Hustler's Ambition

[Hue]

Re: Self-Reassuring

Essentially, I am less convinced than I recently was that not actively searching for truth, and allowing truth to come to you by natural interest/inquiry/instinct is a more fallible philosophy than being more active in my search for truth.

Aristotle's take on Eudaimonia explains my position at the moment, minus all the details of my life.

My acceptance that there is no true rigidity in lives demands constant revision of my own ways and philosophies.

 

[Hue]

Women are gamey

So, I had mentioned how I was already digging Bookworm, even though we hadn't been on a date.

Then, she flaked, and I saw her again at my Psych building, and set up another one.

I'm at work today, and she comes in with two dudes. Laughing her ass off the whole time, and got margaritas with them. Whether they were just friends or not, I don't know. And frankly don't care, now. It was a jab at my protective ego at first, but I did my best to play it cool, and now I recognize that this is likely just part of a game to see how I will react. I didn't say anything to her other than "how are you" with a smile, and "thanks for coming in guys!" while looking at her. She replied "cya", and I just stared smiling with my body turned.

Hindsight, I only did well in the beginning of our interaction at the Psych building.
The beginning she probably thought I was playing with her, pretending I don't know who she is, even saying, "oh you're that one" when she said "I'm the one who's not texting you back", implying there's more girls I'm talking to (which, there is).
The middle was pretty boring.
The ending was better, I said some sexual tequila stuff and got her to invest in it a little bit,
but then I said that "we're all a little fucked up" thing, which I don't think will at all be effective with this girl now. Not bringing that shit up. In fact, she deflected after. A sign that it wasn't smooth at all. Definitely not devil may care.
The veery ending was fine, as far as me saying I'll see you Thursday and the vibe I did so with.

Examples of her being sequentially gamey over text:
1). First text she sent back to me (after the icebreaker) said "I'll let you know when I'm free for coffee"
this is a game, chances are she won't unless she's not spending time with other relationships. She's sexy, so fat chance of that

2). Doesn't reply for a day after I text her 4 days after she'd "let me know", we reschedule for Friday

3). In this rescheduling, she texts: "Maybe, maybe not (; Friday would probably be best!" and I set up a time.
this is her saying "Hey! We're playing a dance, okay?? You awake?"

4). She responds: "I might be working out with my trainer at that time so could you do later?" and I respond with another time.
again she might be, maybe. and, it's working with a trainer. most of the time, you know what time you're scheduled with your trainer. asking if I can later is a test to see how far backward I'll bend for this date. She's now in full control

5). She waits a day then texts me she has plans Friday night dinner with some friends. Again, I reschedule.
as Hector put this one, this is her saying "You're flakable", that I am a dwindling interest

6). She says she might be able to.
hell, she was probably trying to just make it clear that this is a dance and I'm not catching on, with the amount of times she's been noncommittal

7). I text her the day before to make sure we're still on, it had been 4 days since last contact. She flakes.
ghosting

Luckily, the ball is slightly more in my court now, and I haven't persisted since.


When I first read Hector's posts on my texts, I was bitter for a couple minutes, I'm not denying this.
Then I was mad at myself for how oblivious I was to everything, as observable in the my post last night.. which perpetuated to my concept of identity.
Now, I feel more empowered, and I just need to play her game, and hold frame. I don't think I'm super into her now, but she is a girl I have interest in.

Devil may care is the way to go with this, I think, and I must focus into that.



Also started having some thoughts on LMR.

Basically, when a girl is throwing you bullshit reasons why she can't, it's your job as a man to either hit were with logic why you can't, but in a warm/teasing/friendly way. She wants to see if you're quick on your feet enough to do this, because that's very attractive and witty.
It's like there's two conversations. One is the logical hurdling over her bullshit, the other is a subliminal and emotional one that ends with mutual attraction.

When a girl doesn't feel comfortable enough to hook up with / fuck you yet, it's your job as a man to comfort her, and let her put her hair down.
That's partly why physical escalation works so well, because the more physical you get in a smooth way, the more she opens up and will continue to open up. Touching faces ramps this up, it gets her emotional and horny. Showing vulnerability too, if your attainability is too high. Letting her know when you're kidding from a tease you threw at her, etc.
You must guide her emotions with ease to being positive and comfortable.

 

[Hue]

Catfish hooked and caught

Oh, irony.

After, let's see.. 4 months I finally fucked Catfish.

The process is definitely one worth writing on. I learned a lot from one girl.

Case Study: Catfish

She's about 5'2'', dark skinned african american, good facial features, pretty eyes, HUGE ass, solid tits and just slightly thick (a bit thinner when I met her.. I honestly think she's more attractive now, though), 24 years old. Overall the most sexy girl I've been with.
We met at a club, and I was pretty blacked when I met her. I had been trying out a ton of techniques on here and they were working well, but I wasn't learning much. According to her, I started talking to her and her friends, then moved her to the patio and set up a coffee date. The tiny bit I remember was me playing "let me find your nipple" with her.

Our first date is girl #3 in the FR url'd above. It went well, we made out and such, but she had work and diced. If I had been more experienced I would have made her stay and fucked her then, as she mentioned "she's late for work all the time", I should have said "what's one more time?" and escalated.
That unfortunate fuck up, I'm pretty certain is the reason I didn't fuck her 1st date.

Because my texts weren't congruent, she ghosted me for 3 weeks. I hit her up again, and she told me that "because I didn't pay for her coffee", she has rules and won't go on a date with me again. We pushed and pulled through texts forever, like almost a month I think, and I got her over for dinner at my place. I encountered extreme LMR and we didn't bang.
Hindsight, upon moving to my room, I moved too aggressively and didn't escalate at her pace

Then I had her over once or twice more and she would always come up with bullshit as to why she couldn't stay, and I was starting to get annoyed.

At one point she flaked, then I was out with my HS friends (which includes many attractive girls), saw her, and she was with her friends and some dude.
I was a little skiid up plus had been annoyed with her, so I was dominating as shit, made her schedule a date, then started talking about her sexy lips and she kissed me infront of the dude she was with and he got mad pissed. Then we had a staredown and I looked at him till he looked away. I must thank Uncle Tony but one of my more alpha moments.

Then on that date we hooked up again, but she through me more bullshit LMR because we hadn't been to dinner yet.
That dialogue ended with me saying "I know you want to fuck me" and she got all turned on, then texted me that night. I was stoned when she did, it was like 2:30, and that plus my pride to not come running to her spread legs (dumb, that disappoints her, and I could have fucked the shit out of her then), I missed that window and essentially declined.

Then I take her on a date, and we hook up, and again she makes up some bullshit to leave. She said "we'll meet again Saturday" (and I had a date set up then, but that flaked too), and I straight up told her I'm meeting with somebody that day, and she didn't believe me. Then she said "okay we'll fuck tonight" and I laughed and said "yeah I'll text you". I never did... for 3 weeks. This was a way of showing her, nope. I'm done with your shit, you fucked up.

I text her 3 weeks later, with one of those "how ya been it's been a while blah blah blah" texts, and she doesn't answer. Then as I recently wrote I saw her out, ignored her, used preselection and got a text from her 2 days later, and we set up a date.

Not as great as I would have liked, but here she finally is: LR: Catfish


Summary:
1). Be congruent - I was super sexual vibe (playing find your nipple, talked about sex during coffee, chase framed her as trying to seduce me, talked about the at the time new Mac Miller album which is ALL about sex) and then I set her a romantic text about how it really enjoyed the time with her. I could have likely banged her out on the second date, instead of this long and annoying process.
2). Don't submit when you know it's bullshit - She would make up excuses about why she couldn't XYZ (mainly fucked even though she's wet in my bed) and they were almost always terrible. Logically jump over her dumb excuses, and push emotion to make her give in to how bad she really wants to fuck
3). Know when to set boundaries - I eventually got fed up with her shit and made it obvious, and she came crawling back. I can tell you this much from my experience with her: she's got plenty of orbiters and other guys to fuck. I had to dominate her in more than one area (logistics, escalations, power control) to finally reel her in.
4). Don't be afraid to say whatever's the fuck on your mind - Even if she's thrown off or initially responds poorly to some of your reactions, she will ultimately respect your honesty and reasoning more than if you were be cautious and act against your feelings.
There may be more but those are huge.


Hopefully I bang her out later tonight when she leaves the bars.

Either way, date with Bookworm tomorrow. (;

 

[Hue]

Catfish and I are fine. And, her texts are now very warm and instant responses, she used to not do that.
She's coming over next week again. After this time though, I'm not gonna text her so much in advance to try and transition us from in a OR to FB's.

I screened that girl in my first class for having a BF today because I saw her walking happily with some dude on Valentine's day.. she does.

Bookworm and I,

Me: Hola Bookworm, we still on tonight? 730~ would be best for me
Her: Hey Hueman! How are you? Tonight may not work. I have to pack for the weekend tonight. I was supposed to pack this morning but took a medication that made me and is still making me feel a bit like shit. And I also look how I feel so I don't know how I feel about going out
Me: Doing well! Ah bummer. Well I hope you feel better
Her: Glad to hear it! And thank you! Once this medication wears off I should feel a lot better lol

I was disappointed because I really wanted to go for a true hatrick: three different lays in one week. I understood it as genuine, but shot it over to whatshereallymeans just in case. I didn't bring up rescheduling, an obvious mistake I've made in the past (I think that contributed to my 2nd date with Winks never happening).

I'll either wait for her to reschedule or text her for the same time next week.
Possibly just invite her over if for whatever reasons she seems more down than before, but unlikely.

I might try my luck at the bar tonight though, two days after Valentine's day probably isn't a bad time to do that..

 

[Hue]

Thursday
I went out with my roommate, his friend, and 3 girls, all hot. My roommate is fucking this one girl who's a total freak, and the more I got drunk the more I wanted to fuck her even though my roommate had gotten with her.

She's highly sexual and super easy to flirt with, that was a fun time. The other two girls ran into some other group of chicks at the bar and got all "girl's night" like, so the later it got the less they became options. At one point when she had told me "I'm so glad you came out tonight" I almost pulled her aside to hook up in the bathroom, but stopped myself.

We hit some other bar and I run into a bunch of frat dudes I'm tight with and break away from my roommate and the girls. My good friend is shit housed and tells all the girls he's with "This is Hueman!! He's got a HUGE DICK!" lol. I just gave a look like 'aw how cute' and said, "yea, huuuge *trump voice*". Tweak: instead say something absurd like "Yea, pretty big. Almost 2 inches" or something.
I got two numbers after but don't remember the girls names or faces.

Then I went home, hoping my roommate would bring the girls he was with, and there'd be an easy lay up. They had a crazy night after I left, wound up like 45 minutes from our apartment, and my dude almost pulled a threesome with these chicks in the shower. Should have stayed with them, jesus.

Friday
It was beautiful out and I skipped class to day drink with my friends. Wound up with those frat guys again, and saw some girls from my high school.
I had texted them back when it was my 21st and they send me all this "Yea! We gotta celebrate!!" shit, then are acting friendly, but in a polite way, and quickly run off with their sorority sisters. Dunno why, but oh well.
After that I noticed how the bartender looks exactly like Karen from Californiacation. I ask her if she watches the show and tell her there's a striking resemblance. She doesn't watch it but goes "everybody says that!" and I give her a playful look and say "oooh I'm sure". Then after I got my drink said "Thanks Karen" with a wink and she looked excited. It was really loud and busy so not the easiest time to try and flirt.

The waitress at a place we were at (adorably cute) was being super flirty and touchy with me, and I did something I've never done: left my number on the tab.
Didn't get a text, so either she wasn't really interested and wanted a tip, attainability was too low, or she didn't see it on the tab.
Wound up at another bar much later in the night and got some senior's number. Dumb ass me forgot to text her, then texted her today thinking it was a girl's number from Tinder, tried to rebound and failed.

Saturday
Met up with some old high school friends because my roommate was waaay hungover. Football players, alpha-type, who party with a bunch of hot girls. Definitely gonna hit them up again soon.
Not even 10 minutes of being at the pregame. the girl from an old FR who I sloppily asked to come home with me pulls me into a room to do some *sniff sniff* with her. I took it as a sign that she wanted to hook up as well. We get into the room sit on a bed, I'm doing my best to get closer, with a little bit of qualifying (my attainability is low with this group), and she starts to stand up and leave. I tell her to sit down, and she does, but then as I move closer, and ask her if she remembers last time I saw her, she plays dumb / was too drunk to remember, and then gets up again to leave.
Idk why, because I know she wants to fuck. Maybe since I had literally been there for 10 minutes? Haha, idk. That would have been badass though if I walk in the door and bang one of the hottest girls there.
We party, I establish myself as an alpha, and by the end I had people somewhat fighting for my attention. Not trying to sound grandiose, but that's what was happening.

Then we hit this club, and somehow are allowed to walk right up to the VIP section. I think the football players know the bouncer or some shit. Up there I see tons of people I know, having great convos and a great time. Some girls who know me see me, and I invite them up with us. One black girl wants me really bad (always has) and is too shy to talk with me, but I don't want to fuck her so whatever. The girl I did want to get with recently came out as lesbian, so I just had sexual talk with her. I see that as a way of having nothing to lose and maybe even directly talk about pussy. If you're not a huge douche about it I think it can help with preselection. Then I saw the freak my roommate had been with and we flirt again like last time, but I had my shit a bit more together that night so I didn't try and fuck my friend's FB.

We wind back up at my friends apartment and all the girls are gone, so I just got out of there.

Sunday
Had work all day, then food coma passed out when I got home. So tired, not enough sleep over the 3 days before.
I was on my Tinder game most of the day, but main thing that happened seduction wise was with thing 2 from an older field report.
So one night I got real drunk, and my phone died, but I had really wanted to get with thing 2 that night. Dumb ass me gave her my number, then didn't close. Weeks later she adds me on snapchat, and whenever I see her it's been a game of cat and mouse ever since.
Last Friday (or, Saturday really. These girls are fucking crazy and stay up all night partying like every day of the week) she snaps me suuper late complaining about how her friends are getting fucked, and she's sitting there horny without a cock inside her. Then flashes her tit (perfect nipples) in a snapchat video. I didn't see it until Saturday night.

Snaptext (Me): Looks like you had fun last night (;

Next night (Sunday 8:00 am)

Snapchat (Her): Three pictures and her in bed with a guy
Snaptext (Me): No fun ;-p

Tonight

Snapchat (Her): *Her in bed playing with dog*
Snapchat (Me): *mischievous smile* Classic Thing 2, playing with a pooch in a bed (one of my nicknames is 'the dog' and she knows this)
Snapchat (Her): Two pictures *her with eyes closed* I need you to bring me crack, a dildo, or anything else that can set me off right now. Shout out to my mom for giving birth to a trashcan today (me)
Snapchat (Me): Two pictures *me smirking with a thinking hand to face* I got you on the crack, but it has to be your birthday only. *poster of Kurt Cobain* The dildo is his so I can't lend it out too leisurely
Snapchat (Her): Videos and pictures of a movie. One of which says "I. Need. You. To. Stick. Your. Dick. In. All. Of. My. Openings."
Snapchat (Me): *Picture of guy at NBA allstar game, micheivously smiling* That can be arranged
Shapchat (Her): *Video of naked woman on tv show* Raise your hand if you want to drink her snake juice
Snaptext (Me): Snapchat is boring, what's your number?
Snaptext (Her): **********

Me: Hey it's Hueman, who are you with rn?
Her: No one lol
Me: Me neither.. I'm about to hop in the shower, we should watch whatever movie you have on when I'm done
Her: It's my fave show
Me: You won't mind a little distraction will you?

After this she snaps me 3 times of stupid shit and her playing with her dog. I believe she's at her parents house, and probably bored as shit over there.
I didn't respond to any of them, because fuck that.
At least I got her number, I guess, but since it's been a game of cat and mouse, and me hiding the banana until now, I don't know how realistic it is since I showed my card and failed.
Everytime I see her out she will be super touchy and sexual, a little bit testy, and then always leave no matter if I pass the tests or not. She's a huuge flirt, but I know she wants the D. Thing 1 jokes with me about her in a sexual way everytime I see her.



Gonna fuck Catfish Wednesday, debating on when I should text Bookworm if at all. Supposed to be gorgeous all week this week so I'm gonna day game as well.
Main practice: having girls notice me, then approaching. Also, mixing up my openers to be more natural.

 

[Hue]

At the end of my class today the teacher mentions we have an exam in the next two days, and I completely forgot. So, I had to drop my plans to day game in the park and get somebody to cover my shift. However I did do one approach on the way back from the gym. Not much to write about, but always good to be able to look back on.

There's tons of people in the park, it's really nice out. I'm wearing some of my nicer workout clothes with good color contrast. Many hot girls out, but all are squaded up in groups of 3+ . I see one girl reading a book, and decide it's too intrusive and bail. Then there's a girl with a tiny little dog, very cute little thing (both her and the dog) and I'm looking at the dog smiling. She see's me smiling and smiles back. I decide fuck it and start to leisurely walk over. About 15 ft away I say:

Me: I'm sorry, I saw you dog and had to come get a look at this thing. He's so tiny!
Her: Oh yea! Haha he's a little one.
Me: *sitting down* What's your name? *shake hand*
Her: ******, you're..?
Me: Hueman. Nice to meet you.
Me: What's this fellas name?
Her: Chili!
Me: Wait, is he a weiner dog?
Her: Haha, yea
Me: Clever little spin you got there, was that your idea?
Her: Yea, I saw him at Petland and needed a name as cute as him.
Me: *playing with dog* So what'd you come out here to do? Attract cute guys with your little pooch? [chase frame]
*group of 4 girls in ear shot start laughing*
Her: Well it's my boyfriend and I's dog, so not really. *still smiling*
Me: Ohoho I gotcha *play with dog a little more*
Me: Well it was nice meeting you, *****, have a good one!
Her: You too!

One of the 4 girls goes "oh my god!" and I throw a quick smile there way and they're looking at me, almost in shock, but smiling.
I held good fundamentals during the whole thing, but was sloppier than I could have been with the chase frame, because I was looking at the dog, not her. Plus, I could have pushed my boundaries a little bit by making a joke about how her boyfriend would probably hate me, or chase framed her further with the fact she "brought me over here" then qualified her right after so she didn't AR.
I just bounced too early, it shows my interest when I dice like that, but to no point.
The 4 girls, I'm assuming had never witnessed an attempted cold approach before.
I wish I wasn't so busy with this test, it could have been a day.

 

[Hue]

Just remembered I forgot a quick FR from last week.

In my Psychology of Addiction class, we were talking about the stages of blood alcohol content, and the effects it has. Being a heavy drinker, I raised my hand about something, and when I was done conversing with the professor, this red head babe a few rows down asks something similar, but way more scientific sounding.

After class I waited for her to walk out, then asked her where she heard it, saying I was just talking from personal experience blah blah blah. In the beginning she was walking with her friend, but I used a physical space push and pull, like walk faster, walk slower, walk faster, etc. (not in an obvious way though) until it was just me and her and her friend fell back.

We were like this when we exited the building and I began to feel a good connection after that. Then her friend began walking in a different direction, and I had a choice: go my usual route, or stay with the honey.

I looked at the honey and she was smiling at me giving me all the signals, but I told my friend I'd meet him right after class, and chose to stick with my plan.

Still kicking myself.

Those two walk out together everyday, and it might be a little harder to do it again. They walked all the way across the park with eachother, so intercepting the conversation in a smooth, calibrated way will be tough. Assuming attraction hasn't faded, I'll try today.


Basically: the honey's friend read the situation, saw that the honey was investing in me, and then gave me the keys to the car, but silly fucking me didn't go for it. It was Valentine's day, but still.

 

[Hue]

Okay, so Tuesdays the girl leaves a different route, Thursdays they walk together. Unless last week was special, that seems to be the pattern
(Wow that was the most stalker thing I've probably ever wrote).

I'm about 12 feet from, I guess I'll just stick to Honey (she does have an awfully sweet voice, like honey), and open:

Me: Honey,

Me: Hey, Honey!
Her: Oh.. oh hey! *stops, turns, waits for me*
Me: How's it going?
Her: Goood, how's your day been?
Me: Solid, not as chipper out as yesterday, but still nice.
Me: You were really giving it to him today (the professor)
Her: Hahaha well I mean, *big smile* yea I thought it was gonna be a course where there's discussions and people are talking exchanging ideas
Me: Yooou wanted it to be like [class she told me about last interaction], I know
Her: *laughs* Well yea he's just always up there, talking off the slide and you know.. but he's so smart though (she's running out of things to say)
Me: Oh, smart as shit! I think he's just been in academia for so long he's kinda.. *so-so hand motion*
Her: Yeah haha
Me: Well you certainly throw him enough shit up in the air to work with, so someone's trying to spice it up
Her: I just feel like blah blah blah

Emotions are good here

Me: I think you might have gotten me a little sick though, Honey *smirk* (she has had a cough for a week+, now I have a cold)
Her: What! No! *smiling*
Me: Yea, I grabbed your hand last time *try to grab her hand, fail (lol), end up flailing my hand near her wrists, no contact (sloppy)* we talked, and here I am with a little cough
Her: Nooo I've had a long term cold for like ever haha, it wasn't me!
Me: Must be your cannabis use I guess (lecture today was on the reefer) (I said cannabis weirdly for some reason)
Her: What?
Me: Your cannabis use, you stoner! Cut it out! (I don't smoke anymore, but my comment to the teacher was in weed's defense about lung dilalation)
Her: Hahaha yea that's gotta be it

I don't remember the last thing she said at that, but I could feel the connection/our emotions being solid so,

Me: Can I get your number? (why did I ask, and not tell her?)
Her: Yea!

*I felt a sudden break of connection, but we both pulled out our phones at a corner, I'm not sure what to make of that or if it even meant anything. In the past when a girl has pulled out her phone and not letting me give her mine she doesn't actually want to give the number and is being nice*

Then I don't remember what I said to break the quick silence, but she responded with something, then:

Me: I don't get you guys and your iphones
Her: You're telling me with droids, is that right?
Me: *hands her phone back* Yeea other than the last name you got it *smile*
Her: *smiles back, lowered head, great eye contact, turns on corner towards gym*
Me: *turning and slowly walking other direction on corner that I was headed* Yeah yours had me replying to some groupme thing, I don't know haha
Her: Oh, okay. I'll see ya!! *big smile*
Me: Catch ya later!

Thoughts:

Although I was talking about school with her, I was talking about her interaction in the classroom, and she always smiled more when I put it on to her. I think she likes that I'm noticing her. I almost always sit in the front, but both days I haven't we've talked.

She moves her hands a lot when she talks, and was even doing so when I tried and failed to grab her hand. Is she nervous?

It's as if the emotions crested when I asked for her number. It removed the connect, and seeing how she was about to leave to the gym, I had to go the other direction. She was in athletic gear so I don't think she aborted, necessarily. If I had stopped her and tried to continue talking there, I'm not sure how that would have played out, though

In the long run, I need to do this type of shit with many more girls, making a huge analysis over just one doesn't generalize

Good:
Most of the teasing
Lots of her smiling
She seemed nervous so there's likely attraction
She stopped to let me catch up to her, although that's very minor investment
She seemed happy to give me her number
This pushed our interactions beyond a simple convo after class that happened once, she knows me now

Okay:
Talking about class is basic

Bad:
Asked for number
Missed grabbing her hand, but if I had forced it that would have been very uncalibrated
Got her number without plans before, or after
Ending dialogue felt sloppy and like too much teasing
She seemed nervous so she's not comfortable with me, yet

??:
Can't tell if it was just me, or the emotions really crested at the end
Can't tell if us going separate ways actually had a negative impact, or if it fit the context enough to be irrelevant



After my exam + lab tomorrow Catfish will be coming over (she initiated text with me while writing this, asking what time tomorrow. never done that)

Approaching on Thursday if weather is good, aim is for 10 girls minimum

Got invited to a 21st party with the same dudes as last Saturday, the same ladies expected (;

 

[Hue]

My new favorite bar

Had a good interaction with Honey but she said "maybe" would go on a date with me. I said "oh you're not single" and she said "not really". We kept good vibes during the whole thing, and now I'm probably in a possible sexual item space, as she probably has a fuck buddy and doesn't give it out easy. I'll just not chase but remain warm.

Went out to the bar and got 4 girls numbers.

One was from Tinder, and she's down to fuck, wants to meet up tonight.
Idk if I will tonight because my co worker invited me to a party and she knows I like to fuck, preselection is definitely checked off since I banged her friend at the Xmas party.

The other was friends with my coworker at the research lab, she wasn't that good looking, but fuckable. She was giving me hella IOI's so I flirted a little bit and snagged her number once my co worker left.

The other was kinda funny..

I'm at the bar, and just got my drink. The girl next to me is doing this weird shit with her hands, so I tap her elbow and ask, are you nervous? She looks up confused but interested, and says "what?", so I lightly grab her hand and say "This, you got something going on with these guys". She laughs and we chat a little bit. I ask her if she's single, then tell her she's lucky because I'm here and she enjoys it.
Then I say "let's go talk over there" once the conversation was shifting, but then she leads me to her friends.

Once there I ask her what she does to keep from being bored and she changes it to 3 favorite things to do when you're sober. I play along, then switch it back to my original question and she goes on and on about this weird ass show she watches, then introduces me to her friends who appear to like me.
I get her number, but then after that this dude snags her and they start getting physical. I just laugh and talk to her friend, grab her number too, and find out that she's lesbian, the first one is bi and "the craziest" of the group. She was getting annoyed with the guy "hitting on her friend" and I say,

Me: "Yeah I never really got the hitting on people thing"
Her: "What do you mean? I think I know but explain"
Me: "I mean, just have a conversation haha. If you want to land a compliment, go for it. There's no need to who's 'hitting' on who or whatever"

She absolutely agrees and is very warm with me after. Maybe in the future, if the stars align, I can convert her to bi as well (;


The last girl was by far the most fun, but I ultimately got too excited and failed a shit test.

Short girl, brunette, and looks identical to a girl I fucked at my old school, but is dressed like a different girl I used to fuck before transferring. I'm drunk and the idea of a fusion of the two girls (looks + personality) is appealing to me. Gonna call her Spunky. I preopen and nudge her arm.

Me: Hey
Her: Hey... wait, did you just nudge me so that you could ease your way into conversation? (lol)
Me: *slow smile* What's your name?
Her: Spunky, yours?
Me: Hueman.. *grabs hand and holds onto it* how's your night been?
Her: Oh up and down you know *I slowly slide hand of hers*. You ever have days like that? Where one second you're on top of the world, the next you're down in the dumps?
Me: Haha. That's life Spunky.
Her: *gets really excited* Wait what? You know what I'm talking about?

we deep dive into the roller coaster of life, I actually was throughly enjoying talking to her

Me: I wanna fuck you so bad right now.. So you've also...
Her: *huge smile, jumps off the seat as to leave and walks away, then comes right back and sits down and grabs me* I CAN NOT BELIEVE you just said that!!
Me: What? You were saying that you've also experienced those kinda of nights, days, hours even, right?
Her: *sexual look in her eye* Yeah, definitely. I mean that's what life it, some people don't seem to understand me when I say that but you do.

we triangle gazed eachother, and for a moment I could tell she was about to kiss me, then she pulls back, and goes and gets a drink.

This dude comes up to me, and says, "Bro, you don't wanna fuck that chick" lol. Sarcastically, I'm like "Oh yea? Why's that?" and he says "You just gotta not try so hard, bro" with this super serious look on his face. I just laugh and say "okay okay gotcha".

She comes back and sits right next to me, we talk about some shit I don't remember, I get her number, then she leaves and comes back again, and a different dude comes up to me and asks me what's the deal with her and I. So we were definitely impressionable haha.

Here's where I start to fuck up.

She comes back, seems to be really happy to be talking with me.

Her: I'm baaack
Me: Do you know some of these guys?
Her: Them? No, I thought they were your friends.
Me: No haha I've never met them
Her: You're full of shit they're totally your friends
Me: Hahaha we both are thinking the same thing, they came up and said something about you (why oh why)
Her: *turns away, then turns back* What? Said what?
Me: That they knew you or recognized you or something about me talking to you
Her: What'd they say???
Me: Haha, forget it let's talk about something else
Her: What like how I could just take you home and we could fuck and fuck and fuck and it'd be super awesome?? That'd be so great right? (sarcastically and pissed off)
Me: *smiling trying not to cheese, as she continues* Yeah? Yeah. Oh, for sure *nodding*
Her: *calms down a bit*

some shit I don't remember, I complimented her eyes and her black leather jacket, saying she looks to cute for how naughty of a girl she is. The vibe was really good, and I was getting really excited, and actually started liking this girl. Haven't met someone with this much spunk in a while and I knew that fucking her would probably be a blast because of that. She says something about one night stands, and here's where I fucked myself because of overexcitement.

The tone here is talking loudly, high energy to eachother
Her: So why is it you like me so much? Huh?
Me: You really wanna know?
Her: Yeah, hit me
Me: Well, I transferred and you look like a girl that I used to fuck every weekend but you're a hell of a lot smarter than she is.
idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot. Control yourself. Should have teased her and given her nothing, then a sarcastic answer and changed subjects.
Her: *stands up* I'm gonna go get a drink now!!!!

I sit there, still smiling, as the peak of our excitement lowers down the mountain. I changed my location so that she'd come sit/see me elsewhere, but obviously she never comes back.

I was satisfied though, I had gotten 4 numbers and that was really fun, plus it was late.

I remember by the 3rd number I had a feeling of rush in me and wanted to approach, approach, approach. That shit really can be addictive, and I only struck out twice.

Our texts:
Me: Spunky, I'm really glad we talked tn -Hueman
Her: Wait I gave you my real number?
Her: Haha
next morning
Me: Yeah, big mistake (thanks Hector @whatshereallymeant)
Her: how are you feeling this morning?
Me: Hungry, bout to slam some grub in a sec. And how about yourself... frisky? ;p

When she responds I'm gonna set up a date for Saturday morning.

Goood times, more to come ;p

 

[Hue]

Was out for a really long time yesterday with my roommate yesterday.

First bar we got to is a huge day drinking spot, lotta hunnies. We hung around with this two girls for a long while, and they were obnoxiously drunk. I wanna bang one of them pretty bad so it was annoying to have her sloppy as fuck and in the territory of taking advantage of her.

I stand next to this really hot blonde for a while, ask her to crowd search with me cuz I lost my friends, and we talk lightly. Her friends next to her keep distracting her, but eventually I get it out her that she's single, I said "lucky you" and she seemingly autorejects.

I ran into a bunch of girls I knew from high school and flirt with them, but I'm pretty sure I'm friend zoned in most cases. Also I've banged some of their friends so chances are unlikely I'll turn them around. Oh well it helps with preselection.

There's this girl who's staring at me not wearing a bra, and I approach her. She's on xanax and drunk (never fucking do this) and is waay sloppy getting all touchy with me. I tell her she's very cute and all but too fucked up. Her friend comes to save her and I flip that around and make it obvious that she's the one coming on to me, then flirt with her because she's only wearing a bra, no shirt.

Me: Is this a bra?
Her: Yea
Me: Wait no it's not *touching the back of it, then sliding to the small of her back*, I can't unhook it with one hand
Her: You could just do this *pulls bra up, but not enough to flash*
Me: Good thinking, are you single?
Her: Kinda (I have a fuck buddy but no strings attached)
Me: Kinda, I like that answer. Give me your number

She's struggling with the droid, so I tease her

Her: Is this right?
Me: You're good, make sure to throw a sexy nickname in there though
Her: *puts nickname as Kitty Kitty Meow Meow*
Me: Mmm I hope you know I'm only calling you Kitty now

Then my friends were leaving so I had to bounce, gave her a playful hug before I did.

I text her later and fuck up, mainly because I was drunk and not thinking.

Texts:
Me: Nice to meet you Kitty, I'm sure we'll talk soon -Hueman
Her: Hahahaa what
Me: Lol *cheesing emoji*
Me: Is your friend okay
Her: Yoooo wait who is this
Her: I couldn't handle her omg
Me: We chatted at Midway, you're friend was too drunk for her.. intentions and I started talking to you and thought you were cute
Me: I can only imagine *cheesing emoji*
Her: Ya I ditched her and bad things happened omfg (what I should have done is frame her as naughty for doing bad things and teased a bit before going for the kill, instead I ran straight up to Auto Rejection's house and busted the door down)
Me(Dumbass): Is that so.. well if things are bad for you tn I'd love to meet some other time
Me(Dumbass): I'm a bit busy at the start of the week though, what's your schedule looking like next week?

Radio Silence


After I originally left the blonde we went to some other bar, and the girls were with get kicked out because they're so drunk. I had tried to get them some waters before hand, but they "didn't want to be soft". Lol dumb hoes.

Then we go to the soccer team's party and dance with some random people for a bit, which was fun. All the girls were tugged in one corner of the party and I was too intimidated to approach all of them.

My roommate is trying to go along with what the girls wanna do, which is annoying as shit because they can't plan ahead for more than 5 minutes, so I had to dominate slightly, use one of their phones to call an uber to our house where we'll have more control of the situation. We get there and cook food for the people we're with. I'm pretty spent so I take a nap, when I wake up my friends all left to the bar. I'm actually pretty relieved, because I was getting annoyed with people who couldn't hold their shit together. I mean, I still say bunches of dumb drunk shit, they were just way drunker than I was.

I recently had to set some major boundaries with these two dudes I'm tight with, because they were:
1). Holding me back
2). Using hard drugs around me
3). Continuing to use after I told them not to do that shit around me, and attempting to hide it (I have a keen sense for this and always see through it)
4). Getting kicked out of bars when I'm out with them

They've been texting me since thursday trying to hang out, and I woke up to their phone call. I meet them at a bar, and quickly realize they're on xanax, so I knew our time would be short. I make some friends with the other guys they were with, then start texting my co worker about her party that night.

I go to an isolated part of the bar, while I wait for somebody, and a group of 3 girls walk up, one of them quite sexy.

I can't remember how I opened, but I sat next to them to people watch.
When it was my turn I point at some dude and describe the scenario: he's trying to get with this girl, but fucked up earlier with her making her pissed off and him insecure, and I guess the girls knew both of them and I hit it on the nail haha.
Eventually the less attractive two leave and it's just me and the hot one, so I steal one of the girls seat and flirt with her.
She was pretty receptive and we talked about the craziest things that had happened at our jobs.
She had seen a threesome in the bathroom, I described some very sexual dialogue between a table I was serving and myself.
I asked if she was single since the conversation was so sexual, but she's had a boyfriend of 5 years.

I just try to get her number anyways, and she doesn't give it out.

Since I know I'm fucked, I basically tell her, "well, the reason we started talking may have been because I wanted to get into your pants, you're very attractive, but if that's your obligation, I understand. When did you know that this dude you're with was yours? five years is a long time". And she lit up.

Her story is a romantic one, very fitting lol.

We part ways and I go to my party, pretty weird place.
It's like straight out of the 60's, honestly. All the people are very hippyish, but all the hot girls there had boyfriends, who were also at the party.
Also everyone was on drugs lol.
There was a band playing in the basement, with terrible sound balancing, but still good energy. I got the guitarist's number so that him and I can jam sometime, I'm trying to befriend more musicians so I can start getting more into my guitar playing again, I don't want to lose that precious talent.

Then I leave with another coworker to another bar, then call it a night. It'd been a loong fucking day.


My texts with spunky:
Me: Hungry, bout to slam some grub in a sec. And how about yourself...frisky? ;p
Her: Like shit. Got way too hammered last night. Napping as we speak (to me this might mean, what happened with you and I last night was just drunk flirting)
Me: Sleep tight. When you wake up I have an idea for us
Her: Let's hear it
Me: Before I hit the game tomorrow you and I grab some margaritas for a rendezvous tomorrow, would you like to? (the x2 tomorrow is awkward, I was pretty drunk)
Her: Always down for Margs...where were you thinking
Me: [mexican place] of course (; how does 2~ sound?
Her: 2 could work.. also I suck with plans so just remind me tomorrow (I'm gonna flake)

next day

Me: Hey Lexy, still on for today?

still silence...

Got a hockey game (I've decided between periods might be a great time to pick up, gonna cold approach some ladies) and a party today, leggo.

 

[Hue]

Another solid night, but I missed the party (;

LR: Sex with clothes on

Texts with spunky:

Me: Hey Spunky, still on for today?
Her: Hey just now waking up. Sorry bad night... text me after the game
Me: Maybe, if you're lucky (;
Her: I'm always lucky
Me: I make my own luck so maybe we'll see eye to eye.. let's meet at 8, would you be so kind to pick me up at my place? ;p
Her: Where do you live?
Me: [address], I'm actually omw home rn so I'll be good in like 20
Her: I'm in the process of getting ready for the night I'll let you know when I'm on my way
Me: Pick something cute and sexy *kissy emoji* I'm good to rock whenever
Her: Do you have a plan?
Me: You snag me, we hit up [place], then see where the wind blows us
Me: I'm going to a birthday party eventually but that's later
Her: Sounds good to me I'll be ready in 20-30
Her: Okay omw
Her: It's so fucking cold
Her: Here I think

So I had thought she was gonna pick me up, but turns out she walked. I see her on my apt porch, dressed in all black, looking fine as wine. As for myself, I'm wearing black jeans, grey shoes, a red buttondown with some weird material from Guess, a white undershirt with my fraternity letters on it, and a grey pocketed vest.
I walk up to her and hug her, laughing about the confusion. She left her debit card at the bar we met each other at a few days ago, so we had to make a pit stop. On the way over it was admittedly slightly awkward, and she was trying to keep the convo going, bringing up what we had talked about when we met. She asked what else we talked about without mentioning my declaration of wanting to fuck her brains out, so I said "We talked about a few other things, but maybe we'll get into that later.." And she lit up.

After we got her debit card, I linked our arms saying "it's too cold for this shit", and she happily complied. We walk to the restaurant where I work, and have to wait a bit for the table. My coworker is fucking with me, so I jokingly, but seriously, order him to clear us a fucking table.

We sit down, order margaritas, and talk, almost entirely about her.



Memorable parts of the dialogue:

Telling her I don't like to talk about myself, makes her chase

Keeping it sexual, obviously, and dropping jokes whenever appropriate

Setting up her telling me the craziest place she's had sex: I asked her a question with a long explanation, then jokingly said, "and then you're probably gonna tell me the craziest place you've fucked", and then interjected I had to go the bathroom when she finished explaining whatever she was talking about, "I'm gonna piss, then you tell me your place from sexy time" and touching her shoulder as I walked off

Telling her I had been imagining her naked multiple times throughout the date, later in the date. Then after that interjecting after "randomly" giving her bedroom eyes as she talked about Cancun, saying "sorry I was doing it again ;p, stop it"

She asked me "what's your plan?" toward the end, and I told her she should show me a tour of her house before I go to my party
Her: *smiling nervously* Well going to my house includes going to my room
Me: I know *mischievous smile*, I can't wait to see it
Her: Well, I don't have sex on the first date or anything
Me: Well, my dick isn't in your pussy quite yet, Spunky
Her: Maaaybe we'll go there
She's eager to show me but I could feel her anti slut defense starting to peak out



After that I say, "let's get the fuck out of here", and she complies. Again we lock arms, and she's shivering cold.
We get back to her place for the "tour of her house", which is actually quite nice, and make it to her room.
I poke my head around a bit making some comments on the room before putting my hands on her waist, then manhandle kiss her and pull back, smiling and staring deep into her cute little eyes. I can't remember what she said but then I kiss her again, this time her pulling back, and I sit us down on the bed. She talks about the roses in the corner of her room, and I ask if they're for me. She laughs and says no, then something about last years Valentine's day, and I throw in some joke about how they've been there since last year. While she's laughing I put my hand on her leg and look deeply into her eyes.

I go in for a kiss, and we start making out as I lower her onto the bed. She starts breathing harder, and I start enjoying her body. She has a nice ass, so I move my hands down there before getting a handful. Eventually I position her on top of me. Then, she jumps off the bed, I was worried LMR was coming up because she feels herself getting really turned on. I smile and tell her to strip for me, and she's somewhat in disbelief at my request. I just hold frame, with a devilish look on my face and she starts to, getting down to a black one-piece underarmor thing. I gently pull her hand back onto me, we make out then I position myself over her, and take some more of my clothes off. After this we make out side by side and I undo my belt and move my pants below my ass so the rest will come off naturally.

Now that her legs are revealed, she's way more receptive to me touching close to her pussy. I move my hand up and down her legs, touching everywhere put her pussy. I used a kneading motion with my knuckles, and it's driving her crazy. I just keep doing this while kissing her neck and ears until she's breathing hard enough, then I slip my hands underneath the underarmor and continue the kneading motion right above her pussy driving her even crazier. While keeping her mind busy with my one hand, I grab her ass with the other and start to lower my mouth down her torso, biting her last layer all the way down. Then I bite the inside of her leg, kissing it, moving all around her foo foo, I pull the underarmor to the side and breath hot and slow on her dripping pussy. Finally, I start eating her out, licking down and moving up and she loooves it. I use my hand to open up her hood and start licking her clit. As I've mentioned before, Tied Tongue limits my box munching abilities, but this vag matched my tongue length enough for it not to matter.

I start fingering her to get her body working with it, pressing down on the area that my finger is pushing into when I bring it up. Her hips are moving into my hand movements, and I'm finger her hard enough for the bed to be shaking. I'm getting really turned on by the whole thing, and ask her if she's on birth control. She says no and I say lemme grab a condom. Her anti slut defense kicks in and she's all spooked like "WAIT! We're not gonna do that" and I just kiss her to cut that verse out of the song and keep fingering her. Now I'm more overtop of her and my dick is peaking out of my underwear. I start moving my hips to dick tease her and she loves it. Eventually I pull back when her eyes are closed (meaning she's just focusing on the pleasure her pussy is getting) and I solely dick tease her and she's letting it happen, so I stick it in raw. Slowly but surely, I start fucking her missionary. We fuck for like 3 minutes with me in my underwear, her in underarmor, and then I'm thinking "I really need a condom on, this is fucked". So I pull out and grab my jacket with the condom in it. And, lol, again she says we can't do this, even though I was already fucking her. I kiss her again but she catches on to the pattern and pulls back then gets outta bed. I persist but it doesn't work, but I do get some nice handfuls of ass and some making out. I remember at one point she was getting dressed while I just sat there fully naked, and she like the fact that I was so comfortable in my own skin.

Toward the very end, when I had been putting my clothes back on, I said something about how "I was imagining something I hadn't quite thought of yet" and start peaking my dick out of my pants, her face being very close to it, and she doesn't bite but still smiles. She said "You're trying really hard and it's pretty cute" so I didn't go forward. Or else I would have had her blow me since she wouldn't fuck.




The night continues and I hit up my friend apologizing for missing his bday party, then meet him at a bar. I actually get there before him and he jumps over the fence to get into line with me, and we grab shots. There's 3 girls next to us and I wingman for him. I touch two of the girls on the shoulders and am direclty facing the girl in the middle, making me the center of their attention, and ask them what they're gonna get my friend for his birthday. This cute black girl seems more into me than him, so I started touching her more on the small of her back. She's totally down for me to lead her, but I ended up fucking up and asking a question in a way that sounded pissy. It was like "What is it? What?" and she received it wrong and rejected.

Then I got two loaded coronas for my buddy to meet him on the patio, and I see a really cute indian girl right outside of it, so I set them down and open,

Me: Are you all alone?
Her: Haha, sorta, I'm waiting for somebody
Me: Well you're lucky, I'm here
Her: Hahaha great *looks up with her adorable eyes and is showing IOI's*
Me: What's your name?
Her: *****
Me: *touching the small of her back* What?
Her: *****!
Me: *putting my face in her hair, next to her ear, and pulling her into me* One more time
Some guy stole my drinks, and I saw him walk off to the patio
Her: *****
Me: *shakes her hand* Oooh, *****. Gotcha. Hueman
Me: So other than wait for cute guys to come up to you at [club name] what do you do when you're bored, *****?
Her: Oh, I don't know. I'm kind of a nerd
Me: That makes two of us
Me: Well what makes you such a nerd, *****?
Her: I like to read *puts hands on face in the cutest way*
Me: *puts hand on small of back* Read? What do you read?
Her: [I have no idea what she said]
Me: Ooooo, look at the nerdy smart girl
Her: Hahaha yea that's me
Me: Are you single?
Her: Yea! I am
Me: Let me get your number
Her: *puts number in*

then her friend rolls up, and I'm just as warm with her and give her a hug

Me: So you're the crazy one, and you're the good one being a cute babysitter, then?
Friend: Hahaha, yeah that's us
Me: Okay, I gotta go find my friend for his birthday *take hand of 1st girl* you guys have a good night *slide hand as I back up*
Them: *ecstatic* nice meeting you!



I roll onto the porch and see the guy with my drink. He's standing with two jacked dudes
Me: Yo I'm gonna need that back
Him: What? This?
Me: *takes drink* Yea I was talking with a cutie and you snagged it
Him: *lets it happen* Oh bro I bought that
His friends: What are you doing man?
Me: Yeah I'm sure *takes sip* you finished the other one off pretty quick, you're a smart one
His friends: I'd watch your shit bro
Me: *winks and makes clicking noise with mouth, leaves*



I leave to find my friend and he's in the VIP section again. I walk up solo and right as I do the bouncer went to go handle some other shit

Hug all my friends up there, don't remember much other than stopping a fight with my friend who used to play football by, with like 3 other people, grabbing his arm and putting my leg between his so he didn't have the balance to use his legs to break us off.

I eventually go to the other part of the bar to go and try and pull again, befriended a bouncer in the bathroom, and then I did something stupid.

I was obviously in a good mood, striding if you will, and was cocky enough to say this to the bartender with HUGE tits

Me: I'm gonna give you the tip whether you're showing your cleavage or not
Her: What?
Me: *leaning in* Your cleavage *point to her tits* I'm gonna give you the tip regardless (obvious innuendo - inspired by my dad's classic: Do you want the tip or the whole thing?)
Her: *super pissed off*

Aaaand I sit down in the lounge area, and then a big ass black bouncer grabs my arm and says "you gotta go".

I play it cool and get his hands off me, then walk at his brisk pace and leave. He's staring me down as I exit I'm assuming, because every single cop that sits outside the bar was staring me the fuck down. I say what up to my boy outside and dap him up, then walk home. Could have been worse.


Texted the cute indian girl this morning:
Me: Hey ***** pleasure meeting you last night.. hope you didn't get tooo crazy for a homebody ;p -Hueman

And Spunky:
Me: Hey Spunky, had a great time last night. Hope you aren't too exhausted today (;

And Catfish:
Wednesday:
Me: Hey, about to hop in the shower, see you around 9
Her: Shit!! We have to reschedule
Me: Ah dang. I'm pretty tired anyway. You have something in mind?
Friday:
Her: I'm busy all weekend, Monday?
Saturday:
Me: I'm only free Tue and Wed so let's do it Wednesday again (;
Her: Ugh I had to pick up Wednesday because of [thing] this weekend
Me: Bummer, what are you up to next weekend?
Her: Working the [thing]
Me: Ok I'll just next you next week
Her: I'm off tuesday now
Her:
Me: I have an exam that day.. looks like we'll have to celebrate *bit tongue winking emoji*
Her: Yay

I think I'm gonna start a new journal soon.

 

[Hue]

I think Spunky feels a weeee bit slutty

Although she did tell me that she had just gotten out of a LTR when resisting

Me: Hey Spunky, had a great time last night. Hope you aren't too exhausted today (;
Her: Not at all... *teasing smile emoji* how was your party?
Her: I actually should probably tell you something
Her: You're a super cool guy and last night was great but me and my ex are trying to work things out between us. I'd rather be honest with you than lead you on and wonder why I stopped texting. You were a breath of fresh air though and I'd love to see you again if things don't work out or even just chill as friends.
Me: So they tell me. Bummer, I had planned on doing a little something again
Me: If you'd like to hang / party sometime, balls in your court Lexy *kissing emoji*

I've never been confronted with anything like this so I tried to ride the grey line as hard as possible.

Bummer --> Slightly disappointed but no biggie
I had planned on doing a little something again --> I'm still interested
If you'd like to hang / party sometime --> I don't know what her friends look like but if there as hot as her, preselection is checked off right quick (assuming that she does get back with her ex or whatever)
Balls in your court --> idgaf

With flirty stuff at the beginning and the end. Got a strong frame with her.

I just hope that me being comfortable with the idea of just being friends doesn't fuck me. I don't think it'd be hard to seduce her again though, during our date she slowly gave in more and more to her urges.

 

[Hue]

Building interest and comfort - Tinder

I'm taking a break at my internship and end up Tinder swiping while on the shitter.

I match with this dark skinned girl named Alexis, and for once a hot girl messages me first.

Her: Hey!
Me: Hey there I like your hair, very spunky ;-p (every girl I've called spunky as responded well)
Her: Thank you you look really fun
Her: So what would be an epic day for you? What would you want to do (Oh if only you knew (; )
Me: So they tell me you do as well.. (modesty, qualifying)
Me: I usually don't plan my adventures, I let the wind handle that ;p what about you? (Laid back, deflect question to her)
Her: That was poetic ;D I like to try and find the most beautiful places I can. I feel like they're hiding and someone just has to find them. Then they're yours
Me: That's awesome Alexis.. [State]'s got alotta gems in it. Doesn't make em yours though you could say the same thing about people (qualify, not BF material)
Her: True. I guess the most beautiful things were never meant to keep
Me: That reminds me of Alan Watts, really dope thinker. Doesn't mean we can't enjoy things in the moment though ;p (use of "we" , us enjoying things)
Me: You seem like you'd be fun to go on an adventure with
Her: ;-* I would love that (ringa ding ding)
Me: I'm a little busy this week, let me get you number and we'll set something up! (maybe too much energy here, not a huge fan of exclamation points)
Her: Ok! Awesome I'm stoked (...where's your number girl)
Me: What's your schedule look like? I'm pretty sure I'm free Thursday evening ;-p
Her: I have training that's what sucks I'm mostly free weekends
Her: What other days are good for you (she's definitely interested)
Me: Only Sunday afternoon, that's cool with you?
Her: I believe soooo (somewhat of a maybe, but everything else green lights)
Me: Sweet what's your #?
Her: **********

Me: Hey this is Hueman, save my #
Her: I got you

I wonder if she's new to Tinder. Hot girls almost never message the dude first unless they're robots.. maybe she just really liked my pictures & bio

I can dig it.



Side note: Don't open girls with something super sexual. Some may call that harassment, which is illegal. Illegal is bad.

 

[Hue]

I am seriously wondering if that testosterone thing and girls being attracted to it is legit.
Or maybe I'm getting false positives for IOI's because I've been in such a good mood lately.

At work, my new co worker is smiling at me even though I'm talking like an asshole to my coworker, not her, first day on the job.

1st class today, I'm smiling to myself because I had the thought that Albert Ellis was absolutely a pick up artist before he became a psychologist (Although I think his treatment practice was way too intense and points fingers too much, but that's another story) and I turn my head to see two different girls staring at me with interest.

2nd class today, I sit two seats down from the cutie in my bio class that ended up having a boyfriend, I said one word to her friend, not even trying to flirt, and she get's way more energetic, then starts talking to me about the class and about how cute the new professor is. "Yeah, I'd probably give him one on the cheek" I say, and she laughs pretty hard, then smiles at me as I'm walking passed her out of class, not even looking at her.

3rd class today, exam. After it was over, I saw the cute Asian chick sitting outside the classroom where as she usually goes straight home (she had extra time), I start talking to her about what she thought, qualify her a bit, talk down on my academics. She asks me what I said for this tough bonus question and I tell her, and she's all shocked like, "wow that's really smart... how'd you come up with that?" I just told her "I don't know, just kinda let it fall outta my brain" and she's smiling hard at me. I realize that I had been texting another girl in the class about grabbing drinks after the class to celebrate who could walk out at any moment, so I get the girls name, grab her hand, and slide off saying "I'll catch ya later". (hindsight that would have helped for preselection hard so long as she didn't see me number grab / the asian girl didn't know the two of us were about to get drinks)

I walk out of the building, and out pops a girl from an old FR, I'll call her BB, and we haven't talked in forever. She's Type A personality x100, we chat, I touch her on the shoulder, but couldn't get much more with that (need to work on this, slowly getting closer with the conversation so that touching girls is less obvious/awkward), and talk about how we haven't seen eachother in forever. She says she wanted to go to that place I work, but couldn't because of XYZ, so I set up a date with her for next week there.
She had a new phone, but still had my number, just not 98% of the rest of her contacts, so I say "Oh so you only kept the good ones".
Since the date was set up and I knew she had to go study, I said "check ya next week", then she yells "Do you still have my number?" and I gave an okay answer, could have been better, "Youuu'll seee" (should have said "I guess you'll have to find out").

If this testosterone shit is scientifically true, then this^ would all make sense.
Essentially, girls have been more receptive since last weekend.
At work a grandma even tried to wingman for me lol.
I've been eating bacon and eggs for breakfast every morning, meditating, and I've been waaay hornier recently.
Placebo / Confirmation Bias? Maybe.
Do I care? Nope.
Does it lower my anxiety and boost my confidence? Yep.

Catfish's house got broken into, a pretty legit excuse to bail on our plans. It's pouring outside or I'd be cold approaching right now.
My texting to that Indian girl last night might have been a little too flirty / fuckboyish, I'm trying to figure out a way to turn shit around. I was texting like 4 girls when I sent her the text and think I just got carried away.
I texted the girl from class to try and get "celebratory drinks", if she's down I'm pretty sure I can get the lay there. If not, going to cold approach tonight and limit my drinking.

Feeling very sociable right now.
In the past when I've felt this sort of momentum I usually fall on my face.
There could be many factors into why I felt girls showing more IOI's today, and as I recently wrote too much wishful thinking can be dangerous.
I'm still going to take advantage of it and night game tonight, but should probably take a breath or two lol.

 

[Hue]

Was about to go out alone, and right before I do a couple of dudes call me to join in. I said that's fine, but made it clear I was trying to snag numbers/pull which they never do.

It was Tuesday and raining so I assumed that most girls out were dtf or looking to meet guys.

I saw a girl from HS doing shit for a friend's 21st, only with one hot girl there that looked shy/reserved. I should have introduced myself to her, but told myself I'd come back. Won't do this next time, she left before I got the chance.

Then I saw a girl that I knew from before, by accidentally mistaking her for a girl in my class, and she was throwing tons of IOI's at me. She was cute but was a bit chubby in the face, so I didn't give her too much, chatted with her and her friends a bit and find out they're all servers/bartenders. Eventually she started dancing and twerking in front of the table that I was sitting at, which turned me on quite a bit, so I got her number. She seemed like she was about to lose interest before I did, and I just said, hey, I think you're really cute and would love to get drinks sometime. The exact date still isn't set up, if I choose to pursue again.

My buddy's introduce me to some kids that are way too young to be in a bar that got in with fakes, and there's this sexy latina girl at the table. It took me a second to work my way around to her but we flirted a bit. Guessed eachothers ages, I dropped some innuendo, felt a window to hypersexualize but didn't because of the dudes around us and her age, got her number, was touching her legs with my hand and leg, and we agreed to meet up later that night.
One part I did flat out poorly was instead of hypersexualizing I just alluded to sex, though I had the vibe about me. She said "I'm not gonna fuck you" and I said something like "I usually don't try and convince people of things they want to do".
Later on when she left and came back I reengaged and she was aloof, only to have a drunk high schooler get in my face. I began to tool him then decided I'm bigger than this, plus she's aloof, so fuck it.

In between those two interactions^ my buddy was talking to another group of people. He introduced me, and I made some joke, then once conversations started up one of the brunettes was sitting there not talking to anyone. I went up and made fun of her for being antisocial. She guessed my age and tried to figure out where I was from, and turns out she's a 5th year here basically partying her last semester. I relate a little bit and qualify by telling her my roommates at my old school my sophomore year (I loopholed out of the dorms into an annex) were practically all 5th years, and they were some of the coolest people because of how little they cared (damn I miss those guys). Then she started talking about how she went to a very small HS and the teachers knew who the students were fucking because of all the gossipy shit. I was saying how that sounds like a blast and she was saying no it wasn't. And I teased her focusing more on the hooking up aspect than the gossipy aspect and she thought it was funny. Then her friend said they were gonna leave soon so I got her number.

My night ended on a shitty note. The girl I had first wrote about in this journal was at the bar and she was telling my friend how sloppily I texted her those months ago. I had just warmly said hi to her and kind of ignored her, then my friend and her started talking about past relationships and break ups, and she was saying somethings very incongruent with what she told me about her break up with her boyfriend (this is me judging but I'm pretty sure she still wants her ex). When we were about to leave I asked (just me and her now) if she was still single. She said she was, and then brought up to me about how sloppily I texted her, saying "You should change your strategy" and it really irked me and I think it showed. It made me feel bitter, which sucks on my part. I said "Well I think I'm okay in that department, but that kind of get's rid of my next question. Nice seeing you" and faked my best subtle smile and left.


Part of me wants to send her mixed messages and ask her for coffee. My friend told me this dialogue happened between them:
Her: Yeah he went straight to inviting me over to cook for us
Friend: That doesn't really sound like Hueman... usually his thing is to grab coffee
Her: That'd have been fine with me! (this may indicate it's too late now)

Or since she's in my social circle I should just back off.

Already got a text from the twerking girl, and a response icebreaker from the 5th year.

Definitely went in too deep with the texts from the girl in my class. Gonna cut that one off unless she hits me up. The other girl in that class is cuter anyways.

Also, trying to figure out if I just build momentum rapidly after successes, or if I'm cyclothymic (super mild bipoloar) or some shit. Woke up very low energy today. Yesterday I was very high energy. If I am then I would simply take advantage of it and leave it undiagnosed. Just a thought.

 

[Hue]

I'm so glad I made this journal.
Seeing all my thoughts sprawled out like this and being able to pick up on the patterns, I'm getting to know myself a lot better.


Silly thoughts like "I might be cyclothymic" could run me into a self fulfilling prophecy. (I slept 4.5 hours last night, no shit I was tired this morning lol)

Noticing that I tend to either paint myself in a too bright of light or in a pessimistic one- makes me consider how I do that in my day to day life. I'm clearly pretty great at bullshitting myself. Cocky side, insecure side, it's all a fucking ego, which I need to shed.

Microaggressions. I just posted how "black girls show me more IOI's" and then asked "where the hipster girls at?" and that's pretty damn patronizing of the individual(s) I'm referring to.

All the shit about girls being more receptive^ maybe the testosterone thing, but probably more to do with me getting my vibe down better and my fundamentals improving.


If I could edit most my journal posts and write in bold what this or that might have meant, I totally would.
Sure I probably wouldn't be able to do it with 100% certainty, but I am thinking about shit differently now than when I was putting pen to pad, and for some odd reason I think that this will continue to happen (;

 

[Hue]

Since following whatshereallymeans my texting has changed up a good amount.
Still needs work. I think I use too many emoji's now, whereas I used to use none aka polarization.

Texts with 5th year:

Night we met
Me: (;
Her: <3

Next day (almost all instant replies)
Me: Pleasure meeting you last night ******** you probably don't remember my name *teasing skeptical emoji*
Her: Ready to be proven wrong?!
Her: Hueman
Me: [full first name], actually ;p nice try though
Her: Ptsh close enough
Me: Ptsh debatable (;
Me: We should grab a drink sometime though. Are you free this week?
Her: Okay so this is a little confusing but I have a crazy week ahead of me, I'm getting a puppy tomorrow *monkey covers eyes*
Her: And my moms coming to town but I'm going out Saturday so maybe we could meet up?
Me: Ooo, that'll be fun. I'm working part of Saturday, so it'd have to be early or decently later.. if you're down to meet early we should grab something at [coffee/bar]
Her: What's [coffee/bar] ?? But my mom will be here for a lame sorority brunch lol don't judge me
Her: Ps. You're in my phone as [full first name]
Me: Lol mom's weekend, classic. Well I'm really only free tonight and next week. I'd be down for something tonight if you're not too busy
Me: Make it [full first name] *dancing man emoji*
Her: You're busy! I'm seeing [artist] tonight but next week we could go to a bar and I could bring the pup if it's nice out?
Her: Disco man?
Me: I don't wanna corrupt your puppy with my mischeavous ways, but something like that ;p Let's aim for next Wednesday~
Her: Okay! I work but I can right after
Her: And the puppy is already going to be a little crazy living with me
Me: I"m not even free till 8ish, no worries. Ya he'll probably grow up pretty quick (;
Her: Perfect ! and actually it's a she, gonna call her Jade I think. She's a lil German shepherd pup
Her: Hey what's your last name
Her: You knew my friends right
Me: More like acquainted.. why, you gonna stalk me? *teasing skeptical emoji*
Her: Haha well I was going to ask my friend Alex if she knew you but sure stalking sounds fun too

3 hours later
Me: She knows my friends. I can't even think of her face *crying laugher emoji* usually the ones that stalk aren't as cute, happy hunting
30 minutes later
Her: Are you saying I'm not cute?
Her:
Me: *crying laughter emoji* Reread that I said the opposite
Her: Ohhh haha welp
Her: Guess I'm not stalking
Me: Probably would have been a big mistake (;
Her: Aww how come
Me: I guess you'll never know ;p
Her: Ugh no fair

Some things I did there:

-Recovered from not leaving my name in a teasing way, where normally that'd be a chasing move
-Gave her options of when we could meet
-Ignored some of her questions to stay on topic / keep her guessing
-Chase framed
-Indirectly called her cute
-Mysteriously and mischeavously (aka sexy) framed myself
-Conveyed my "voice" over text enough to have an effect
-Made it clear I'm a busy person
-Ending is low investment

I just wish she wasn't doing shit tonight so I could hook her in faster. I'm thinking we'll get along just fine.

 

[Hue]

Mixed feelings on last night.

My roommate, his friend and I get invited to a frat party and have some fun over there. I wasn't flirting with girls until the end when everyone was heading to bars, and got some girls to come with us to the same bar. I wish I could remember the conversation, she was really into what I was putting down.
In the uber ride over I got some great usage of law of least effort. I was in the passenger seat, and the girl who's number I had just gotten was grabbing my shoulder from the seat behind me and being super excited and flirty. She wanted me to look at her fake id because we were going to a more legit club downtown. I teased her about it, and our faces got very close and at one point were touching. Then suddenly she starts playing suuuper dumb, about just about everything coming out of my mouth. I just went "Oh." and turned back around. Then when she kept doing the dumb play shit and tapping me I'd just turn slightly and say "what?" with a slight smile, and she chased me even harder. Unfortunately I lost sight of her at the bar, then texted her today and she was only in town for the night. Which blows, her pussy reeked of one night stand.

Inside the bar I began to feel tired, but was getting tons of IOI's. I was wearing a hoodie with King Tut on the front and dark navy blue corduroy, and a girl from my high school was there and giving me shit about not dressing up. She herself was wearing all black with a see through top to most of her tits, so I put my hand on her arm and then side and said "Oh do you think I should have worn something that shows my tits a bit more? That would have gotten me a lot more action" and she starts laughing her ass off and touching me back. I wasn't interested though, was more just flirting to flirt.

When I went in the vicinity of the girls showing IOI's, some responded well, but then a frat dude who knew them would snag the girl from me, or they'd turn off after my approach. Idk what exactly I did, or if it was a shit test or what. I got another number and just texted her post icebreaker, but I don't remember what she looks like lol, I was pretty drunk by the end of the night.

Then there was a girl who was on my dick for the last 30 minutes of the night, and was getting touchy with me. I went to go get a drink, and when I looked back at her she was staring in a way that indicated just how drunk she was, so I was beginning to debate the morals of trying to fuck her. Then my roommate's friend starts getting REALLY aggressive with her, and soon enough they're making out. I'm laughing at the situation, because everytime they stopped making out she would look at me and smile. After my roommate began to leave with his ex, I walked out alone to catch up. Then the girl broke off from our friend and followed me, then the friend followed her. On the car ride home the girl is leaning on me and playing with my hands, with my hand on her leg. The dude we're friends with is also touching her. We get back to our apartment and I go upstairs to take a piss. When I get back down the girl is nearly passed out on my couch, and I realize she's way too drunk for anything.... and then the friend starts getting all close with her and leaves with her, angry at me. I told him "Just be careful, dude", and he quickly goes "ya" and leaves.

So basically the bar was a fun time, but then ending was fucked. I hope that he had the morals to take that chick home, and I feel cowardly for not taking the reigns and ubering her home. In the moment I was thinking he would react very badly knowing that only minutes ago I had been grabbing on this chicks legs with her laying on me, but that's unimportant in the bigger picture of what actions should have been taken there.

 

[Hue]

Turns out my friend did not take advantage of the drunk chick, thankfully. However, the competitive nature of the scenario carried over into bad feelings by him and I the next day. He tried to out-alpha me during a couple points throughout the night.

We pregame at my apartment with my roommate, his ex, and our aforementioned friend. I was getting slightly ticked off, from the constant toxicity of the ex and the subtle jabs from the friend, but held frame. I had explained to the friend the scenario that happened, laughing at the fact that the girl he was trying to fuck would stop making out with him, look at me, then go back to making out with him. He asked "was I being rapey?" and I made that clenched teeth :0 face, and said yeah kinda (but obviously not taking it too seriously), and after this he continuously tried to discredit every word out of my mouth on any subject, and was throwing shade underhanded. I held frame by just laughing and saying "man you love taking L's, don't you?", or blatantly ignoring his attempts to discredit me.
It was not an enjoyable scenario though. My roommate is poor at holding frame with his ex and turns super beta whenever she's around, and she has a very dominating 21st century woman personality. So I'm there with a dude trying to out alpha me, my roommate in beta mode, and a self proclaimed cunt lol.
Anyways we get to the club lacrosse party sorority social (mixer) and I just start to hang with all the other lax dudes I'm friends with. Play a game of pong, catch up on some rap talk with an old friend, then start talking to girls. It was really easy for me because the party had separated into groups of guys talking and groups of girls talking (I guess alotta lax players get approach anxiety or something), so I just struck up conversation with a couple groups. One blonde girl was really receptive, and I moved her, began a deep dive, gave her a nickname, then got her number before she left. Then I started talking to another girl, can't remember about what, and similarly got her number. They were both in the same sorority and I made the mistake of sending them the exact same icebreaker texts. I texted the hotter one (the blonde) this afternoon and we're setting up plans currently. I looked her up on facebook and realize she's and old friend's ex who I don't see anymore. Heard she's a freak, so I don't mind.
I leave for bars with my roommates friend and a bunch of lax dudes, and slowly begin leading the direction of where we go. The friend tried to dominate but the dudes simply agreed with me on where we were going.
We get to the bar and I run into a different social circle and hang with them because the chicks they're with are sexy. I was doing really well deep diving this one girl, then realized her boyfriend was inches from me haha.

Then, I get a booty call from an 18 y/o on Tinder who wants to fuck. On Tinder, I'd call her a 6 (not that attractive, but fuckable). In real life, that lowers to a 5 (okay), she's chubbier than her profile pictures show. Our messages were indirect yet sexual. I had never seen her before, but I was drunk and horny so I just said fuck it. I regret this now, the lay was not very enjoyable.
We're walking back to my place and I'm grabbing her ass below her pants and getting turned on. She's horny as shit and starts grabbing my dick as I'm getting hard and trying to kiss me, but I don't let her and make her chase. "You're gonna call me Papi, and I'm gonna call you Mamita" (she's half latina), I tell her, and she eagerly complies.
We get back to my place, make out a bit, then I tell her to get on her knees and she sucks me off...terribly. It was the worst head ever. Like, awful.
I make her stop then get her on my bed, tease her for a while biting and licking her ears while my hands get busy, then start fingering her and she's moaning. Then I play and suck on her tits while fingering her and shes very sensual. She starts telling me to fuck her but I make her wait and then dick tease her, until she's moving her hips trying to get my dick in her. I slip a condom on and we do adapted missionary for about 5 minutes and she is moaning loud as shit. I switch her into doggy style and grab her huge ass, and make her arc her back. She does it, then goes back into what she was doing, so I had to continuously instruct her on what to do. She's clearly inexperienced in bed, just incredibly horny.
I say I need to take a piss, then do, and she follows suite and does the same. When she comes back I wasn't up anymore and tell her I'm calling her an uber. We chat a little bit about types of relationships and I make it clear this isn't happening again, give her a kiss, and send her off.
Worse fuck I've ever had. Next time I'm drunk and horny, I'll try and make a mental note of how things went the last time I said fuck it to my usual standards.

 

[Hue]

Reflection on Friday: Although I might have held frame, my roommate explained to me that I was not being socially calibrated and put off a weird vibe. I had an unresolved stance on Thursday night feeling emotions of both attracted to the drunk girl, but morally obligated not to do anything with her. Then when rehashing Thursday with my roommate, it was kind of poking fun at the situation. When our friend came over, I was somewhere in between poking fun at the whole thing and being serious, then followed by poking fun at it. What it painted was that I was jealous of him having gotten with the girl at all, I came off as unsettled and insecure with my skills with women, and that I couldn't let it go (this is what my roommate said him and his ex believed). Then, that carried on into the rest of the night, where I described the competitive nature of our interactions.
End of the day, I think that for such a small incident, there was too many emotions involved and I could have handled it better.
Also, my roommate has voiced to me that he thinks I look at women as pieces of meat, and that 24/7 365 pussy is on my mind, and that it can be annoying. Need to keep my mouth shut, and use GC as an outlet for women rather than talk about my hookups with other people.

Had work most the day on Saturday, eventually meet up with some dudes and hit a party. This girl there is mad tight with the 5th year, I ended up befriending her a bit while abstaining from going and trying to hook up with other girls at the party and be deemed a fuckboy.

Today I also worked the whole day.
I was serving a pair of girls who I had fucked up with in the past. Last year she came around and was being super flirty with me, I had been responding with touch and some smiles, and then I missed my escalation window. She was explaining to me it was her last night in town, and she was going to keep getting drunk after dinner, and that I should join her after. I fucked up, didn't get her number, and instead just crossed my fingers that I'd see her at the bar, which she never came to.
I saw this is my second chance, and focused on having my sexy vibe when they walked in (wouldn't be necessary if I fully internalize the vibe).
They order margs, I tease them about their pronunciations (it's a mexican place). After a while she finishes her drink and I check on their table and say,
Me: If you're thirsty for another one happy hour is still going
Her: Whaat??
Me: Would you like another?
Her: Hmmm, *spends 2 minutes asking her friend what she would get until I make a suggestion*

Then they need the check
Me: So keeping Sunday fun after this?
Her: Whaaat??
Me: You have big plans after margs?
Her: Ooh, no not really, is doing stuff on Sunday a thing?
Me: Nah not really *take plates and leave*

Me: *realize what I should have said, come back and continue to clean table*

Me: Yea Sunday's can be more fun if you let them be
Her: Oh is that so?
Me: Well if you're with me that is
Her: Oho I'm with her
Me: Ah..
Friend: *interrupts* Yeah she's with me not interested

Yikes. That felt forced. I couldn't even call it cock blocking, more her friend coming to her "safety". Missed that window on my first chance.
I've had a draft for Server game typed up, but I definitely don't have it down yet. It can be really hard to gauge when being flirty is appropriate sometimes. The main thing is just to keep fundamentals in check, and speak slowly to keep them enthralled, then tease, light innuendo, and comment on their own conversations.
I'll start posting more on that type of game in here to check myself.

The blonde girl from Friday stopped answering, and I never texted the other one. Might be too late, but I could maybe throw something her way tomorrow just in case.
Hot black chick from Tinder didn't respond to my text today
Short indian girl from last weekend didn't answer to my date-text
I'll probably text Catfish later this week to set something up
BB on Tuesday
5th year on Wednesday
Exam on Thursday and Friday so won't be night gaming this week, that'll have to wait for the weekend. Then it's spring break so that ought to be fun (;