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This marks a year of me putting my social life into over drive. Up until now i’ve kind of been hitting every aspect of myself from all angles, and i’ve seen pretty good results in my opinion.
That being said I’ve had no linear clear cut process in regards to getting better. I’ve just been studying, taking notes, and implementing independently, and using the advice i’ve gotten from you guys when I felt I needed it. I recently started a journal that I plan on updating so that I can have more structure in getting better.
Right now my biggest issue is maintaining a social momentum. My life isn’t set up for constant socialization so I find myself starting cold all the time. This is partially because of the winter.
Lately it’s been messing with my frame of mind and I feel myself fighting out of negative feedback loops. I feel myself fighting AA and SA more often when this wasn’t a problem months ago. That being said I still go out alone, but that doesn’t make it any less grueling, and I think it feeds the negative loop. Right now i’m processing things like so:
low performance (due to aa, sa/ weaker frame of mind)> kicking myself for not performing how I know i’m capable> sticking through it> low performance
Wash rinse repeat.
I made a post on how I was essentially ridding myself of toxic feelings, but it’s been more like a quick fix. It’s like filling a flat tire with air, it works for a little but then it goes back flat again. right now i’m putting myself on overhaul by getting back into the gym and being more productive.
But I have to ask for any advice on getting over this rut i’ve found myself in? Has anyone else had this issue earlier on in their journey? Mid game is the easy part, Opening and Closing is like a tug of war for me right now and I feel as though i’ve regressed.
Am I going about it wrong?
That being said I’ve had no linear clear cut process in regards to getting better. I’ve just been studying, taking notes, and implementing independently, and using the advice i’ve gotten from you guys when I felt I needed it. I recently started a journal that I plan on updating so that I can have more structure in getting better.
Right now my biggest issue is maintaining a social momentum. My life isn’t set up for constant socialization so I find myself starting cold all the time. This is partially because of the winter.
Lately it’s been messing with my frame of mind and I feel myself fighting out of negative feedback loops. I feel myself fighting AA and SA more often when this wasn’t a problem months ago. That being said I still go out alone, but that doesn’t make it any less grueling, and I think it feeds the negative loop. Right now i’m processing things like so:
low performance (due to aa, sa/ weaker frame of mind)> kicking myself for not performing how I know i’m capable> sticking through it> low performance
Wash rinse repeat.
I made a post on how I was essentially ridding myself of toxic feelings, but it’s been more like a quick fix. It’s like filling a flat tire with air, it works for a little but then it goes back flat again. right now i’m putting myself on overhaul by getting back into the gym and being more productive.
But I have to ask for any advice on getting over this rut i’ve found myself in? Has anyone else had this issue earlier on in their journey? Mid game is the easy part, Opening and Closing is like a tug of war for me right now and I feel as though i’ve regressed.
Am I going about it wrong?