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Slowly and surely losing the above mental investment.. It is at around 15 percent of where it was a couple of days ago. The emotional disassociation is going well. Girl was also lower smv than I am... but fuck was I charmed!! She had some serious girl game.
Have been intimate with another girl, but this was not a cure-all. Rather the cure-all was rational deduction and security that I have acted very well. In other words the elimination of "what-if's" which plague one when ending an interaction. One always wonders "did I pull the trigger too soon?"
I notice that there are three dimensions of thought:
Rational: This helps you analyzing.. -> Told me I handled well
Instinctual/gut feeling: Gives you feelings of "duh" and "core truth"
Emotional: This dimension steeres you to wrong paths and makes you doubt yourself.
MEANWHILE..
I have lost a LOT of weight... being in distress helps one with eating less.. My face has become angular and beautiful again as it always has been . I seem to have regained my old powerlevel with athletics as well. I truly feel like a NINE again.. It has been quite some time!
The above ending of the interaction with the "shades of one-itis" girl has turned me into a demon with game and I feel more propelled than ever before. Mind you it is not in order to "move on" . I can do that without a new chick.. It is rather the idea that you know that the world is moving on.. big chance that after the escalation window the girl above has a new lover, ofcourse I cannot lose out and be left behind while everyone else is winning. So I have turned into a whirlwind ...approaching girls left and right. Fun fact: I usually get received very very well.. I suspect this is due to my body being in optimal shape again. I would like more instinctual triggers so I can turn into the monster I was around November 2020.. But I am far and above. Oh man, women sure love me
Cliffs: the weather is very shitty .. this works against me as I would like to show more of my body and do more streetgame... I need to learn to be much better with opening girls outside instead of the stationary targets or the girls I meet in the venues I already know. Or I need new venues..
I wish I had much more mobility... if I was back in my student time I would really abuse transit lines.
Have been intimate with another girl, but this was not a cure-all. Rather the cure-all was rational deduction and security that I have acted very well. In other words the elimination of "what-if's" which plague one when ending an interaction. One always wonders "did I pull the trigger too soon?"
I notice that there are three dimensions of thought:
Rational: This helps you analyzing.. -> Told me I handled well
Instinctual/gut feeling: Gives you feelings of "duh" and "core truth"
Emotional: This dimension steeres you to wrong paths and makes you doubt yourself.
MEANWHILE..
I have lost a LOT of weight... being in distress helps one with eating less.. My face has become angular and beautiful again as it always has been . I seem to have regained my old powerlevel with athletics as well. I truly feel like a NINE again.. It has been quite some time!
The above ending of the interaction with the "shades of one-itis" girl has turned me into a demon with game and I feel more propelled than ever before. Mind you it is not in order to "move on" . I can do that without a new chick.. It is rather the idea that you know that the world is moving on.. big chance that after the escalation window the girl above has a new lover, ofcourse I cannot lose out and be left behind while everyone else is winning. So I have turned into a whirlwind ...approaching girls left and right. Fun fact: I usually get received very very well.. I suspect this is due to my body being in optimal shape again. I would like more instinctual triggers so I can turn into the monster I was around November 2020.. But I am far and above. Oh man, women sure love me
Cliffs: the weather is very shitty .. this works against me as I would like to show more of my body and do more streetgame... I need to learn to be much better with opening girls outside instead of the stationary targets or the girls I meet in the venues I already know. Or I need new venues..
I wish I had much more mobility... if I was back in my student time I would really abuse transit lines.