No empathy. How to develop? And how bad is it?

[Cacc]

I have no empathy or atleast very low enpathy. 2 movies have ever made me feel that emotional surge. Does that mean that I do have empathy? I will do/say bad things and at the moment and I won't feel anything emotionally at all. Then after, I'll think "I can imagine how me saying/doing x felt to that person."

I can rationally realize that I hurt the person but I can't emotionally feel it. I don't feel any guilt or remorse. I've done bad things and I never feel bad afterwards, not emotionally. A lot of times I'm able to rationally stop myself before doing something cus I realize it's a bad move.

Sometimes while delivering my wrath I will laugh. Not because I enjoy it, cus I don't, idk why but I just laugh. How can I become more in touch with my feelings?

 

[Effortless]

I've never been moved by movies either. I don't think that's a good metric for empathy.

 

[Hue]

I don't feel any guilt or remorse.

If you've never felt guilt or remorse, then sure that is a sign of very low / no empathy.

Sometimes while delivering my wrath I will laugh. Not because I enjoy it, cus I don't, idk why but I just laugh. How can I become more in touch with my feelings

What do you mean delivering your wrath?


Hueman

 

[Cacc]

What do you mean delivering your wrath?

I mean when I do or say something bad. Something I just remember, when I was in 5th grade my best friend told me his grandma died and I bust out laughing. I don't do it cus I think it's funny, I feel that I do it because I don't know how to relate emotionally, so I use laughter as the emotion that I know how to use. I was always known as that kid who laughed at inappropriate times.

If you've never felt guilt or remorse, then sure that is a sign of very low / no empathy.

Yeah. I know when I'm guilty and responsible, but I can't feel the emotion.

I'm beginning to believe I'm some kind of sociopath but I just don't have any other trait like manipulative or superficial charm, etc.


Like I said, I once watched a movie that touched me and I cried very hard. Is this a sign that I do feel empathy and have just become desensitized to having it off?