Well .. my story..
I met this girl via twitter.I really liked her and did all the rights things to gauge her level of attraction towards me.I made a date and it was like magic ..you could cut the attraction with the knife.We were very compatible in most things,share the same principles etc..It was instant..
The first month it was like heaven..she did everything she could for me and she even said that she loved me and dreaming about our future.
The thing was me ..i was very much into her but my work was at the lowest point.I was expecting a work deal that was a 'do or die for me' that didnt flurish and i went COMPLETELY broke!!i was shocked..i didnt have a dime.Only the home i was living in and little support from my mother pension.It was the first time for me and i didnt know what to do.I was depressed.She was very supportive and sweet..she was paying for my drinks when we went out or taking me small trips with her car..
The relationship was completely in her hands.i could do anything or made any desicion cause i hadnt any money.The whole thing was effecting my mood and my sexual drive..i didnt want to make love to her..i was a wreck..and took her for granded(i know...big mistake)..I was the woman in the relationship(sad but true)
After four months she started slowly removing her sexual interest(she didnt talk about making love so often as before)and become distant but tender..
The fifth month things went downhill.She became more distant and we didnt see each other a lot..
I was clingy from the moment i went broke and leaning to her ,giving her the keys of our reliationship but at the sixth month i became suspicious and jealous..
The more she drifted away the more jealous i became..(another HUGE mistake..)
The last week of our relationship i caught her texting once when we where out ,asked her about it and she told me that she was from a facebook girlfriend.I didnt know her...
I didnt believe her and i was very persistent.I told her that something was very fishy..and then she asked to meet me..i refused and then she gave me the 'i dont feel this way for you anymore' speech..I said 'ok..the end' in anger and hung up the phone..
The next day i send her a text saying to deliver my expensive camera to our mutual friends for me to pick it up.She said that she wanted to bring it to me personally ..i declined..and she said 'you dont want to see me even for two minutes? ..i didnt reply and told her to send it to our friends..
The next day she called me to say that is ok..
Our friends told me that she was in bad shape.Deep down i knew the real reason of the brake up..(i was the p***sy and the submissive one)but they thought otherwise and beg me to call her..i did one week after we broke up.We spoke for about 10 minutes ..she stated that she was starting to 'lose it' gradually over the last two months and become angry with herself..anyway i told her not to go back with her ex who mistreated her and to find someone new..i also told her that i was going to block her from fb..i was devastated..
M work was getting better and after 20 days i finally sealed the deal i was expecting for so long..i was really happy ..it was a life changer for me..the same day my nephew told me that he is going to see a play with his school at the theater my ex works..i texted that to her telling to take good care of him and then 'add miss you brat' (stupid move ..i know)..she replied that she ll try to spot him find a good seat and even get him autographs from the actors..i then text her to call me when she got home cause i have something to tell her ..something important about my job that would made her happy..She did..I missed the call and call her after two hours..i was trying to be more happy than i actually was and talk about my success..i also told her that i understood how bore and uninteresting i was from the time i went broke but i didnt say anything to come back together..i asked to take care of my nephew again and said goodbye..The next day my nephew told me that noone had reach out for him and also told me that he saw the lady i was telling him..
Its been another 20 days since then ..with NC but i think of her all the time..
What should i do??my gut tells me that she is with her ex again..(i m not sure.)
Please advice..sorry for the long post..
I met this girl via twitter.I really liked her and did all the rights things to gauge her level of attraction towards me.I made a date and it was like magic ..you could cut the attraction with the knife.We were very compatible in most things,share the same principles etc..It was instant..
The first month it was like heaven..she did everything she could for me and she even said that she loved me and dreaming about our future.
The thing was me ..i was very much into her but my work was at the lowest point.I was expecting a work deal that was a 'do or die for me' that didnt flurish and i went COMPLETELY broke!!i was shocked..i didnt have a dime.Only the home i was living in and little support from my mother pension.It was the first time for me and i didnt know what to do.I was depressed.She was very supportive and sweet..she was paying for my drinks when we went out or taking me small trips with her car..
The relationship was completely in her hands.i could do anything or made any desicion cause i hadnt any money.The whole thing was effecting my mood and my sexual drive..i didnt want to make love to her..i was a wreck..and took her for granded(i know...big mistake)..I was the woman in the relationship(sad but true)
After four months she started slowly removing her sexual interest(she didnt talk about making love so often as before)and become distant but tender..
The fifth month things went downhill.She became more distant and we didnt see each other a lot..
I was clingy from the moment i went broke and leaning to her ,giving her the keys of our reliationship but at the sixth month i became suspicious and jealous..
The more she drifted away the more jealous i became..(another HUGE mistake..)
The last week of our relationship i caught her texting once when we where out ,asked her about it and she told me that she was from a facebook girlfriend.I didnt know her...
I didnt believe her and i was very persistent.I told her that something was very fishy..and then she asked to meet me..i refused and then she gave me the 'i dont feel this way for you anymore' speech..I said 'ok..the end' in anger and hung up the phone..
The next day i send her a text saying to deliver my expensive camera to our mutual friends for me to pick it up.She said that she wanted to bring it to me personally ..i declined..and she said 'you dont want to see me even for two minutes? ..i didnt reply and told her to send it to our friends..
The next day she called me to say that is ok..
Our friends told me that she was in bad shape.Deep down i knew the real reason of the brake up..(i was the p***sy and the submissive one)but they thought otherwise and beg me to call her..i did one week after we broke up.We spoke for about 10 minutes ..she stated that she was starting to 'lose it' gradually over the last two months and become angry with herself..anyway i told her not to go back with her ex who mistreated her and to find someone new..i also told her that i was going to block her from fb..i was devastated..
M work was getting better and after 20 days i finally sealed the deal i was expecting for so long..i was really happy ..it was a life changer for me..the same day my nephew told me that he is going to see a play with his school at the theater my ex works..i texted that to her telling to take good care of him and then 'add miss you brat' (stupid move ..i know)..she replied that she ll try to spot him find a good seat and even get him autographs from the actors..i then text her to call me when she got home cause i have something to tell her ..something important about my job that would made her happy..She did..I missed the call and call her after two hours..i was trying to be more happy than i actually was and talk about my success..i also told her that i understood how bore and uninteresting i was from the time i went broke but i didnt say anything to come back together..i asked to take care of my nephew again and said goodbye..The next day my nephew told me that noone had reach out for him and also told me that he saw the lady i was telling him..
Its been another 20 days since then ..with NC but i think of her all the time..
What should i do??my gut tells me that she is with her ex again..(i m not sure.)
Please advice..sorry for the long post..
