Journal of Myself

[spadepoker]

I'm starting this journal to record my progress in the field, and get it in on a forum rather than my physical journals at home. I've been reading about the game for 2 years, have made monumental strides since I began, and am now looking for high quality women. This will detail the thoughts, actions, and experiences I encounter toward making that a reality.

My friend who's on here as Radeng recommended to start the online journal, and I appreciate the support brotha.

Without further ado.

Last night had the chance to go out with a guy I met recently here in the town I just moved to.

At the first bar, I arrived solo and approached a two set that I actually thought I knew one of the girls. As soon as she started talking, I knew it wasn't her. I was feeling awkward and moved on. My friend arrived shortly after. He's a guy I met recently here on the forums. Since I'm new, he was able to show me all the spots in town that were fun, and the rundown on the demographics of different bars. We bounced around to many bars, almost too many.

First set winged approach. The two girls were both beautiful. Blonde with petite face, fit body, and hips wider than her shoulders, and a brunette with a very amiable face. My friend started the conversation with the girls, I piped in a couple lines. The conversation was excitable at a fast pace that matched the girls energy and my friends peak state. I wasn't at that level, and although the blonde liked my friend, I didn't keep up with the convo with the brunette. She snatched her friend and both left. My low focus blew it. My friend asked what I needed to get in state, and it was the first time I was asked that question. Drinking and dancing was my response, but actually got in state just listening to a conversation between him and a girl he knew. I forced my mind to concentrate on the little details of conversation, facial expressions she used, the mannerisms, and motivations behind her words. Even though I hadn't said a word, his friend was giving me more attention than him speaking to her.

Approached thin blonde:
She was quite aloof on approach
Instantly deep dived
My friend joined the convo, since there were 3 other girls in her group he could talk to
He introduced himself to everyone, this was my pitfall- There was one large friend, who when she said her name I unconsciously just spaced, and could tell she noticed and was upset. She was the leader of the group and immediately presented she wanted to go elsewhere.
Learning point Be considerate of everyone in a friend group, including the big girls.

Approached fit slightly older blonde:
She was interested
Convo paused for about 2 seconds at some point. Drunk memory not recalling it exactly.
She dipped.
Found out she was married, though I felt like that wouldn't have mattered.
Learning point Girls at night time are ADD and un-purposeful pauses are destructive to seduction

Dark skinned strong nerd outfit:
She was warm to reception
Convo ended after I asked if she wanted to dance; then noted she had a full drink and wouldn't be able to. She said to find her later to dance. I knew by her manner I wouldn't. Saw her dancing in elevated cage later.

Latina:
Opened, warm, she was the leader.
She introduced her friends and convo turned into group convo.
Felt obligated to speak with her friends, but had no reason. Introduced myself, followed by light convo. Interaction went flat

Best take aways: Project voice when speaking downtown
Consciously focus on little details

Did well: I maintained slow movements
Got mindful, which opened the door for quality experiences

 

[spadepoker]

Notes from today---

House should be set up completely for seduction, will spend tomorrow morning cleaning.

Hawaiian brunette cougar
Opened her after she accidentally bumped me in the ribs. I blew it out of proportion saying she broke my ribs, and she was insta hooked. Joked around about her age and mine, she's 33, much older. I said she's a milf, she said she didn't have kids, but then was accepting of being the cougar who could teach me things (; She asked if I was in a fraternity, replied that I just got done cleaning the house, since we had a dildo fest that ejaculated milk, so I spent the day cleaning out the mold. Dry humor, she appreciated it. Set up to get tea together tomorrow afternoon. Seems a go, but I've never taken a milf on a date/ anything that didn't happen that night.

My goal for the evening was target selection. She was the only girl I saw the entire night where I immediately got the feeling I could pull her that night. Unfortunately she had to wake up at 6 the next day.

I met some really cool people and approached about a few sets. One girl was just out to have fun with her friend. Coolest person I met was actually a 360lb girl who's a comedian and extremely self-assured. Her personality was actually incredible, and she offered to give heckling lessons at her next show on Thursday.

Things to work on next --- I feel I have a really good sense of which girls want the dick that night now. What I noticed was that many girls would want it, but I wasn't at nearly the same energy/ happiness level as them. Tonight was a pretty bro night and got in a lot of mildly interesting conversations with a bunch of dudes. I plan to read How to Win Friends and Influence People to learn to enjoy those moments between approaches to maintain or increase my state.

 

[spadepoker]

One dude last night, who I will remembers face, but not his name, since my current and only consistent way to remember names is to write the name down instantly after meeting the person, then looking at the written name before the next time speaking to the person, and then it's stuck. He asked what I did, and upon my response of being a personal trainer, he said, "come on, work with me, we have to have something in common." He stuck out to me as a genuine guy, even though the only thing I could find to relate was anime, which I haven't been involved with in years, and only half-recalled information on the topic.