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- Sep 2, 2020
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Good day to the boards.
It looks I fronted on myself and added pressure with the idea of making 20+- approaches in a month. Apart from procrastinating through other addictions such as porn and constantly smoking weed, I am starting to get aware of how excessive social media consumption can lead me to being in-congruent. In an extreme case it could lead to becoming much a catfish personality where i update my statuses and media to present myself in a desirable light.
I did go out and work on my fundamentals on some days.
By the way. is it advisable to pick up whilst you are actively losing weight? I get reluctant of auto rejection in the case of self image. and being less desirable in my physique compared to other men.
As i type that though it just might be an excuse not to work on approaching and building, which the real underlying objective in meeting and getting intimate with people.
Little FR from the other day
Sept 12
2:46pm
Damn, its different when you disregard taking an indirect approach to becoming more open to the reality infront of your senses. Usually I would have wanted to plug myself into another distraction whilst I am taking a walk. But i thought otherwise and instead would get myself to walk tall with my insecurities.
As this was happening, I analyzed how I felt, especially my back posture. I stopped to fix myself, although at times I do notice I like holding things as some comping mechanism, but it leaves me looking quite clumsy and all over the place. Some panic that you are rarely aware of, except for now.
I then startled as I saw a woman with a familiar figure. As I neared the entrance, it had been the dread afro girl who lives by the apartments around the local school. Soon after the reflection of the past moment had me going to a rant inside my head of how Ill one day have the fundamentals to approach her , and ways to prioritize working on my fundamentals such as walking,
It looks I fronted on myself and added pressure with the idea of making 20+- approaches in a month. Apart from procrastinating through other addictions such as porn and constantly smoking weed, I am starting to get aware of how excessive social media consumption can lead me to being in-congruent. In an extreme case it could lead to becoming much a catfish personality where i update my statuses and media to present myself in a desirable light.
I did go out and work on my fundamentals on some days.
By the way. is it advisable to pick up whilst you are actively losing weight? I get reluctant of auto rejection in the case of self image. and being less desirable in my physique compared to other men.
As i type that though it just might be an excuse not to work on approaching and building, which the real underlying objective in meeting and getting intimate with people.
Little FR from the other day
Sept 12
2:46pm
Damn, its different when you disregard taking an indirect approach to becoming more open to the reality infront of your senses. Usually I would have wanted to plug myself into another distraction whilst I am taking a walk. But i thought otherwise and instead would get myself to walk tall with my insecurities.
As this was happening, I analyzed how I felt, especially my back posture. I stopped to fix myself, although at times I do notice I like holding things as some comping mechanism, but it leaves me looking quite clumsy and all over the place. Some panic that you are rarely aware of, except for now.
I then startled as I saw a woman with a familiar figure. As I neared the entrance, it had been the dread afro girl who lives by the apartments around the local school. Soon after the reflection of the past moment had me going to a rant inside my head of how Ill one day have the fundamentals to approach her , and ways to prioritize working on my fundamentals such as walking,
