FR+: Starting Out Part I (3/X)
Summary: I run into [Gill] again, kind of at the wrong time, but it's...the right time?
[Gill] American [Rating: objective 7/subjective 7][Age: @25](ongoing)
note*:this interaction took place just days ago, now that I've been learning here at GC and working on my game for a couple of months.
Open: pre-existing
I was at the bar where I sometimes work at again. Now: I had scheduled a date with a girl I am currently pursuing for two days later, so I didn't really want to get into anything that night. But then a girl I have recently closed with texted me--she was out at a club and very eager to see me. I had already told her I would see her, and was planning to leave immediately after getting off work.
But then one of my co-workers mentioned that two cute blondes had come in. I planned to just ignore them, but couldn't resist the chance to get in a little more "practice". I looked down the bar and sure enough, there was the back of some blonde girl's head, and my friend/wingman (we'll start calling him Red-1) had already left to talk to them.
I approached, and imagine my surprise when it turned out to be...[Gill] and NoScrubs from weeks earlier. NoScrubs was abrasive as usual, but I remembered [Gill]'s name, and caught a very warm look from her, so I immediately ignored NoScrubs and moved into circle with [Gill].
Escalation: almost immediate (regret it tho, since it was in a public venue)
Gill was throwing me IOI's left and right, and we were having a lot of fun. I immediately set a sexual frame, and started cold reading her with the qualities I wanted her to display. She immediately accepted the frames and began qualifying herself with the characteristics I set for her. It was kind of odd, but we started talking at arms length, then we were at elbow length, then our shoulders were pretty much touching, in the space of about 10 minutes. I'm still stuck in a kissing at bars rut, and I just couldn't resist [Gill]'s IOI's, so I fell back on my tired routine:
Me: "Wow, you can wink with both eyes? But you're doing the big 'come hither' movie wink, that's too overt for me."
Her: "I like to be overt, I don't want to leave any confusion whatsoever."[joking warm suggestive look]
Me: "Oh really?, I tend to be more subvert, I like to keep it on the DL, like for example, you see that bar tender right there?"
...and you know the rest. [Gill] got very excited, and was actually maneuvering my knee between her legs as we kissed]. I told her I had to change, but I'd be right back and that she shouldn't go anywhere.
Move: natural
I had received another message from the other girl, (later I found she was going home, and had texted me the address of her apartment, hoping I would come over), but I didn't even look at my phone, and [Gill] asked me where we were going next. I had to cancel my previous plan to go to venue X, because as far as I knew, the other girl was still there. Luckily my coworkers were planning to go somewhere else. We bundled into the cab and headed to the next venue.
Red-1 was drunk (as usual), but was very voluble and was making hilarious jokes in the car. I was glad for this, because it kept the mood light during the transition. We got to the next venue, and NoScrubs decided to go home, [Gill] gave her the keys. Seeing this, Red-1 also decided to peel off, but then [Gill] said she should probably go home as well.
I kept my cool and just nodded in the direction of the venue. The old me would have let her, or panicked and got needy, but I just nodded in the direction of the venue and said: "Let's just go inside for a bit."
"OK, I guess I can have one drink." [Gill] replied. I had been told a friend would get us free drinks at the venue, but it turned out this was no longer the case. I had also told [Gill] this, so I felt like an idiot asking her to pay after all, so I ended up paying for the drinks.
We sat down and started talking about this and that, it turns out that [Gill] teaches kindergarten here in SH (as did the three most recent girls I've interacted with, including the one I had recently closed with). We talked some more, but I was pretty drunk, and wasn't really listening 100%. At one point I squeezed [Gill]'s knee just above the kneecap, getting her to jump. She complained that I wasn't even listening to her.
Close: fail
We talked for a bit more, I drew her in for another session of kissing,and suggested we go back to my place. [Gill] made some excuses, Thanksgiving was the next day, she had to make pies, etc. I persisted nonetheless, listing all the great reasons she should still come with me.
Then [Gill]'s real reasons started surfacing: "What, on the first date?" she said with a smile. This didn't actually fit, as [Gill] had told me earlier that she would be leaving in a couple of weeks, so she couldn't be trying to slow things down. This probably meant the real reason was I hadn't made her want me enough, or had already satiated her too much with all that damn kissing.
I persisted nonetheless. "Hehe, you seem like you're used to getting girls to do what you want." she said, smiling. This threw up a red flag for me, this, plus the comment about me not listening to her earlier made me feel like she felt I was coming on too strong, and trying to play her.
We left the venue, and I saw her to her gate (as chance would have it, she lived almost directly across the street from the venue). [Gill] invited me to Thanksgiving dinner the next day, but I refused (I had a class anyway), in my old days, I would have been there with bells on, shifting my schedule and running over right after my lesson, but I knew better than to take her up on an offer for such a BF/friendzone event. I told her I really wanted to go, but that I would be busy.
(I was rewarded with a warm text the next day (today), I didn't push for a meet up, because today is also the day I'm supposed to go out with the other...other girl (ugh).)
I had to think fast as I stumbled home, and texted the other girl, who was asleep and non responsive. Luckily, it was easy to recover things with her the next day, but I'm still worried because I just don't have any time to meet up with her, and I don't really want to, because I'm still hoping things will pan out with this "main" girl I'm pursuing currently.
I walked home and stumbled around my fountain, then ran into this drunk Chinese guy and his girl. He seemed pissed off at first, but then bought us some beers. I pounded a couple more beers with him and went home and fell into a drunken sleep, it was 5 in the morning. Four hours later I woke with a start and seriously thought about calling in late to work, then I grabbed myself and threw myself out of bed (it's a bit hard to do) and went to work, because I'm really starting to get out of control.
[Interaction Rating]: 7
The interaction was fairly textbook, so I was pleased with it. No close, but really, I knew I was setting myself up for a failed close, because I've already learned how detrimental kissing in public can be (I've been doing it quite a lot). I'm a bit out of control here. I'm still stuck in this phase now where I'm doing things not necessarily according to plan, but just because I can. I feel like I'm screwing up my priorities and leaning over toward the "dark side". The smarter man might have just built strong rapport with [Gill] and set up a meeting for a later date, without deflating her desire with kissing...in PUBLIC, and went on the sure thing date with the girl he had already closed with.
The even smarter man might just not be trying to run game on three girls at the same time (four if you count the other girl who texted me today trying to get together tomorrow). The thing is, I'm spreading myself way too thin, and I don't have the time, resources, or know-how to handle it. I don't even really want to, I just didn't know I could, and I'm finding it very hard to stop myself (see my journal entry: "I have a problem").
I'm chasing petty rewards in a kind of sloppy way, but I'm sure I'll get out of this phase, hopefully sooner than later.