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So I know I said I didn't want to smoke to have to rely on something to chill out, but I ended up smoking and it's helped clear a whole lot of nonsense that has been bogging me down mentally.
I've never really looked at weed like this before but it seems to have helped remove emotions from my self-analysis and focus more on logic. I also have really used my high's productively and ended up feeling guilty about it, but this time incorporating it with walks and reading....increased focus on what I want.
Which, I realized, is a desire to improve on my masculinity, inside and outside. Men in society right now are so far away from real men compared to our ancestors and it's so sad. Deciding what the ideal masculine man is, to me, and then taking the steps to achieve it.
I have made some great steps in the past year to improving my masculine look and I'm happy with progress, but complete follow through with my inner game hasn't yet been achieved. My misstep, as small as it was, proved it. But what is my ideal masculine man? I haven't decided yet.
Currently I am reading:
-Decisive: How to make better choices in life and work
-King warrior magician lover
I still think I have some nice guy traits that I can do without so I'm going to get into No More MR Nice Guy next. I feel like a compass that was just calibrated to true north lol.
If I can achieve a supreme inward calm and self-assurance it will make my outer game matter less, I believe. Most of my downfalls are from a lack of true unwavering belief in myself.... the social skills are there.
I've never really looked at weed like this before but it seems to have helped remove emotions from my self-analysis and focus more on logic. I also have really used my high's productively and ended up feeling guilty about it, but this time incorporating it with walks and reading....increased focus on what I want.
Which, I realized, is a desire to improve on my masculinity, inside and outside. Men in society right now are so far away from real men compared to our ancestors and it's so sad. Deciding what the ideal masculine man is, to me, and then taking the steps to achieve it.
I have made some great steps in the past year to improving my masculine look and I'm happy with progress, but complete follow through with my inner game hasn't yet been achieved. My misstep, as small as it was, proved it. But what is my ideal masculine man? I haven't decided yet.
Currently I am reading:
-Decisive: How to make better choices in life and work
-King warrior magician lover
I still think I have some nice guy traits that I can do without so I'm going to get into No More MR Nice Guy next. I feel like a compass that was just calibrated to true north lol.
If I can achieve a supreme inward calm and self-assurance it will make my outer game matter less, I believe. Most of my downfalls are from a lack of true unwavering belief in myself.... the social skills are there.
