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In my language class, there's a young woman (she's actually 21).
The Class
Quite intimate (we're down to 10-15 students regularly attending), evenings, Euro aunt first-time professor, I'm her favorite simply because I love the subject and otherwise act like a grad student. In addition, due to organizing an unofficial trip and other things, I have a certain amount of social proof and alpha-ness.
Also, I've had two, maybe three (the doubtful one has an older BF, she was PDAing in a cutesy way on the trip I organized, but she asked for my number rather spontaneously) girls, including the affluent white princess I've mentioned a few times in my journal (she's been skipping lately, idk if she'll even show up for the final), hit on me.
The Girl
Very petite (but average curves in that compact package), always wears makeup (turned me off a bit initially), a year or so older than me but totally inexperienced, incredibly shy (gets off a stop late because the homeless woman at her stop always heckles her, literally ran away when the aforementioned Rich White Girl (who is much less scary in person than she sounds) tried to pull her into our convo after class once). I think she might be on the spectrum, or else have serious social anxiety and stuff.
But I've gotten to know her. We commute together often. Gradually she's opened up to me. She was planning to transfer for spring but is now going to be staying.
Two bus rides ago, she asked what "the straight-haired girl"'s name was. When I told her, she was like "I expected it to be something whiter" and stuff. I decided she was worthy of my confidence and told her that I liked that girl as a person but I wasn't sure if we were compatible.
After getting off the bus, I realized that she was probing for information.
The most recent bus ride together (a week or two after this), I got her number and, a bit later, asked if she was single. She is but "I've never [been on a date]". Not surprising given her shyness and comfort being on her own. I suggested that we go to a park together and talk sometime (seemed the best date option).
A bit later, she told me she "wasn't really looking for a relationship" (which means the opposite of what it usually does). I told her, of course that "if you just want to be friends that's fine, you're cool". Since I didn't get a hard no, I kept feeling around a little. Then I told her, with my best effort at calibrated honesty, that I wasn't sure if I was looking for a committed relationship either but that I was open to getting together with a girlfriend, that I want to explore my options a bit, that I'm religious but "as the Good Book saith: 'tis not good for Man to be alone" (Genesis 2 if anyone's curious), etc. She didn't respond much, but I'd say it was a yellow light.
I let her sleep on it. This was a few days ago.
Anyway, I think the best thing to do, given her sensitivity, is to be friends and not push her too much, leave the door open and gradually make her feel more comfortable until she's ready for me to be her first. I want to bring out her hidden depths, platonically or sexually. And I'm the best guy to do it.
I'm planning to call and/or text her in a bit, trying to arrange something as friends to break the ice. Group activities might be complicated because of her shyness and stuff.
Thoughts or advice would be greatly appreciated.
The Class
Quite intimate (we're down to 10-15 students regularly attending), evenings, Euro aunt first-time professor, I'm her favorite simply because I love the subject and otherwise act like a grad student. In addition, due to organizing an unofficial trip and other things, I have a certain amount of social proof and alpha-ness.
Also, I've had two, maybe three (the doubtful one has an older BF, she was PDAing in a cutesy way on the trip I organized, but she asked for my number rather spontaneously) girls, including the affluent white princess I've mentioned a few times in my journal (she's been skipping lately, idk if she'll even show up for the final), hit on me.
The Girl
Very petite (but average curves in that compact package), always wears makeup (turned me off a bit initially), a year or so older than me but totally inexperienced, incredibly shy (gets off a stop late because the homeless woman at her stop always heckles her, literally ran away when the aforementioned Rich White Girl (who is much less scary in person than she sounds) tried to pull her into our convo after class once). I think she might be on the spectrum, or else have serious social anxiety and stuff.
But I've gotten to know her. We commute together often. Gradually she's opened up to me. She was planning to transfer for spring but is now going to be staying.
Two bus rides ago, she asked what "the straight-haired girl"'s name was. When I told her, she was like "I expected it to be something whiter" and stuff. I decided she was worthy of my confidence and told her that I liked that girl as a person but I wasn't sure if we were compatible.
After getting off the bus, I realized that she was probing for information.
The most recent bus ride together (a week or two after this), I got her number and, a bit later, asked if she was single. She is but "I've never [been on a date]". Not surprising given her shyness and comfort being on her own. I suggested that we go to a park together and talk sometime (seemed the best date option).
A bit later, she told me she "wasn't really looking for a relationship" (which means the opposite of what it usually does). I told her, of course that "if you just want to be friends that's fine, you're cool". Since I didn't get a hard no, I kept feeling around a little. Then I told her, with my best effort at calibrated honesty, that I wasn't sure if I was looking for a committed relationship either but that I was open to getting together with a girlfriend, that I want to explore my options a bit, that I'm religious but "as the Good Book saith: 'tis not good for Man to be alone" (Genesis 2 if anyone's curious), etc. She didn't respond much, but I'd say it was a yellow light.
I let her sleep on it. This was a few days ago.
Anyway, I think the best thing to do, given her sensitivity, is to be friends and not push her too much, leave the door open and gradually make her feel more comfortable until she's ready for me to be her first. I want to bring out her hidden depths, platonically or sexually. And I'm the best guy to do it.
I'm planning to call and/or text her in a bit, trying to arrange something as friends to break the ice. Group activities might be complicated because of her shyness and stuff.
Thoughts or advice would be greatly appreciated.