Goals and Experiences of Desert Eagle

[Desert Eagle]

Hello everyone, my name is Desert Eagle. And this is my journal.

Biography
6'0" Male
160 lbs.
19 Y/o
Sophomore in College

Long-Term Goals

Become self-sufficient. This means grow all my own food, generate my own electricity, make my own clothes, build and fix-up my own home, get my own water.

Sleep with a lot of different women regularly. This means I want to provide a lot of pleasure to women while they also provide a lot of pleasure to myself.

Enjoy life and spread my enjoyment. Once I become self-sufficient, I will spend my time spreading pleasure to everyone so that I can show them that there is more to life than working jobs you don't want to do and being in an invisible rat race.

Short-Term Goals

Have sex. 'nough said.
- Work on approaching women each day, and listen to a mentor's suggestions on what to do to improve overall.

Get rid of my acne, naturally. I feel my moderate acne makes me less attractive and gives the pre-conception that I am a immature teenager rather than an adult.
- Get better sleep; go to sleep when it gets dark, wake up when the sun comes up.
- Focus on an anti-oxidant rich, dairy free, anti-inflammatory diet.

Get up to 170 lbs lean. I feel like I am skinny and I want to get stronger so that I can get better at two things; sex, and volleyball.
- Eat more food and do exercises that are focused on providing rip-roaring sex where I won't get tired easily.

Become amazing at volleyball. One of my favorite sports to play is volleyball/beach volleyball.
- Play volleyball every day. Fun for me, and great chance to meet women.

Write in this journal every day!


Those are the goals that come to mind. Hopefully I can cross some goals off and add some more goals to that list!

 

[Desert Eagle]

Day 1

Been reading to try and prepare myself for college again. I've come to the realization that I need to get into actual dialogue with women so I don't go into my next year completely rusty. Plan is to go out and play volleyball at some courts where I'll hopefully run into some girls. Goal I'm going to set for myself is push for some dialogue while we're playing and hopefully get into a conversation/deep dive after the game.

For my short term goals, I ate a pretty good diet today, but took a long nap in the middle of the day which probably screwed up my sleeping patterns a bit. Worked out by doing some heavy squats and picking up a heavy punching bag and holding it (sort of like picking up a woman and holding her), but I still am working on constructing a good regimen that will allow for me to get better at sex/volleyball. Ideally I'd just have sex as my practice!

For long term goals, I need to add some short-term goals that relate to becoming self-sufficient. One short term goal is going to be creating my own garden in the porch area of my apartment. I'll add that to my original post in a moment.

EDIT: Well, I can't edit my original post. So I'll add the short-term goal here:

Start growing an orange tree in a pot in my apartment.

Once I move into my apartment, build a gardening set-up for growing sweet potatoes on my porch.

 

[Desert Eagle]

Day 2

Alright! Day 1 was pretty unproductive, but thankfully Day 2 is upon us!

Going to check ride my bike and check out if anyone is playing on sand volleyball courts. This is kind of a big deal for me.. because I really haven't left my house alone all summer. I'll probably open up conversation using something about volleyball and then digress to short, witty quips with a hint of sexuality in my voice. I'm honestly not expecting much to happen, I just want to get some actual dialogue going, but if I meet a girl who likes me I'll go for a date on the same day.

Update:
Phew! Riding my bike for 45 minutes sure tired me out. The sand volleyball court was underwater, sadly, so no one was there. Good thing I'm going to college in 4 days; there's always people playing volleyball either outside or indoors. May not have gotten any practice on person-to-person, but I'm going to try chatting up some people online. Never really done that before, but I imagine it will get me thinking during dialogue about what the right things to do/say are.

 

[Desert Eagle]

Day 3

One step forwards, two steps backwards. I'm constantly finding that my mind is just working in these crazy and erratic cycles which result in me not actually doing anything. I'm constantly off topic from my goals, and I easily slip back into being off topic.

Something that I haven't tried is constantly reflecting on what I did the day before. So I'm going to start completing a daily review of yesterday, and figure out what I need to do differently. Here's how I spent yesterday:

1pm - Woke up
1:20pm-2pm - Made and ate breakfast
2:30pm-3:45pm - Went on a bike ride to see if people were at volleyball courts
4pm-8pm - Nothing (Messing around on computer, eating, watching TV)
8pm-11pm - Sleep
11pm-7am - Nothing (Messing around on computer, eating, feeling horrible)
7am-1pm - Sleep
1pm-4pm - Nothing (Messing around on computer)

I'm constantly wasting my time. I want to spend my free time working on my goals, not mucking around on Facebook, Youtube, and e-mail.

So.. Right now it's 4pm. I'm going to pack up my things for college, and then I'll report back to this post for figuring out what to do next to match my goals.

 

[Desert Eagle]

Day 5

Best couple of days that I've had in a while. I've spent so much time just repeating the same thoughts over and over and obsessing over them, which made me feel worthless, horrible, and made me reliant on food and other forms of pleasure to get myself out of funks. Now I've just been telling myself it's okay to have fun; just pay attention to what you're doing. Alcohol may be fun now, but in the future it's not going to be as fun. Things such as video games are always going to be fun, and have very little impact on the environment and creating sustainability!

Breakthrough on the women front; I've realized something very important. I want to be fun with a steady frame. I've been watching some rebel films lately and something that I continually notice in them is that they tend to either be fun and not have strong frames, or serious and have strong frames. I want to be a guy that just has fun with women, because I've realized that's what life is about - having good times, and ensuring the continuation of good times for everyone. Focusing on enjoying things now with regards to enjoying things in the future.

Pumped for college! Leaving in approximately 30 hours! I think making it easier to approach women (as I'll actually see them) is going to make a big difference. Also, I'll have my apartment. Hoping to get up some FRs and LRs in the first week; that's where I had all my success last year!

Also, I believe I've found my niche in what I want to do with my life. I want to become a hydrologist - basically test water clarity and ensure that proper systems are in place to provide efficient, chemical free water! It's something we're always going to need, and I'm glad that I am going to become a part of it.

 

[Desert Eagle]

Day 6

So-so day. Pretty chill.

Spent most of the day packing, relaxing, and signing forms. Going to be very busy starting tomorrow! Gotta unpack. Either going to go out with friends or check out what's happening around campus and talk up some cute girls. Maybe both!

 

[Desert Eagle]

Day 8

Busy busy busy. Parents and I basically drove 8 hours, shopped all Friday night, and all day today. I've been so tired that I just want to relaxxx. Tomorrow I have nothing planned so you know what that means; go to the campus and start chatting up girls!

 

[Desert Eagle]

Day 9

Finally have an interaction with girls! Butt.. Didn't really get anywhere.

Today a girl invited me to play volleyball that I know, and I was glad because I wanted to play. Ended up being her, a bunch of guys from the cross country team, and a couple of other girls. 3 girls total. The only one I could see myself sleeping with is the girl that invited me. The only issue? Things are completely and utterly platonic between us. I can imagine she feels the same way about things. She is probably alright with things being platonic, but would do something with me if I was suave and charming.

I wasn't really thinking about her, and only realized after that I probably should have gotten some sexual subtext going between us. I'm going to read up on it and work on it as soon as we play volleyball/hang out again.

Day 9 (Cont.)

Figured out what exactly I need to work on. Fundamentals. Here's what I'm going to focus on next time I'm out:

1. Focus on making smooth eye contact. Only rest your gaze on someone if you are going to nonverbally interact with a warm/sexy smile.
2. Speak less, and harness your energy from within, rather than letting it burst out in emotion during a volleyball game. Focus on relaxing and feeling comfortable.
3. Keep in mind that you will provide sexual pleasure to women, as you know how to do so through hardly known knowledge; and nonverbally communicate this to women by feeling comfortable around them and knowing something that they do not.

As for improving my looks:

1. Workout with weights and play volleyball each day. Add sex each day if I can!
2. Treat acne with topical medication each night.
3. Eat a healthy diet comprised of fruits, vegetables, meats and fats.
4. Eat 3000 calories in a day.

Improving my looks part is going well; today I accomplished half of 1, all of 2, and all of 3. Just need to get adjusted to an eating schedule as I've just started cooking for myself.

Also, I need to keep in mind that

 

[Desert Eagle]

Slowly but surely getting some structure into my day. Here's what I learned from a couple of nights ago:

- Don't bother with asking for a girls number if you are in a group/public. Instead, assume attraction and hand her your phone smoothly and effortlessly.
- If in private, asking a girls number is much less of a big deal. This explains why I've always felt like it's so easy to get a girls number when it's just the two of us, but so difficult when others are around. The key is being discreet.

Been busy the past few days with school, getting things set up, and finding a semi-routine. Here's what I have loosely lined up for my routine (effective tomorrow morning):

7:00AM Wakeup, Take a Shower, Take Vitamin D supp. to help acne
8:00AM Eat Breakfast
8:45AM Leave for class
...Class
10:00AM-11AM Study/Homework
...Class
12:00PM I Workout!
1:30PM Eat Lunch
2:00PM-5:00PM Homework
5:00PM Dinner
Shower/Treat acne before going to sleep

Everything after I workout is subject to change. It's Friday! Probably going to hit up the beach with some friends of mine, where I may be able to meet some women and play beach volleyball. Volleyball gets in the way of conversation, so I'll try to not play the whole time so that I leave some time for the ladies. Fundamentals in regards to my body still aren't that good, so I'll probably end up talking to some lower value women; but I understand that is all up to me. The day is set up so that I will successfully work towards all my short-term goals!