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So today I was off from work and I have been telling myself that I should go out. Everytime i'm off I end up doing the same thing which is play ps4,then go to the gym and then come back home to play ps4 again or just lay in bed and I decided something needed to change.If I want to have women in my life I need to do something different. I don't have a reason for not going out,but what kept me was anxiety and lazyness.I didn't even touch the ps4 in the morning because I know I wont want to stop playing so I went to the gym to workout, went to grab something to eat,came back home to leave my bag there, relax for a little bit and then go out again. I made sure not to feel too comfortable because I know the minute I do i'm fucked. My brain won't want to exert energy to go out when I can just lay in bed and not have to work. Even after I left my building I still wanted to turn around and go back home,but I fought this resistance and got on the train to go downtown.
So I went on the train and got off and went to 116th and saw a lot of people there since it's right next to Colombia University. A lot of attractive women go there and I saw some cute girls walking. I was mostly just walking and trying to make eye contact with women in my line of sight. Most of the people I made eye contact with looked down which means they felt uncomfortable or submitting tovme including men. One girl may have even smiled at me from accross the street, but I didn't hold in eye contact. Not too long after this I saw the actress who played Jessica Jones along with the girl who plays her friend from the show Trish. I thought it was kinda cool to see some actresses whose show I watched. They looked very plain looking irl especially the girl that plays trish walker. I thought about approaching them and saying hi and taking a picture,but I dont think I cared enough to do it.
I got on the train again and went to 59st Colombus Circle which I know is always busy with people. I went to the mall and checked it out to see what traffic was like in there. I wasn't impressed and didn't feel like there was a lot of space or girls that I would want to talk to and it felt congested. When I came down I saw this one girl who I thought about approaching but then my brain told myself she's not that cute she's not worth approaching. I think I still have an issue with having standards that are too high and not willing to even practice approaching on girls unless I find them really attractive and know what to do with them.
I walk all the way down to 50st and see a lot of ok looking women walk by on the way. I think there was this curvy looking white woman who looked really good in this like yellow-greenish dress,but I didn't approach her because I was behind and didn't know how to open her properly without looking too tryhard.
I get on the train again and go down to 34st penn st which I have been to before and always see a lot of traffic and decided to explore further down and I see a good number of women there too. There was one white girl who I thought looked ok and didnt have headphones or nothing and I was thinking about opening her,but then I didnt do it because I think I didnt want to open her from the side and right before she's about to cross the street. I end up walking all the way down to chelsea then to 18st and then I take the train back home.
Originally I was telling myself before I left my house that I was gonna approach 5 women,but after getting off the first train stop I decided it was ok to just do the newbie assignment if I didnt approach. I didn't need to put pressure on myself and jump straight into approaching girls and get familiar with places that I could meet women. I could go to a few train stops during the day and just observe and see what kind of women are around the areas I was in which was kind of day 1's assignment. I also did a little bit of day 2 and 3 and watched the way I walk and other people and made eye contact with a bunch of people and noticed their response.And leaving the house was progress for me because it can be very hard for me to do so unless I have work. Sometimes I wont even leave my house to workout which I used to do all the time. Now I know what works for me. I know not to play ps4 on a day I want to go out and that when I am out I need to warm up socially. I think me not warming up and talking to anybody made me passive about opening women and reason myself out of it by telling myself things like I dont have a good opener or what should I do. I hope next day i'm out I approach some women and can make more progress.
So I went on the train and got off and went to 116th and saw a lot of people there since it's right next to Colombia University. A lot of attractive women go there and I saw some cute girls walking. I was mostly just walking and trying to make eye contact with women in my line of sight. Most of the people I made eye contact with looked down which means they felt uncomfortable or submitting tovme including men. One girl may have even smiled at me from accross the street, but I didn't hold in eye contact. Not too long after this I saw the actress who played Jessica Jones along with the girl who plays her friend from the show Trish. I thought it was kinda cool to see some actresses whose show I watched. They looked very plain looking irl especially the girl that plays trish walker. I thought about approaching them and saying hi and taking a picture,but I dont think I cared enough to do it.
I got on the train again and went to 59st Colombus Circle which I know is always busy with people. I went to the mall and checked it out to see what traffic was like in there. I wasn't impressed and didn't feel like there was a lot of space or girls that I would want to talk to and it felt congested. When I came down I saw this one girl who I thought about approaching but then my brain told myself she's not that cute she's not worth approaching. I think I still have an issue with having standards that are too high and not willing to even practice approaching on girls unless I find them really attractive and know what to do with them.
I walk all the way down to 50st and see a lot of ok looking women walk by on the way. I think there was this curvy looking white woman who looked really good in this like yellow-greenish dress,but I didn't approach her because I was behind and didn't know how to open her properly without looking too tryhard.
I get on the train again and go down to 34st penn st which I have been to before and always see a lot of traffic and decided to explore further down and I see a good number of women there too. There was one white girl who I thought looked ok and didnt have headphones or nothing and I was thinking about opening her,but then I didnt do it because I think I didnt want to open her from the side and right before she's about to cross the street. I end up walking all the way down to chelsea then to 18st and then I take the train back home.
Originally I was telling myself before I left my house that I was gonna approach 5 women,but after getting off the first train stop I decided it was ok to just do the newbie assignment if I didnt approach. I didn't need to put pressure on myself and jump straight into approaching girls and get familiar with places that I could meet women. I could go to a few train stops during the day and just observe and see what kind of women are around the areas I was in which was kind of day 1's assignment. I also did a little bit of day 2 and 3 and watched the way I walk and other people and made eye contact with a bunch of people and noticed their response.And leaving the house was progress for me because it can be very hard for me to do so unless I have work. Sometimes I wont even leave my house to workout which I used to do all the time. Now I know what works for me. I know not to play ps4 on a day I want to go out and that when I am out I need to warm up socially. I think me not warming up and talking to anybody made me passive about opening women and reason myself out of it by telling myself things like I dont have a good opener or what should I do. I hope next day i'm out I approach some women and can make more progress.
