I enjoy crafting these images, I enjoy being around nude/sexy women and gaming them before/during/after photographing them. And as mentioned it's a great lead source for me.
On the other hand, editing the photos is very similar to browsing instagram... it jacks up my dopamine system in a similar way, and feel like it increases the chance of me jacking it.
I suppose I could potentially find an editing workflow to get around this, like paying someone else to edit the images for me.
Still, the main concern is an ethical one...
If I believe that porn is bad for men, then if I participate in the production of sexual images... doesn't that make me an enabler of addicts ?
And, I feel like if I present myself as a photographer, I'm not only participating in the production but I'm also influencing others to think what I'm doing is OK/cool.. just like for every girl that signs up to onlyfans, they slowly normalize it, until we've reached our current society where it's considered normal/cool for a female influencer to have an onlyfans.
Ethically and Morally it feels like I'm just adding to the problem... but at the same time I selfishly enjoy the lifestyle and art form a lot so that's why I get a cognitive dissonance, and freeze up... can't make a decision.
Not to mention there is a whole other can of worms if I start managing girls' onlyfans...
Any thoughts on this ?
I'm just trying to be very cautious about living in delusions. I'm not going to lie to myself. If I choose to do sexual photography, then I would have to also accept that it's harming some people out there. At the same time, if it's not my photos, those guys would jack it to someone else.
Yet, I just hate being a hypocrite and to sell/promote something that I don't actually believe in....
