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Wow, a lot of stuff happen today and if I didn't beat my anxiety in it's face none of this would have happened. I finally made my first approach after months of kicking myself for so long I manage to approach an average-looking black girl waiting for the metro bus. Now, before I tell you my approach story I want to tell you about the other girls I talk to in my school.
Now, most of these girls are in my classes expected for one. The first girl I talked to was in my 4th period. This chick digs me and she is always listening to my conversations and stealing stares at me. I ask her out, but she said she is not looking for a relationship right now and she is waiting to go to college to start a relationship. She also said she dosen't mind kissing me and doing things with me (Sadly,I had not done anything sexual with her, but bare with me). She even thanked me for telling her that I liked her,giving me storys of guys who don't know how to express their interest in genuine ways (she called me classy and she called me picky). Today, she said I hadn't sit by her in lunch for awhile ( I don't hang around girls too much so I won't go in the friend zone). I said I sit by my friends and she was shocked to hear that I have friends. She then asked for my friends' name, I deflected it and I asked her if she wants me to sit with her in lunch today, she gave some lame excuse. Then she brought it up again and I said with a smile "Stop thining about me so much, [her name]" and she stop asking me questions, but continued thinking about me. When I was coming out of lunch I saw her with her friend and she was looking back at me--it look like she wanted to come to me, but her friend,a girl I use to like, stop her from going to me.
The second girl is again from my 4th period. She too is always stealing glances at me and she always smile when I look at her . I asked her out and she said she never been in a relationship or did anything sexual before. She said that she is waiting to go to college to have intimate relationships ( I'm starting to think I'm doing something wrong, to girls said this). I said we don't have to be in a relationship, but we can still "talk" she didn't understand what I meant so I explain and she accepted.
The third girl is one I knew since middle school, she is not attractive and honestly I don't feel like doing anything with her anytime soon. She is a virgin and she digs me as well. She always want to talk on the phone with me, but I usually reject these request. When I do talk to her on the phone she dosen't want me to go.
The final one is a girl that was playing around with me for the longest, she would touch me and play with me. I finally got to know her name today and I talked to her and she said she dose that with everybody.
Now for my first Approach story. Me and my friend were talking about our fundamentals by a tree by a school. I spotted this cutie waiting for the bus, she kept looking at me, so I told my friend I would approach. My friend said go ahead( he is inexperience, even more inexperience than me, but his getting there) and I felt the usually fear of rejection. I struggled for about 8 minutes, by the time I manage enough willpower a guy was standing for the bus. Her and the guy wasn't talking or whatever. I made my approach: I walked slowly towards her with a sexual smile on my face. Her eyes widened, she quickly turned away. I stopped dead at her, her body still not facing me. I uttered an unctuous "hi", she did not answer. I said it in the same tone and she turn and said hi again. I said who she was waiting for and gave me a rude "nobody". I was a bit dumbstrucked by the way she was acting aloof, but I didn't so it. She didn't even brought to say anything more than "nobody" and I started to feel this unfamiliar pressure of awkwardness. I posed a little bit, her body was still turned away, and then I walked back to my friend. When I arrived my friend said I walked away like a boss. Me and my friend talking about were talkming about the approach I just made. I was telling him it wasn't even scary, all I just felt was a unfamiliar pressure sort of feeling. To be honest, the girl looked horrified when I was talking to her.
Anyways, I didn't face my body in her direction, I gave her my backview. My friend faced her front and I heard the girl started talking to that dude that she wasn't even talking to before. My friend said that was fucked up how I managed all that courage and I got turned down and now she start talking to this guy that she maybe didn't even know. I said fuck that bitch, there are othe girls out there who will be dying to talk to me (I don't like the term bitch either, but it kept me from feeling bitter thoughts). The bus came and she and the guy went on it. I said bye to my friend and walked away; girls turning, fixing their hair, looking down, stealing glances as I walked to my favorite spot to wait for my father to arrive to pick me up.
I felt so proud of that approach. Even though I didn't get her I got experience and to me that matters more. This is the first time I approach and I got to say it's quite fun. You never now how the girl would respond. Now, I know this chick could have been really into me and I should have gone with results instead of reaction, but come on, it was my very first approach, at least I mustered wnough courage to approach the pretty lady. Wow, I didn't realized how easy it is to approach, your mind makes it hard if you have amxiety. If you actually do it it isn't bad at all. It's more of a possibility game, you never know what you're gnna get. The only risk is feeling that unfamilair pressure, that's it.
Tell me your thoughts by the way. Where did I go wrong in my approach to better improve (that is, if you can get past my grammar and spelling errors. Don't worry I'm working in them).
Stay strong,
David
Now, most of these girls are in my classes expected for one. The first girl I talked to was in my 4th period. This chick digs me and she is always listening to my conversations and stealing stares at me. I ask her out, but she said she is not looking for a relationship right now and she is waiting to go to college to start a relationship. She also said she dosen't mind kissing me and doing things with me (Sadly,I had not done anything sexual with her, but bare with me). She even thanked me for telling her that I liked her,giving me storys of guys who don't know how to express their interest in genuine ways (she called me classy and she called me picky). Today, she said I hadn't sit by her in lunch for awhile ( I don't hang around girls too much so I won't go in the friend zone). I said I sit by my friends and she was shocked to hear that I have friends. She then asked for my friends' name, I deflected it and I asked her if she wants me to sit with her in lunch today, she gave some lame excuse. Then she brought it up again and I said with a smile "Stop thining about me so much, [her name]" and she stop asking me questions, but continued thinking about me. When I was coming out of lunch I saw her with her friend and she was looking back at me--it look like she wanted to come to me, but her friend,a girl I use to like, stop her from going to me.
The second girl is again from my 4th period. She too is always stealing glances at me and she always smile when I look at her . I asked her out and she said she never been in a relationship or did anything sexual before. She said that she is waiting to go to college to have intimate relationships ( I'm starting to think I'm doing something wrong, to girls said this). I said we don't have to be in a relationship, but we can still "talk" she didn't understand what I meant so I explain and she accepted.
The third girl is one I knew since middle school, she is not attractive and honestly I don't feel like doing anything with her anytime soon. She is a virgin and she digs me as well. She always want to talk on the phone with me, but I usually reject these request. When I do talk to her on the phone she dosen't want me to go.
The final one is a girl that was playing around with me for the longest, she would touch me and play with me. I finally got to know her name today and I talked to her and she said she dose that with everybody.
Now for my first Approach story. Me and my friend were talking about our fundamentals by a tree by a school. I spotted this cutie waiting for the bus, she kept looking at me, so I told my friend I would approach. My friend said go ahead( he is inexperience, even more inexperience than me, but his getting there) and I felt the usually fear of rejection. I struggled for about 8 minutes, by the time I manage enough willpower a guy was standing for the bus. Her and the guy wasn't talking or whatever. I made my approach: I walked slowly towards her with a sexual smile on my face. Her eyes widened, she quickly turned away. I stopped dead at her, her body still not facing me. I uttered an unctuous "hi", she did not answer. I said it in the same tone and she turn and said hi again. I said who she was waiting for and gave me a rude "nobody". I was a bit dumbstrucked by the way she was acting aloof, but I didn't so it. She didn't even brought to say anything more than "nobody" and I started to feel this unfamiliar pressure of awkwardness. I posed a little bit, her body was still turned away, and then I walked back to my friend. When I arrived my friend said I walked away like a boss. Me and my friend talking about were talkming about the approach I just made. I was telling him it wasn't even scary, all I just felt was a unfamiliar pressure sort of feeling. To be honest, the girl looked horrified when I was talking to her.
Anyways, I didn't face my body in her direction, I gave her my backview. My friend faced her front and I heard the girl started talking to that dude that she wasn't even talking to before. My friend said that was fucked up how I managed all that courage and I got turned down and now she start talking to this guy that she maybe didn't even know. I said fuck that bitch, there are othe girls out there who will be dying to talk to me (I don't like the term bitch either, but it kept me from feeling bitter thoughts). The bus came and she and the guy went on it. I said bye to my friend and walked away; girls turning, fixing their hair, looking down, stealing glances as I walked to my favorite spot to wait for my father to arrive to pick me up.
I felt so proud of that approach. Even though I didn't get her I got experience and to me that matters more. This is the first time I approach and I got to say it's quite fun. You never now how the girl would respond. Now, I know this chick could have been really into me and I should have gone with results instead of reaction, but come on, it was my very first approach, at least I mustered wnough courage to approach the pretty lady. Wow, I didn't realized how easy it is to approach, your mind makes it hard if you have amxiety. If you actually do it it isn't bad at all. It's more of a possibility game, you never know what you're gnna get. The only risk is feeling that unfamilair pressure, that's it.
Tell me your thoughts by the way. Where did I go wrong in my approach to better improve (that is, if you can get past my grammar and spelling errors. Don't worry I'm working in them).
Stay strong,
David
