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This is my first thread and I believe it goes here. It is in a way a field report.
So I moved to this city 5 months ago and am leaving for Caribbean island next month. A neighbor in this period is this hot, 28 old Arabian girl with great body. We never talked , she had that cold vibe that just didn't click with me so I kind of ignored her. And she is lesbian (bisexual from what I know now). So last week we actually talked for the first time as she approached me when I was sitting outside having a smoke. We talked, I deep dived more by accident or good mood than on purpose but I think it worked but as she had to go to work it was a short one. Later that night she asked if she brings me beer from the store but as her english isn't that good I misunderstood and declined. She apologized next day by saying it was rude of her to invite me for beer on a working night and than stormed into the house. That in my opinion was her way of protecting herself, her ego, auto-rejection number 1. My instinct was to defuse the situation but decided to wait for her to cool down (she smokes weed a lot...). So next day I go to her house to invite her for a coffee but she had a visitor so today she came again and invited me to her house for a coffee.
Now I still wasn't sure if she was into me or not by this time as I still thought she was full lesbian despite the signs I got. So we talked a bit and than smoked weed. Unfortunately for me, my mind goes blank when I am stoned. So I basically asked her question about religion and than she did most of the talking (her mind is obviously on hyperdrive when high). So there I am, not able to make a decent sentence to save my life and am spectator to how women think when around someone they are attracted to. Because from religion it quickly came down to me not being a good guy for her as she is leaving for a month on monday and when she comes back I'll be already gone. How she thought about having sex with me for five months and how now knows it is not a good idea. So it was literally watching her reasoning for not being with me out loud. And I think now that every women goes through this steps if man doesn't react and stop them, they just do it quietly in their head. So when I hugged her and tried to kiss her she refused. She said she doesn't want to start something that she can't finish. When I think of it now, it is so clear how I let it happen by being quiet and not stopping downward spiral. Wish it had a better ending but I am learning. I doubt I can salvage this one, even if I tried, it would probably look needy and pathetic and one day is too short to make a good return.
So this was a long story, short version is: I fu..ed up with bisexual hot girl that wanted to have sex with me!!!!!
This is my first thread and I believe it goes here. It is in a way a field report.
So I moved to this city 5 months ago and am leaving for Caribbean island next month. A neighbor in this period is this hot, 28 old Arabian girl with great body. We never talked , she had that cold vibe that just didn't click with me so I kind of ignored her. And she is lesbian (bisexual from what I know now). So last week we actually talked for the first time as she approached me when I was sitting outside having a smoke. We talked, I deep dived more by accident or good mood than on purpose but I think it worked but as she had to go to work it was a short one. Later that night she asked if she brings me beer from the store but as her english isn't that good I misunderstood and declined. She apologized next day by saying it was rude of her to invite me for beer on a working night and than stormed into the house. That in my opinion was her way of protecting herself, her ego, auto-rejection number 1. My instinct was to defuse the situation but decided to wait for her to cool down (she smokes weed a lot...). So next day I go to her house to invite her for a coffee but she had a visitor so today she came again and invited me to her house for a coffee.
Now I still wasn't sure if she was into me or not by this time as I still thought she was full lesbian despite the signs I got. So we talked a bit and than smoked weed. Unfortunately for me, my mind goes blank when I am stoned. So I basically asked her question about religion and than she did most of the talking (her mind is obviously on hyperdrive when high). So there I am, not able to make a decent sentence to save my life and am spectator to how women think when around someone they are attracted to. Because from religion it quickly came down to me not being a good guy for her as she is leaving for a month on monday and when she comes back I'll be already gone. How she thought about having sex with me for five months and how now knows it is not a good idea. So it was literally watching her reasoning for not being with me out loud. And I think now that every women goes through this steps if man doesn't react and stop them, they just do it quietly in their head. So when I hugged her and tried to kiss her she refused. She said she doesn't want to start something that she can't finish. When I think of it now, it is so clear how I let it happen by being quiet and not stopping downward spiral. Wish it had a better ending but I am learning. I doubt I can salvage this one, even if I tried, it would probably look needy and pathetic and one day is too short to make a good return.
So this was a long story, short version is: I fu..ed up with bisexual hot girl that wanted to have sex with me!!!!!
