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And so there was a “Level 7” Nuclear Meltdown…Discovering Juliet’s, ahhh… Alter Ego let’s say.
Or is She really just a “Porn Star??”
This challenge raised Several painful issues:
First - The fact that she just wasn’t open about her Graphic work, and essentially LIED, or mislead me. I mean I actually had respect for Jay Taylor & Alex Harper because of how HONEST they were about their porn work. However, also knowing about their Porn work - I couldn’t really be creative with them.
And there was the hang-up of possibly liking them if we met in person - because of course I “was” sexually attracted to them (then, not their burnt out look now - oye!!)
Second - Since Juliet mislead me about her Graphic work, and my Studio Contact is the one who found out about her PORN - that put me in a real tough Professional Position that could have really hurt me… And it could’ve been avoided had she just been up front about everything!!!
Third - I don’t understand WHY she mislead me? WHY She acted so Conservative - like some “Very SelectiveLady…” I mean her porn work is of she blowing other photographers after they shoot sets with her. Yet she wouldn’t even walk normal with me for fear of what - seeing that “delicious roast beef pussy??” It doesn’t make sense to me then and it doesn’t make sense to me now…
NOW - I do want to admit, that I am partially responsible for this WHOLE mix-up in terms of NOT looking her up myself even before we did the Major Studio shoot. I guess maybe subconsciously I was afraid of what I might find. And I wanted to believe her Story and Her imaginary Identity of being this Conservative Classy ART NUDE Model only… So, Yeah. I am to blame too…
However - this is the education I am trying to understand.
In-part I’ll admit, to a degree, Juliet’s Porn kinda makes her more hot. - Pornstar next door I guess??
But at the same time there’s a bit of disgust.
I mean who wants to see the girl they like with some other guy’s cum in her mouth, on her tits and on her asshole after pulling out??
YET - how is that any different than a girl you meet on the street who goes home with Billy from the Bar Friday Night - has the same sex - just, there aren’t any cameras around to take pics and vids?? - Right?
Or what about sexting? Like Jennifer Lawrence and her pics with dicks that were leaked a while back. And YET she’s supposed to be some kind of Angelic “Hollywood Lady” star - right??
So what is the difference between the Actual Porn Stars - Jay Tayler or Alex Harper and Juliet in this case??
If I were to have sex and date Juliet - who does Porn - then what’s the difference for me go out and trying to Game Ashley Adams or Marina Visconti?? They are “Succulent and Sultry” girls like Juliet…
And I imagine Juliet, has done pretty much the same shit as they have - RIGHT??
Perhaps not as much on camera as they have…(That I know of for now at least)
YET she still tries realllly hard to be that Angelic “Lady” like Jennifer Lawrence.
So with this in Mind.
And not having any real MALE Advice or someone to understand the situation.
I mean Javier’s advice was to just - DO NOTHING, and “Forget about her…”
OKAY - “Don’t think about a PINK Elephant!” What are you now thinking about??
So I reached out to the Female Psychotherapist who came up with this FANTASTIC IDEA!!
Wanna know what it was??
Wait for it…
Write Juliet an HONEST LETTER about my FEELINGS about the whole situation and send it to her!!!
Yes… That’s what she recommended.
Of course she didn’t force me to write it. Therapists don’t force. However she strongly recommended I write it. - And send it to her.
The Therapist also suggested I invite Juliet to try some Therapy too, since in the Psychotherapist’s opinion (not diagnosis), Juliet showed signs of Histrionic and/or Borderline disorder - and quote “I’d be doing Juliet a Favor to recommend some kind of therapy…”
SO I wrote the Letter - Making my first point about she lying and misleading me about her graphic work. I compared her to that of Jay Tayloer & Alex Harper. Then I admitted how I felt like a 13 year old boy seeing his first naked girl in-person when she was Erotically Sweating at our Photoshoot... Then I included analogies to She and I being like Character’s in Sin City… Then Fight Club - She being like “Marla Singer” and I - the Narrator… I also vented my suspicions that she’s part of Group Sex Parties like “Eyes Wide Shut.” I’m Tom Cruise’s Character and she’s the Voluptuous Woman who gives herself to save him…
I mean, how realistic is it that Juliet really is part of these Parties like the one in “True Detective” Season 2 - which is a good season by the way, Vince Vaughn (a “Legend”) really knocks it outta the park. I didn’t care for the female lead, though - she was trying too hard to be a “strong female character,”
Anyway - yeah, Juliet being part of the “P-Diddy Parties??
How about She being a “Vegas Weekend Warrior” if you know what I mean - “High End Escort” both in Vegas and in Arizona because she’s lived out there too…
So I finished the letter stating that I wouldn’t call her a slut, or would really judge her, just that I was really pissed about being mislead…
Yeah. I wrote all that. The passed it by the Female Psychotherapist who reviewed it, and said it would be okay to send it to her. To both be “cathartic” for me and possibly help her out with these perceived mental issues…
So I sent it!
Using a Pseudonym email address of course…
And guess what!
Juliet responded.
She responded - “I know who this is, and this is probably the creepiest thing I have ever read. Please don’t ever contact me again!”
And I was even MORE Crushed. More upset than before. And I confronted the Female Therapist about it. And she was like - “Humm, that’s strange. It should have worked - because I am a female - and I know how females work…”
And that’s when I was like - “Maybe you DON’T KNOW how Females work!”
So I said to myself “Fuck this Therapist,” and this lame shit with people who DON’T know anything about females, even though they say they do… Like Javier and this Therapist.
So I thought - There has to be a way to understand and learn how to SEDUCE and get Girls like Juliet…
And that’s when I found Seducer Resources like the girls chase site, and a seduction coach who does good infield videos online. Because this experience with Juliet erupted this Fucking Huge shift in how I though females and sexual relationships, and attraction worked.
Especially based on what the Female Therapist described as how it quote “works!”
Now Once Again we thought we were done with Juliet… Right??
We’ll kinda not really… Oye!
So a couple months later, just before I launched my Photography Portfolio Website, my Studio Contact reached out and said he needed copies of the model releases and ID for our project on the Major Studio Lot. Which meant I had to reach out to Juliet again, and see what happens.
The South African Actress responded quickly with a scanned image of her Passport.
Now Juliet responded with a picture of her ID in her hand, but in the background you could see how she was naked underneath a cracked open white robe. So the mind started to wonder, because usually Porno Videos have their Talent in white Robes - So was she doing a porno??
The robe she brought to our shoot was tan and had this kind of plaid pattern to it. But then I thought Hotels usually have White Robs - So is she at a Hotel with a client??
Again the mind starts to wander…
So another month or so goes by and I Launch my Website. I shoot out an introductory email (using mail chimp) to ALL of my contacts on my Networking list which happened to include Juliet.
And BOOM I get a quick reply from Her - “I have stalkers, so please use my Stage Name for our work instead of my real Name…” See, because I give my talent credit and try to cross promote them, so like the South African Actress and her real name - so people could look her work up, I put down Juliet’s name with the idea that people could see her Digital Photography & Videography plus Fashion Work…
Now, there were two things going on here:
1. I CAN’T Use her Porn Stage name for our shoot together at the Major Studio - DUH
Isn’t that what I wrote Her in that controversial letter??
2. I had just begun to read about Game, and read an article about teasing - so I thought it would be a good Idea to try and tease her here - to spark a conversation…
So I responded to her with something along the lines of- “Juliet,I thought you were a Female Super Hero… Which one better describes you - Scarlett Johansson’s Black Widow, or Anne Hathaway’s Catwoman - I could see you as being both…”
AND NOTHING…
Now Here is WHY I wrote this whole series about Juliet on the Forum:
1. Is that recently I have been tortured - having to have to look at her delicious naked body every time I submit my work to these Art Galleries, and I started submitting work in July …
2. Given my Financial hardship - JAVIER - of all people - suggested that I put up her NUDE B-Shots of ours on Bentbox and sell them, using an alias, and obviously leaving the 6 Gallery Quality Images out.
So I open a free account to research how Benbox works - and in the weirdest way - all of a sudden I’m getting email suggestions to view her personal Nude page on the site!
So I’m getting slapped in the face with her Artistic Nude work anytime I open that alias email account
To be frank, some of her Artistic Nude- is actually quite good - for instance- she on a cliff with a waterfall etc…
3. The FEAR of putting her work up on Bentbox with her Stage Name - I’m afraid she might see it and contact me through BentBox if I end up selling our Photography work together… And I wouldn’t want to Fuck Up with her again for like the 100th time!
4. I recently changed services for my email outs, and just uploaded my contact list from that old Word Doc which included her email addresses - personal and professional.
Weird - In one of my last email outs, she unsubscribed her professional email - but not her personal…
5. I’m neurotic about possibly bumping into her again and would HATE to make the same mistakes as before. However I am also nervous that she won’t be as authentic and attractive as she was and fear that she might turn into that bad plastic surgery, gained weight Jay Taylor & Alex Harper…
And FINALLY - YES FINALLY (for me, not you…)
There are the Unrealized Erotic Art I had hoped to do with Juliet but what I learned - is that I won’t shoot another Nude Set with any Girl unless I am dating the Her!!!
So these Unrealized Erotic Art Sets that Juliet would totally Fit include:
Gorman - Nude “Grapes of Wrath” set at abandoned ranch house on top of the San Andreas Fault
Piru/Carrizo Plain - Nude Vaquera… She nude with a gun holster and two pistols, both on an Abandoned Train Bridge in Piru, and next to/in an abandoned barn in the Carrizo Plain National Park
Desert Center - A tight booty-shorts and revealing V-top (those awesome real breasts remember) set with my Mustang at an abandoned Gas Station way out in Desert Center outside of Palm Springs - Weekend Fuck/Photography trip…
San Juan Inn in Mexican Hat - Various Nude in the Desert with Red Rock formations and at the San Juan Inn in the remote Utah/Arizona border town of Mexican Hat - it’s a pretty incredible place next to Monument Valley - and of course a heavy Fuck Road trip - duh…
And some of these erotic Images could be sold to a Spanish Art Porn Magazine called “Lascivia” which promotes OnlyFans Girls and Erotic Art like Juliet’s…
“And that is that…” - Good Fellas
(Or who knows??)
This fits - “You’ve had alotta dick, I’ve had alotta time, you’ve had alotta Dick Juliet, but you ain’t had mine…”
Or is She really just a “Porn Star??”
This challenge raised Several painful issues:
First - The fact that she just wasn’t open about her Graphic work, and essentially LIED, or mislead me. I mean I actually had respect for Jay Taylor & Alex Harper because of how HONEST they were about their porn work. However, also knowing about their Porn work - I couldn’t really be creative with them.
And there was the hang-up of possibly liking them if we met in person - because of course I “was” sexually attracted to them (then, not their burnt out look now - oye!!)
Second - Since Juliet mislead me about her Graphic work, and my Studio Contact is the one who found out about her PORN - that put me in a real tough Professional Position that could have really hurt me… And it could’ve been avoided had she just been up front about everything!!!
Third - I don’t understand WHY she mislead me? WHY She acted so Conservative - like some “Very SelectiveLady…” I mean her porn work is of she blowing other photographers after they shoot sets with her. Yet she wouldn’t even walk normal with me for fear of what - seeing that “delicious roast beef pussy??” It doesn’t make sense to me then and it doesn’t make sense to me now…
NOW - I do want to admit, that I am partially responsible for this WHOLE mix-up in terms of NOT looking her up myself even before we did the Major Studio shoot. I guess maybe subconsciously I was afraid of what I might find. And I wanted to believe her Story and Her imaginary Identity of being this Conservative Classy ART NUDE Model only… So, Yeah. I am to blame too…
However - this is the education I am trying to understand.
In-part I’ll admit, to a degree, Juliet’s Porn kinda makes her more hot. - Pornstar next door I guess??
But at the same time there’s a bit of disgust.
I mean who wants to see the girl they like with some other guy’s cum in her mouth, on her tits and on her asshole after pulling out??
YET - how is that any different than a girl you meet on the street who goes home with Billy from the Bar Friday Night - has the same sex - just, there aren’t any cameras around to take pics and vids?? - Right?
Or what about sexting? Like Jennifer Lawrence and her pics with dicks that were leaked a while back. And YET she’s supposed to be some kind of Angelic “Hollywood Lady” star - right??
So what is the difference between the Actual Porn Stars - Jay Tayler or Alex Harper and Juliet in this case??
If I were to have sex and date Juliet - who does Porn - then what’s the difference for me go out and trying to Game Ashley Adams or Marina Visconti?? They are “Succulent and Sultry” girls like Juliet…
And I imagine Juliet, has done pretty much the same shit as they have - RIGHT??
Perhaps not as much on camera as they have…(That I know of for now at least)
YET she still tries realllly hard to be that Angelic “Lady” like Jennifer Lawrence.
So with this in Mind.
And not having any real MALE Advice or someone to understand the situation.
I mean Javier’s advice was to just - DO NOTHING, and “Forget about her…”
OKAY - “Don’t think about a PINK Elephant!” What are you now thinking about??
So I reached out to the Female Psychotherapist who came up with this FANTASTIC IDEA!!
Wanna know what it was??
Wait for it…
Write Juliet an HONEST LETTER about my FEELINGS about the whole situation and send it to her!!!
Yes… That’s what she recommended.
Of course she didn’t force me to write it. Therapists don’t force. However she strongly recommended I write it. - And send it to her.
The Therapist also suggested I invite Juliet to try some Therapy too, since in the Psychotherapist’s opinion (not diagnosis), Juliet showed signs of Histrionic and/or Borderline disorder - and quote “I’d be doing Juliet a Favor to recommend some kind of therapy…”
SO I wrote the Letter - Making my first point about she lying and misleading me about her graphic work. I compared her to that of Jay Tayloer & Alex Harper. Then I admitted how I felt like a 13 year old boy seeing his first naked girl in-person when she was Erotically Sweating at our Photoshoot... Then I included analogies to She and I being like Character’s in Sin City… Then Fight Club - She being like “Marla Singer” and I - the Narrator… I also vented my suspicions that she’s part of Group Sex Parties like “Eyes Wide Shut.” I’m Tom Cruise’s Character and she’s the Voluptuous Woman who gives herself to save him…
I mean, how realistic is it that Juliet really is part of these Parties like the one in “True Detective” Season 2 - which is a good season by the way, Vince Vaughn (a “Legend”) really knocks it outta the park. I didn’t care for the female lead, though - she was trying too hard to be a “strong female character,”
Anyway - yeah, Juliet being part of the “P-Diddy Parties??
How about She being a “Vegas Weekend Warrior” if you know what I mean - “High End Escort” both in Vegas and in Arizona because she’s lived out there too…
So I finished the letter stating that I wouldn’t call her a slut, or would really judge her, just that I was really pissed about being mislead…
Yeah. I wrote all that. The passed it by the Female Psychotherapist who reviewed it, and said it would be okay to send it to her. To both be “cathartic” for me and possibly help her out with these perceived mental issues…
So I sent it!
Using a Pseudonym email address of course…
And guess what!
Juliet responded.
She responded - “I know who this is, and this is probably the creepiest thing I have ever read. Please don’t ever contact me again!”
And that’s when I was like - “Maybe you DON’T KNOW how Females work!”
So I said to myself “Fuck this Therapist,” and this lame shit with people who DON’T know anything about females, even though they say they do… Like Javier and this Therapist.
So I thought - There has to be a way to understand and learn how to SEDUCE and get Girls like Juliet…
And that’s when I found Seducer Resources like the girls chase site, and a seduction coach who does good infield videos online. Because this experience with Juliet erupted this Fucking Huge shift in how I though females and sexual relationships, and attraction worked.
Especially based on what the Female Therapist described as how it quote “works!”
Now Once Again we thought we were done with Juliet… Right??
We’ll kinda not really… Oye!
So a couple months later, just before I launched my Photography Portfolio Website, my Studio Contact reached out and said he needed copies of the model releases and ID for our project on the Major Studio Lot. Which meant I had to reach out to Juliet again, and see what happens.
The South African Actress responded quickly with a scanned image of her Passport.
Now Juliet responded with a picture of her ID in her hand, but in the background you could see how she was naked underneath a cracked open white robe. So the mind started to wonder, because usually Porno Videos have their Talent in white Robes - So was she doing a porno??
The robe she brought to our shoot was tan and had this kind of plaid pattern to it. But then I thought Hotels usually have White Robs - So is she at a Hotel with a client??
Again the mind starts to wander…
So another month or so goes by and I Launch my Website. I shoot out an introductory email (using mail chimp) to ALL of my contacts on my Networking list which happened to include Juliet.
And BOOM I get a quick reply from Her - “I have stalkers, so please use my Stage Name for our work instead of my real Name…” See, because I give my talent credit and try to cross promote them, so like the South African Actress and her real name - so people could look her work up, I put down Juliet’s name with the idea that people could see her Digital Photography & Videography plus Fashion Work…
Now, there were two things going on here:
1. I CAN’T Use her Porn Stage name for our shoot together at the Major Studio - DUH
Isn’t that what I wrote Her in that controversial letter??
2. I had just begun to read about Game, and read an article about teasing - so I thought it would be a good Idea to try and tease her here - to spark a conversation…
So I responded to her with something along the lines of- “Juliet,I thought you were a Female Super Hero… Which one better describes you - Scarlett Johansson’s Black Widow, or Anne Hathaway’s Catwoman - I could see you as being both…”
AND NOTHING…
Now Here is WHY I wrote this whole series about Juliet on the Forum:
1. Is that recently I have been tortured - having to have to look at her delicious naked body every time I submit my work to these Art Galleries, and I started submitting work in July …
2. Given my Financial hardship - JAVIER - of all people - suggested that I put up her NUDE B-Shots of ours on Bentbox and sell them, using an alias, and obviously leaving the 6 Gallery Quality Images out.
So I open a free account to research how Benbox works - and in the weirdest way - all of a sudden I’m getting email suggestions to view her personal Nude page on the site!
So I’m getting slapped in the face with her Artistic Nude work anytime I open that alias email account
To be frank, some of her Artistic Nude- is actually quite good - for instance- she on a cliff with a waterfall etc…
3. The FEAR of putting her work up on Bentbox with her Stage Name - I’m afraid she might see it and contact me through BentBox if I end up selling our Photography work together… And I wouldn’t want to Fuck Up with her again for like the 100th time!
4. I recently changed services for my email outs, and just uploaded my contact list from that old Word Doc which included her email addresses - personal and professional.
Weird - In one of my last email outs, she unsubscribed her professional email - but not her personal…
5. I’m neurotic about possibly bumping into her again and would HATE to make the same mistakes as before. However I am also nervous that she won’t be as authentic and attractive as she was and fear that she might turn into that bad plastic surgery, gained weight Jay Taylor & Alex Harper…
And FINALLY - YES FINALLY (for me, not you…)
There are the Unrealized Erotic Art I had hoped to do with Juliet but what I learned - is that I won’t shoot another Nude Set with any Girl unless I am dating the Her!!!
So these Unrealized Erotic Art Sets that Juliet would totally Fit include:
Gorman - Nude “Grapes of Wrath” set at abandoned ranch house on top of the San Andreas Fault
Piru/Carrizo Plain - Nude Vaquera… She nude with a gun holster and two pistols, both on an Abandoned Train Bridge in Piru, and next to/in an abandoned barn in the Carrizo Plain National Park
Desert Center - A tight booty-shorts and revealing V-top (those awesome real breasts remember) set with my Mustang at an abandoned Gas Station way out in Desert Center outside of Palm Springs - Weekend Fuck/Photography trip…
San Juan Inn in Mexican Hat - Various Nude in the Desert with Red Rock formations and at the San Juan Inn in the remote Utah/Arizona border town of Mexican Hat - it’s a pretty incredible place next to Monument Valley - and of course a heavy Fuck Road trip - duh…
And some of these erotic Images could be sold to a Spanish Art Porn Magazine called “Lascivia” which promotes OnlyFans Girls and Erotic Art like Juliet’s…
“And that is that…” - Good Fellas
(Or who knows??)
This fits - “You’ve had alotta dick, I’ve had alotta time, you’ve had alotta Dick Juliet, but you ain’t had mine…”
