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Howdy Gents,
Today was my first day back at University since the winter break. But it was more than that. As a guy with serious logistics issues (I live at home with my parents and have no personal automobile), any school break is a break from nearly all social activity. I normally take this time to re-center myself mentally, catch up on reading, and relax until I can be active when school starts back up again, but the time off takes its toll.
First, my approach anxiety has come back in full force. I was amazed at some of the talent I was seeing in campus and yet I just could not compel myself to walk over approach. I have confidence that I'll overcome it quickly, I just was not prepared to be handicapped to that extent.
Secondly, is what time away from women does to your standards. Midway through the fall semester, I took on a lover from one of my classes and we were sleeping together regularly (in her car lol). She had a great personality and was cute enough, but not beautiful enough to be girlfriend quality. Yet when she hit me up over the break, I was enamored with her. She would send titillating nudes to me via Snapchat on a daily basis and very nearly roped me into a relationship even. But despite part of me being tempted to commit, I knew I would regret it and brushed off her requests. When we met up to head to her car I felt bad. That lust I had for her during the break was gone. My eyes had gazed upon better prospects.
All in all, if you can avoid it don't go an entire month socially isolated. I came back plagued with approach anxiety and my complete lack of abundance had turned a HB6 into a HB9.
Today was my first day back at University since the winter break. But it was more than that. As a guy with serious logistics issues (I live at home with my parents and have no personal automobile), any school break is a break from nearly all social activity. I normally take this time to re-center myself mentally, catch up on reading, and relax until I can be active when school starts back up again, but the time off takes its toll.
First, my approach anxiety has come back in full force. I was amazed at some of the talent I was seeing in campus and yet I just could not compel myself to walk over approach. I have confidence that I'll overcome it quickly, I just was not prepared to be handicapped to that extent.
Secondly, is what time away from women does to your standards. Midway through the fall semester, I took on a lover from one of my classes and we were sleeping together regularly (in her car lol). She had a great personality and was cute enough, but not beautiful enough to be girlfriend quality. Yet when she hit me up over the break, I was enamored with her. She would send titillating nudes to me via Snapchat on a daily basis and very nearly roped me into a relationship even. But despite part of me being tempted to commit, I knew I would regret it and brushed off her requests. When we met up to head to her car I felt bad. That lust I had for her during the break was gone. My eyes had gazed upon better prospects.
All in all, if you can avoid it don't go an entire month socially isolated. I came back plagued with approach anxiety and my complete lack of abundance had turned a HB6 into a HB9.
