After thinking about it a great deal, I got the J&J shot today about 6 hours ago from one of the few pharmacies in the city offering it as I missed the deadline to get the first doses of Pfizer and Moderna. I have a lot to say and I might not even able to say it coherently, this is going to be one long post. To start off, I can say that I do not feel right physically. As soon as the pharmacist, who in hindsight looked like some sketchy Indian dude, put the shot in me, I felt somewhat of a sting on the left side of the back of my neck.
They tell me to wait 15 minutes before I leave and I do before leaving. On the drive back, I did start to feel minor tingling sensations in my extremities (arms and legs). Somehow, I can hear my heart slightly pounding a bit and even now I feel some of those minor stings but now on my extremities. They say the common side effects are sore arm, headache, and a fever after you get the vaccine so I will keep you guys in the loop.
Now the question comes to whether I regret it and what is really going on in my mind right now.
I don't know if I regret it or not but I do know I regret being good at my job, being way too invested in it, and now on the cusp of another promotion and pay grade. Think about that for a second, I regret that I was doing my job well and I more importantly regret not investing any time in a side income (particularly starting a business on the side). I always wanted that supplemental income and the pandemic gave me a great chance at it since we were all working from home. Well, I spent that time hustling hard at my job which won me a lot of recognition to a degree but put me in a tough spot.
You see, if I sucked at my job, I could have just quit the day the mandates were announced. I would have quit with no regret because I had no promotion lined up and nothing to really look forward to at work. Better yet, if things were not working out then I would have invested more in my side business and getting that off the ground that I would have been set after quitting.
More so, I hate that it has all become so radical on both sides that I cannot find any good answer even when I did my research before getting vaccinated.
You ask one side and you're a Nazi for not getting the vaccine. You ask the other side and the vaccines will kill you on the spot or a few days later because they are all evil. Everyone has an agenda and worst of all, I do not even feel safe going to the doctor. I mean the times we live in where a man cannot even trust a doctor because doctors have agendas rather than wanting to genuinely help people. People were saying society is collapsing and it's one thing to read about it but something else to actually experience it.
The lack of trust not just in each other but in those meant to help us.
It is like those of us who just want the truth and no agenda at all cannot find any reasonable place to look for answers. Mainstream media is all pro-vaxx and anti-vaxx people are all Nazis but if you go to the other end, you find people claiming that the vaccines are designed to make it easier to track you since they have chips in them. It is impossible to find any place where you can find sane answers and talk to sane people who just want to make it through this without buying into everything the media tells them or saying that it is time for some "uprising" against the elites.
I feel as if the sane and moderates just kept their mouths shut on all of the big sites and let whichever side pull them in a given direction. It is the age of radicals, on both sides really.
Now I am not even sure what will happen to me. I am hoping that I am okay physically and this all works out. You can all assume that if you do not see me posting more than a week from now, something bad has certain happened to me.
I just thought I'd get this out since writing has always been my biggest outlet in life.
