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Good day to all here at the boards.
A South African , and an avid reader of the material provided on GC for years, although it can seem written from a hyper-masculine lens at times. Nonetheless I have used material here and in some instances the results show
Man its been some time since i wanted to get committed to taking charge of responding to my sexual lifestyle. I have made an account before on the forum but lost it throughout the years.
I come from a background that is quite spiritual and strict in the christian upbringing. I have had to deal with sexual trauma and molestation in my early childhood years. Still finding healing. I did get ridiculed in some instances by family members and friends because I was more of a grower than a shower( Roughly 4-5in erect). BEEN watching porn for the longest time and only had a short break some years ago when I went to university, and focused on my social circle more. I gained some momentum but only got to break my virginity have sex with 2 people in the space of THREE TO FOUR YEARS....Partly insecurities of manhood and being judged in the bedroom. Met this one girl who became the centre of my universe for a bit. I was getting quite delusional being the white knight for her, even to the point of not physically escalating despite her having a man(long distance relationship), and asking me indirectly if it would be okay for her to ignore him.More than once... Damn I cringe that others would not even hesitate to take the opportunity.
I opened the forum account today because I would like to hold myself accountable and responsible for the results in my sexual life. I mean i was born with a dick for a reason lol. The energy now has to be trans-mutated into manifesting high quality females into my life through the mental toughness of cold approaching and honing on the fundamentals that it takes to be a skilled seducer.
Its going to take a lot more than words on a screen and conscious desire for this change to happen. Let me COMMIT to this with TANGIBLE Results.
A South African , and an avid reader of the material provided on GC for years, although it can seem written from a hyper-masculine lens at times. Nonetheless I have used material here and in some instances the results show
Man its been some time since i wanted to get committed to taking charge of responding to my sexual lifestyle. I have made an account before on the forum but lost it throughout the years.
I come from a background that is quite spiritual and strict in the christian upbringing. I have had to deal with sexual trauma and molestation in my early childhood years. Still finding healing. I did get ridiculed in some instances by family members and friends because I was more of a grower than a shower( Roughly 4-5in erect). BEEN watching porn for the longest time and only had a short break some years ago when I went to university, and focused on my social circle more. I gained some momentum but only got to break my virginity have sex with 2 people in the space of THREE TO FOUR YEARS....Partly insecurities of manhood and being judged in the bedroom. Met this one girl who became the centre of my universe for a bit. I was getting quite delusional being the white knight for her, even to the point of not physically escalating despite her having a man(long distance relationship), and asking me indirectly if it would be okay for her to ignore him.More than once... Damn I cringe that others would not even hesitate to take the opportunity.
I opened the forum account today because I would like to hold myself accountable and responsible for the results in my sexual life. I mean i was born with a dick for a reason lol. The energy now has to be trans-mutated into manifesting high quality females into my life through the mental toughness of cold approaching and honing on the fundamentals that it takes to be a skilled seducer.
Its going to take a lot more than words on a screen and conscious desire for this change to happen. Let me COMMIT to this with TANGIBLE Results.
