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Right now, I feel like I am operating at well below my potential. I'm frustrated, keep engaging in bad habits and distractions, and fucking myself up instead of living the way I truly want to be.
All in all, things are "good'. I have a stable comfortable living situation (with mom), an easy job with a lot of free time, have cool friends (some great with women), just joined a band with growth minded musicians, and I have a plan that I'm following. I also have lots of cool experiences to reflect on, so I can say "Yeah, I know I can reach my goals because I've succeeded before." I've dated high quality women, traveled to cool places, and toured the US in a band. All these are related to my current goals, which are basically doing all these things on a more consistent, sustainable level while making money and building assets as an entrepreneur.
What I'm frustrated about: my stress levels are too high and my energy and focus too low. I believe it's because I have some emotional baggage that needs addressing, and that I keep running from doing this because I want porn to numb myself and then beat myself up about it (salting the wound). I feel stuck in a pattern preventing me from really being clear headed and focused on following through with goals.
I'm sick of porn (especially ejaculating too often). It drains me of motivation, energy, and is a huge distraction. I also notice that when I stay away from it for a while, my standards "grow", meaning that I find myself attracted to a wider range of women and am more motivated to meet them. I also notice a ton of other benefits, so addressing this habit is a goal of mine.
My goal for the week: (these are specifically relevant to my long term goals)
Study for my health coach cert.
Save $100
Avoid porn so that when I go out next weekend, I have a "full tank" (motivated and "hungry" to meet real women)
Meditate daily and follow through with my daily routine
set up my drum kit and practice the setlist with a click track
I plan to update this on saturdays/sundays.
All in all, things are "good'. I have a stable comfortable living situation (with mom), an easy job with a lot of free time, have cool friends (some great with women), just joined a band with growth minded musicians, and I have a plan that I'm following. I also have lots of cool experiences to reflect on, so I can say "Yeah, I know I can reach my goals because I've succeeded before." I've dated high quality women, traveled to cool places, and toured the US in a band. All these are related to my current goals, which are basically doing all these things on a more consistent, sustainable level while making money and building assets as an entrepreneur.
What I'm frustrated about: my stress levels are too high and my energy and focus too low. I believe it's because I have some emotional baggage that needs addressing, and that I keep running from doing this because I want porn to numb myself and then beat myself up about it (salting the wound). I feel stuck in a pattern preventing me from really being clear headed and focused on following through with goals.
I'm sick of porn (especially ejaculating too often). It drains me of motivation, energy, and is a huge distraction. I also notice that when I stay away from it for a while, my standards "grow", meaning that I find myself attracted to a wider range of women and am more motivated to meet them. I also notice a ton of other benefits, so addressing this habit is a goal of mine.
My goal for the week: (these are specifically relevant to my long term goals)
Study for my health coach cert.
Save $100
Avoid porn so that when I go out next weekend, I have a "full tank" (motivated and "hungry" to meet real women)
Meditate daily and follow through with my daily routine
set up my drum kit and practice the setlist with a click track
I plan to update this on saturdays/sundays.