Hustler's Ambition

[Hue]

I could of had two lays last night.

Coulda, woulda, shoulda

So my freestyle club had an charity concert last night, and I was performing one of the sets. I invited my research lab coworkers, and three girls came (one of them is M) acting like my groupies. There were fucking hammered, and it was super easy to ramp sexual tension with M and I. Putting your cheek on hers while talking in her ear is dynamite.

I had a blast rapping on stage, it was my first time doing it. Definitely doing it again.

After my set the girls left to go to a club, and my frat friends congratted me and then brought me to their last big party of the year. Mini was there and I talked to her and moved her for a bit, but then ejected because people were leaving to bars.

I went solo to my favorite place, and you could just tell the atmosphere was very sexual. The last thursday before graduation? Easy peasy.

I pull up to the bar and order a tequila sunrise. This girl next to me is getting shots and I ask her which one is mine. She plays with it, actually does by me a shot, and then gives me shit for getting a girly drink. I jokingly acted like I felt judged then saying "I think I know what you're saying... you think that I like dick, don't you?" then banter, then again I say "Yea you really must think I love cock" and she asks me why I'm actually here and that she knows what I'm actually doing here. I go "Are you assuming I'm here to fuck someone's brains out before the end of the night?" and she quickly introduces me to her friend, talking about how attractive she is, and saying I'm very attractive, too.

Her friend was a 6 in every sense of the number. Attractive for no particular reason, but fuckable.

This dude was chasing hard, then when I came into the picture she got super touchy with me. The guy was very beta, asking me all these questions like if I'm her boyfriend and blah blah blah, which I ignored for the most part. Then I moved the girl, and she tried to kiss me twice. She was so easy I turned down the lay. She asked me if I wanted to fuck lol, and I just felt like it wasn't a challenge and didnt.

Then I remember trying to wheel this exotic looking indian chick, but that went south. Don't really remember.

M booty texted me, but I didn't provide the goods in time, then booty called her twice like an idiot.

So, I should have fucked the 6, left her house, then went out again with my momentum and either tried to fuck a different chick or find M and nail her.



Date with Mini in a few hours

Girl from class might be down to meet this weekend - texts are bitter sweet

X 31 probably not happening X

X Ditzy blonde not worth the effort X

When summer comes around I think my social circle game is gonna up and down because of reputation

 

[Hue]

Mini flaked.. maybe she was disappointed I didn't go out with her to the bar / try to pull her when I saw her the night before. Very unlikely I'll land another date since the school years basically over - we'll see.

Venezuela and I had a date that gave me insight into working past objections to sex, and keeping my actions and emotions in check with my goals. LR coming after I finish studying.

Girl from class is probably a no go, I'm gonna try to set up studying later this week and see how things feel. Probably friend zoned, though.

Girl from instadate I saw at the bar with hot friends, approached after receiving IOI's, and was being a joking asshole so much it hurt my value and attainability.

M and I matched on Tinder, after I used the app again for the first time in a month+, the day after that booty calling thing. I messaged her and we had some sexual teasing, then I asked for her number as a joke, but she didn't play along entirely.
Second time I've had sexual tension that didn't turn into anything, then the following day / week match with the girl on Tinder. I think this means they were disappointed with not getting fucked / having a man lead them properly and go to Tinder out of curiosity.


New rule: No porn, period. If I have to jerk off I'll imagine sex. I went back to it after being really horny last week, and the week before, and overall felt depressed- I had forgotten about the research that supports the correlation of that.


Sexy new latina girls where I work (; I've had some minor flirting and receive hella IOI's when we interact. Slow burner game coming in hot.


Locking myself in the library for nearly the entire week. Want to incorporate some exercise in there too, but I won't be socializing hardly at all, and won't be going out at all. It's been a long semester of partying, and summers around the corner. The last month has been a hell of a time too.


After exams are over, as said I'm starting a new journal.

Before starting it I'm going to:

Create a summary of this journal and look for my own behavioral patterns, in consideration of outside stressors, breakthroughs, life lessons, and overall progress. Probably something like a summary of each month.

Try hard to point out my own logical fallicies as I've been thinking about this a lot recently.

Ideas for new journal:

Plans and goals for the week starting at the beginning of the week.

Attempts to read a different book every two weeks, then pull what lessons I learned from it, what that means in my life, and how I can apply it.

A weekly progress update on exercise - I'm still a skinny motherfucker with an athletic frame and want better fundamentals.

More info and experimentation with server game.


I would already be journaling these things but the very time I spend writing this is an addition to what was already heavy procrastination.

 

[Hue]

Re: Final Post - December - Hustler's Ambition

Before going into this concluding post, I'd just like to give thanks to GirlsChase. Really, I found this site at low point in my life having just transferred schools, full of fears and doubts. My self esteem was quite low, my social anxiety was higher than ever, and I was getting into some terrible habits that had crippled me before.. my reputation was still overall good, but for the wrong reasons.

Much of the wisdom on here caught my attention, reeled me in, and left me wanting more.

For pulling my head out of my ass, allowing me to have a better form of wrestling with personal demon's, assisting me to create and solidify my life expectations, and continuing to hand me answers the my questions,

Thank you GirlsChase.


Pre-journaling

I began the journal on December 15th, having just finished the Fall semester's exams. Similar to how I feel in this moment, I was incredibly excited to make the most out of my break, and after a semester of adjusting and running around campus, sit the fuck down and organize my growth.

During this point, I was not very self-aware (and still working on it), and have little self regulation. I was rash, and employed of duality of having strong opinions yet covertly believing I was open minded.

Other than using techniques to go for the initial kiss, my escalation needed work unless I'm drunk. There is a huge disconnect between light touching (hands, wrists) heavier touch (ass, legs) and busting a move (manhandle kiss) to sex.. I usually got stopped after 2nd base.

Compared to my old-university's days, I had cut back on drinking, smoking, and drugs. I had began eating healthier, I was in good shape, and working out a lot.

At the time I wouldn't shut the fuck up about all the shit I had done since finding the site. Like a poser, I acted like the observations were my own, when really they were that of this website.
My roommate was starting to get annoyed with how much I talked about girls, as well as frequent texts from me saying "I'm having a girl over, could you either go to your room or hang out somewhere else?", but I didn't care at all.

In most components of seduction, I was pretty much going through the motions, without understanding much at all as to why it worked.

My search for a social group of highly motivated individuals such as my self was not going well - I understand now that this is because people have their "squads" by their junior year, and it's difficult to just walk up and making many strong relationships. The squads I wanted to be "in" with had specialized their interests beyond my own abilities (for example some of the best rappers in the freestyle club live together in a house and constantly perpetuate each other's creativity. I didn't have enough to bring them up and was thus "reaching").


Overall, while still functioning and growing, I was still finding my footing in many areas that those around me were well grounded in. Many of my observations were blinded by egotism in that I would imagine my own actions were the sole reasons behind some of the behaviors of others.

December

Status of game: Shooting at targets, half blind, drunk, with a machine gun.

I'm confident in approaching girls and trying to get the convo going, but still miss TONS of signals they throw at me. The whole "girls looking at you with their peripheral" was non-existent to me.

I was swimming in numbers because of this, when I could have been moving and laying. I think most the girls who I'd gotten dates with I either just happened to have killed it, or I was at the right place at the right time in their search of cock / a man of any kind in their life... or my reputation did the half the work for me in social circle game.

Having brought in 4 different girls into the place that I worked, my coworkers were beginning to see me as a sexual individual.
I'm very glad I had the environment to practice flirting without much repercussions. Mostly practiced sexual framing and innuendo.

One day though, I twisted nearly every word that came out of my coworker with a boyfriend's mouth to sexual jokes - and the manager actually told me I was being creepy as fuck (and, I pretty much was), and asked the girl if she was alright. Really fun at first, then redundant and annoying by the end. I polarized after that and lowered down the flirting to try and be more calibrated.

Nonetheless, the overall good preselection landed me with the Xmas party lay where I pulled a girl into the boiler room and fucked her, then returned to the party as if nothing had happened. I was so blacked out I barely remembered any of it (I woke up still hammered), but pat myself on the back for that one for a minute, only to find out that she was not very attractive when I saw her at a party weeks later. Because I loved the feeling of ego-boost it gave me, I tried to ignore this and still thought it was badass of me to fuck a girl with my boss 20 feet from me.

After this I went on a bender that was very damaging to a lot of my progress. For 6 days straight my friends from high school and I went out and got stupid fucked up, blacking out more days than not. This continues to be a theme throughout the journal, blacking out and seeing damage to my mental and physical well being.

With my sexual vibe developing, I realize I basically had a natural sexy vibe in high school because of my reputation as a bad boy, my voice, walk, and strong preselection from the groups of girls my squad hung out with. Rather than chase my high school persona, I continue to strive to build up and exceed whatever I had going for me then.
I also realized that the main reason we all hung out was because of reputation (popular kids hang out with other popular kids), we were all pretty good looking and some exceptionally good looking people (attractive kids hang out with attractive kids), and the sexiest of us were dating the sexiest of them. Essentially, other than those who were dating, a superficial relationship... the party kids.

I was still trying to reel in Catfish, and I was hitting a wall. I couldn't break form enough to purposefully be an asshole, it just wasn't me.
Then I saw her out with another guy, and was a dick, made it clear I was upset with her being with another dude, then started talking to her sexually, and she kissed me in front of him. My balls felt huge, but I still felt weird breaking form. I realize now that this was simply a lack of self respect that gave me the cognitive dissonance I experienced.
I should get pissed if a girl I'm seeing flaked on me for another guy since she lied about it - it became obvious after that she was losing interest because I was putting up her shit.

I went to a party with a bunch of college graduates my friend group was good with, and I finally picked up on something that has been happening to me for years: girls with boyfriends being genuinely more into you than their boyfriend. For a while I was bitter because of girls tooling me to make their boyfriends jealous, so I assumed that was always the case. Silly me, it's a matter between you and the girlfriend of flirting, dominating (her, but the boyfriend if necessary), providing some attainability, isolating, and sealing the deal. I haven't done it yet out of respect to the man himself, but I can name 4 girls off the top of my head I could have done this with.
With older, single, and more attractive girls at the party I made the mistake of being sexual too fast for my skill-level and fundamentals. I'd shoot at sights of obvious IOI's, where really it might be smarter to slowly push and pull, slow burner, when at a low-medium energy party. Adaptability is key, there's different vibes and attitudes that are more effective for different environments.

At the same party I re-experienced something that I'd seen at my old school occasionally, alpha-males shitting on other people to remain on top.
A senior when I was pledging was very two-faced with me, despite the lack of me being an immediate threat.
Really, he may have just found me annoying because his idea of me didn't match his idea of what the fraternity was supposed to be like, thus making me an outsider and a threat to his organizations identity.

I realized this about my highschool friends from the bender, overall.
Most of my dudes have quite solid external game, but most of them have little internal game. Only two of us had both, neither being myself. Most people outside our immediate social circle were unaware of this, though. I think they always assumed we were just too fucked up whenever one of us had the confidence to go pull, and that's why something seemed off / incongruent. Or, if we didn't have the balls to approach, girls would just see our attainability as too low.

When getting more intensely physical (grabbing ass) in a public place, stick around and flirt lol. Don't grab ass then leave, it's a pretty creepy move, unless done in an elegantly flirtatious manner.


My reputation started to build as a player in my social circle, too. My track record of:
1). cheating on my girlfriend in high school
2). machine gunning numbers and dates
3). stealing a well known girl's virginity
4). attempting to deep dive, often
5). my crazy days at my old university

..made some people begin view me skeptically, but nothing super notable other than a few girls gossiping about me infront of me (where I should have called one of them out and I had one girl on a date say that she "knows everything about me" but I didn't pass her shit test. The funny thing is my results were just starting to get better, and shortly after people just assumed my success with women.


After christmas, I got hit with some of the heaviest cognitive dissonance I've ever had. Maybe it was the clashing of my new adopted mentalities and experimentation with seeing my family and returning to my roots for a night.

Essentially, I was over thinking about ego, caring what others think, being superficial, and being a hypocrite with contradicting beliefs.

The issue was I was allowing other peoples reactions to gauge my self worth, something that should be 100% internally based. That, along with me claiming I didn't give a fuck about what people think, when obviously I've shown that I do, messed with my head. I didn't like my behaviors because it contradicted the bullshit coming out of my mouth about "how I really am". People can be liars without being aware of it.

Again, it boiled down to a lack of self awareness and self respect.

Plus, I was being really mechanical, and like Hector talked about in one of his posts, using lines and things on GC as "moves" in a video game, resulting in me being superficial, robotic, and not feeling or appearing natural / genuine. It's good to have a loose plan, but not to plan every motion you make, and was basically all external game.

I had been trying to master the art of Tinder, and did get decent at getting numbers (the ironic thing is that I had just written about not being so mechanical, and then I posted a step by step process to gaining comfort on Tinder with exact words to say lol).
None of them in December turned into lays, partially affected by the long distances between matches (I killed it during a convo with a girl that was 50 miles away, but we wouldn't move with it). I fucked a girl from Tinder last summer, but she was crazy so it was only twice.

Then Nick was kind enough to show me that I had an issue with attainability, that I was being judgemental, and that I wasn't being direct enough sexually. I'm trying now to be more open minded, and know the right moments to tell a girl how bad I want to fuck her brains out.


I just accidentally hit submit! So, I'll actually post each month as a different post, since this takes a lot of time, actually. I've been quite busy, too, or I'd have it done by now. I'm very freed up this week, and will be done with the journal's evaluation / summary by Friday.

My date for tonight flaked, so I'm going out to night game by myself.

 

[Hue]

my computer's broke - test post from issues with my phone

journal conclusion coming soon (;

 

[Lover]

The issue was I was allowing other peoples reactions to gauge my self worth, something that should be 100% internally based. That, along with me claiming I didn't give a fuck about what people think, when obviously I've shown that I do, messed with my head. I didn't like my behaviors because it contradicted the bullshit coming out of my mouth about "how I really am". People can be liars without being aware of it.

I'm also guilty of this myself too bro, but I knew from a very early age that whenever people state such things, this is how they WISH they were, but not necessarily how they really are. If you have to state it, it's very likely a lie. Maybe you recognize some of these examples

"I don't need girls!"
"I get all the girls I want"
"I never want to settle down"

If people are stating such things, it occupies their minds. I don't know if you have worked your way around it, but I did at one point. The solution is to just shut your mouth Looking forward to read the rest of your conclusions

 

[Hue]

laptop has been stolen!

the universe doesn't seem down to let me complete this journal lol

will have some FR's coming up from a date with a Persian shit tester, hipster chick, and a trivia night where I worked slow burner intrigue game better than I ever had before.. once I get a computer that's not my phone. typing up all the shit with my thumbs isn't exactly a blast.

may start the new journal before I even finish this one, just for organizational purposes.

 

[Hue]

January Summary

January

I said I'd do it, and god damn it I'm finishing this journal.

Status of game: A striding turtle

I refused a booty call from Catfish after a month of trying to fuck her, for pride. Lol, jesus.
Should have just gone over, fucked her brains out, then proceeded accordingly. If I had made her came a few times, and I'm pretty confident I would have, then she'd have wanted the D again, and the game of hooking her in, nearly catching her, then her getting loose would have been slighted if not ended.

New years was fun, and I was actually flirting pretty well. But I was having trouble sexualizing enough to fuck a girl at the party I was at, or for me to appear as the clear best sexual option of the night. Luckily I got her number, and her texts were more than warm. Now that it's summer I think I'll text her soonish (don't want to come off as too excited, probably gonna wait another week or so).
I had a bunch of parties I could have gone to, also. If pussy were my primary objective for the night, I could have party hopped until laying.

Social Circle game has proven somewhat a difficult beast when I have parties at my apartment because:

I had been going about parties at my house the wrong way. There were so many times I could have stolen a girl upstairs with something as simple as, "I want to show you something". Although, my roommate threw many a pregame with girls that are friends with his ex, and his ex and I strongly dislike eachother. Plus, he's told her about my dating life and relationship attitudes. She's a very dominating girl and has provided strong negative preselection with her friends. Also, most of the girls he invites have boyfriends. I almost hooked up with a girl because her bf was there and clearly emasculated, but decided not to because he was right there, and a good guy.

Still, those are all excuses.The problem was frame control and dominating the ex, as well as building comfort with her friends. One night I had comforted her, and I probably should have recognized that as a window to wheel.

I had a huge problem with attainability with Winks, as well as passing a shit test. It was very clear I wanted nothing more to fuck her, and that I did not care for her much at all. I couldn't bring enough emotion out of her, and for the most part she seemed really basic, to be honest. Perhaps if I inspired her then moved her things could have gone better. Plus, my texts were chasey af after the date. Should have backed off from trying coffee-->dinner at my house and actually taken her out to dinner before that, since the first date was meh.

January was my first attempt at day game at the mall. I did awful, but I got my feet wet and that's important. I learned that girls really are willing to give you a shot if you're fundamentals + a solid opener are set, but then you HAVE to keep things going smoothly and move her, or at least number grab at an appropriate time. You have to ask good questions and go deeper into one topic, not flutter around many.

I went to a concert by myself for the first time, and it was a great way to start the social atmosphere of the night. Definitely going to do that again. I talked to a bunch of the kids (they were like 16) in line, then flirted with some girls in the pit, grinded a bit, but nothing crazy. I cold approached a girl after the concert and had her basically down for me to lead her, she was cute and it would have been a lay up. I stopped because she, too, was 16. Nick commented on here that it's actually legal to do that in my state... but still I don't know. She'd have to be really sexy for me to go that young.

That night, after leaving the concert to a party, then leaving to bars, I did really well getting this stunner's number at a bar. I'm still not sure why she flaked. All my texts were congruent, my vibe was on point, there was little error in my ways. Perhaps me being unwilling to deal with confrontation of her brother, who was also at the bar, turned her off.. or maybe she had a fuck buddy that reminded her she didn't need to drive 20 min out to fuck some new guy. Learned a great sexual frame that I created by accident lol. "So what's the adult version of you look like?" I've used it several times since then, it can be pretty damn calibrated and smooth.

My confidence was moving forward with my skills. I got more physical than usual with another girl at a bar after that (my hands were under her belt line of her pants), but I couldn't pull her home, then after driving an hour, a huuge investment on my part, couldn't smoothly escalate with this girl and struck out wildly... even though her texts were smileysX100, she let me grab her ass, and she did a lil strip tease thing for me. She was at a christian university, and was clearly very into her religion.. so this may have played a bigger part than I initially imagined.



With my confidence still pretty high, and my skills growing, my fundamentals became unconsciously better I think. I started classroom gaming, and actually missed one really easy opportunity for instadate / instalay. She was giving the IOI's that say "lead me, lead me, lead me", like the super excited, eyes dilated kind, and I probably could have had her show me her dorm / come to my house. She was also a freshmen. I bet that I could do this same thing by day gaming in between classes, which I'm ABSOLUTELY doing next semester. I have one year left, nothing to lose!

The weekend after that I almost took a dude's girlfriend away from her. My friend had been reading "The Game", which after skimming through, I don't recommend. More of an introduction to the PUA community than a bible on how to get laid, despite the bible theme book display.

The way to tell if she's open is by observing the body language and actions of the alleged boyfriend and her. She was turned away from him, and he had his back on the wall, looking down at his phone blankly. When I joined my friend who had opened 4 girls on his own, (the boyfriend was disengaged entirely from any convo, even though it was his social circle), I started talking to the girlfriend immediately. She slowly opened up more and more to me, then when she was totally facing me I screened to see if she was single. She looked down and to the side a little bit, and answered disappointedly and ambiguous. Here's what I wrote that night,

Turns out we're both doing the exact same shit in our research labs, and she got all excited. Then she had to talk to some dude behind her. and I said something like, "Uh oh, is your boyfriend mad I'm talking to you ?" She responded playfully, kind of ignoring the boyfriend thing. So I said, "actually though, is that your boyfriend?". It was but "it's complicated". So I saw that as a strong yellow flag. The dude was staring me down then looking down submissively, I figured she was in the process of distancing herself or something. I would have gotten her number right then and there, but the guy was right there so I chose to be more covert in my actions. That was dumb, it would have been dominating to just number grab it.

She was ready to break up with him, it's likely he had been emasculated. Had I been more calibrated and gotten her number, offering to talk later under better circumstances, I could have been a nice "just broke up with my bf, time to fuck someone's brains out" fuck.

I went to a club after that. Hindsight the girl I tried to pull was probably too drunk, but I'm also pretty sure I got cock blocked and then had some other dude get the cat.

Since then my opinion on drunk chicks has changed. If she's smashed, fuck no, do not do it. If she seems drunk, but is also showing IOI's in a not horribly sloppy way, get her number or take her home, but don't fuck her until the morning. She'll respect if you did and the sex will be better anyways.


Then I met Bookworm at book club, and I really thought we were gonna go well. I know now that I didn't attract enough at the beginning, but she was definitely interested initially. Then my lack of texting experience put that straight to the gutter. She was a smart shit tester, and played games... she was also a model and really sexy . Oh well.

Then I got my feet wet at an older person bar and was exposed to how different women respond than girls do at bars. Sooo different. They've seen all the shit. You need to be a man, not some gamey fuckboy, to get real women. Shit like "what are you getting me?" doesn't work. Totally different ballpark. I still feel slightly childish when I try, I must admit, with women that have 6 years on me. But I know it's dumb, I work with people who act younger than me, and they're 30. I find the more I spend time at my internship learning effective ways of asking clients questions, as well as spending time with my mentors, I feel calmer and more in control around elders, though.

Despite being insanely busy with all the things going on in my life, I managed to make decent progress in January. Mainly on cold approaches and initial attraction, though. Sustaining the vibe of the convo was the issue, and likely due to lack of internal game, but tons of studying of external game. Also, I turned 21, so that's a plus

 

[Hue]

Re: February

February

Status of Game: J. Cole (people think I'm better than I am)

I think February was the most fun part of this journal. Things started to become internalized after 2 months of putting in more effort and keeping track of my thoughts. If anything that's a huge lesson I got out of this. Even though it's largely unconscious you've changed your game quite a bit for the better.

How had I not given up on Catfish at this point? Jesus lol. She was such a shallow bitch, and I was so clearly her provider of free shit.

In contrast, I made a oneitis with Bookworm, who, was more than I could handle at the time. That was emotionally tolling, if I remember correctly - putting so much mindful investment into one girl who I thought was so special without really knowing her.

Was stilling tryna fuck these freshmen in class, or so I thought. I only tried shit with like 3 of them, and they were all in my lab class. It was a lecture of like 400 people, yet I limited myself to my immediate surroundings and essentially the social circle of the lab. Where was the abundance mentality?

Oh, that's why:

So, I'm on a dry spell..

Yep, that can definitely take away abundance if you really need to get laid. It also can help in making excuses like "I'm too busy". While I was busy, there's far busier people out there getting laid, so, I'ma call bullshit, me.

That phonecall with Hector really helped me. It was on my 21st birthday (I just wrote about it in Feb) and it for some reason brought me right back to this mindset of "I'm the man, I don't give a fuck what other people think" that I so easily radiated during my old-university days. 10/10 would recommend (if you really have many questions you know you can't get on your own). Some of the shit he told me was gold, and helped me greatly.

After this journal I think I'm gonna finish, finish Hustler's Ambition but summarizing every summary (lolz) and then writing a good bit on what I was like and what I learned from my old days in college, now that I've looked back at my past enough.

An app called Friendsy went viral at my campus, and has since then totally died. Pretty neat. It had a friend match, a hook up match, and a date match. Should have gamed it better. More date matches than hook up attempts, since, they get a notification that a stranger wants to hook up with them, instead of wants to date them. Game could be murderous in the date match, where as the hook up match can raise up ASD.

Lol WOW I was being a douchebag in lab. Coming in 20 minutes late, not knowing the assignment was do, expecting (verbally) for my lab partners to carry me, no wonder two of the girls were total bitches to me. At least February was early enough in the semester when they were still attracted to me because of the bad boy vibe. By the end my shenanigans had them disliking me because I didn't give a fuck about the class room. Except for one chance I missed, but, I'll get on that later.

I should have taken my friends advice that this other area of town was more my speed, because well, it was (and still is). The adults in that area have been going out, in that scene, for years. I'm still a relative noob in that part of town, but I am learning quickly. This other area is somewhere I'll be spending a lot of my time next semester.

Side note: talking with lesbians about pussy is fun.

At one of those adult bars I got gamed by girls to get an uber. The scenario was, they were immediately super flirty with me, at the same time (2 of them), RIGHT when the bar closed. It's a hard thing to have an eye for, but they were faking drunk. The main thing to pay attention to is their eyes. If their eyes are off-focus, they're drunk. If they're on focus (not drifting at all), they're probably sober enough to not be falling on you and touchy (unless, well, you know (; ). On top of that they just flat out weren't making sense. They wanted to go to an alleged bar called Don Julio, which is a type of tequila. There's no bar called Don Julio, but they were adamant on going there. Once we stole an uber since my phone didn't work, they stopped acting drunk, switched into a much more controlled frame, and started being bitches. They got what they wanted, I was now useless to them.


I did my first cold approaches at my campus in February, and looking back my fundamentals and openers were not congruent and a pretty large wack stack.


Lol kind of funny how much I was scouting out for girls in my classes, but trying to act like I wasn't. Haha, I mean I'll probably do that next semester to, just in a more calibrated, less stalky way. While it's important to not miss good opportunities, it's also important not to actually BE the guy creeping on all of his classmates whether they know it or not.. out of self-respect and respect to them.

Did a Tuesday bar hop by myself. Not many places going up in the club on a Tuesday, except for one bar right where I live that is literally lit every Tuesday. I usually work though, and don't want to gain a reputation there (I think I already have one there anyways lol - a bartender there and I are eskimo brothers)

That was insightful though. And it gave me the preselection that I needed to fuck Catfish the one time I did. Perhaps this relates back to what Chase said about, "even when you aren't feeling like approaching, just get out there and do it" or whatever the quote is. Social momentum is king.

Never make the same exact joke to a bitch twice (it can happen on accident). What's better, canned meat, or fresh, juicy, newly cooked meat?

One minor thing on polarizing progression with sexual tension is presenting that you are a dominant sexual force in the sack, without being super aggressive about it, but also not being so timid about it that you don't come off as a good fuck. For example, a conversation with Bookworm:

Me: Okay you're gonna teach me something
Her: What's that?
Me: So, in Spanish, how do you say "Tequila makes my clothes come off"
Her: *laughs* umm, let's think.
(ponders how to say it, explains the verbal things about it, so I rearrange the sentence to fit)
Her: Well you could say Tequila takes my clothes off
Me: Sounds a tad aggressive, what about [example] (Don't like the fact I said that, missed a better sexual window. Makes me seem less sexual than I am)

Pretty canned. But I responded "that sounds a tad aggressive" for tequila "taking" the clothes off. Laaame. Could have said something like "ooo, tequila, I like your style (; " then transitioned.

Maybe it wouldn't have landed given the context, but that's not the point. Saying that I think tequila "taking" the clothes off is "aggressive" means I wouldn't rip her clothes off when we start hooking up, if the vibe felt right. What's hotter and more sexually dominant, me taking her clothes off her, or us both slowly getting naked like it's preconceived sex? Maybe I'm creating a falsifiable argument a bit with the options I'm presenting, but what I said sounds pretty verde sauce.


Then I visited my old school. Holy hell, did breaking my spell feel good. I still remember the feeling. I was being facey as hell with the bitches I ran into to. I previously wrote I wouldn't visit again. Uh, fuck that lol. Too much good snatch to catch over there.

I'll never forget,

Her: *almost finishing up her sentence about this thing in her life*
Me: *interrupting, mischievous smile* I wanna fuck the shit out of you so bad right now
Her: *excited, shocked* What??
Me: So you were saying that about your relationship with Starbucks, you're not affected by the greedy decisions those fuckers make, so naturally don't care?
Her: *growing smile, pause* Yeah, I just get to see it from my perspective

That^ is why I got laid with a 26 mom that night. I ravaged that bitch. All that sexual desire pent up, it volcanoed. I had her calling me daddy while her dad (she lived at home) was two rooms down. I also got her to agree to leave mid work-shift at STARBUCKS and fuck me in the bathroom. That, I didn't do, but.. maybe I should have.

I also won't forget this:

I feel too self reassuring and I have been acting that way a lot of recent. Possibly because my ego was suffering from the dry spell.
That's gotta change.
What makes me feel this way? A couple things:


Revisiting my old school made me realize I'm a lot more candid with people out there than I am here. I've concluded this is because I feel I have more to lose here.

I felt I had nothing to lose there, and for a year straight essentially did whatever the fuck I wanted. It was awesome, but to a degree that was completely unsustainable. What I lacked was balance, direction and organization.
It's incredible I was never arrested or had my ass kicked. I went out 4 days a week, every week.
My priorities, in descending order were: Party, pussy, relationships, money, school, health.
I lived by impulse, never even attempting to slow down, only to run from the problem and transfer.
I'm more stable now, but the shift in polarization has somewhat strangled me.
Sure, I'm still me. I still party and do and say a lot of the same shit, but there.. it's different. I feel different.
Like a chameleon, I'm the same organism, but show different traits based on my environment.
There, I feel I hardly have a filter, I feel unafraid to be wrong, say what I feel needs to be said, and hardly ever put up with shit.
I feel a hell of a lot more real.

A moment of a polarizing shift. An empowering embrace of digesting a little more red pill (to the point of being a little bitter), and a hatred for what my ego had done to me as a protective mechanism.

Essentially, I was too wild at my first school, and now I feel too timid here. I was almost a natural at my old school, but it was only supported by my ability to "work" the type of people of that school, my reputation, and my extreme focus on social life rather than academics. I'll write more on that later.


Why being a provider might suck? I dated a bitch for 4 months and fucked her once. And lack of self respect. Taught me 4 things though, I wrote them then,

1). Be congruent - I was super sexual vibe (playing find your nipple, talked about sex during coffee, chase framed her as trying to seduce me, talked about the at the time new Mac Miller album which is ALL about sex) and then I set her a romantic text about how it really enjoyed the time with her. I could have likely banged her out on the second date, instead of this long and annoying process.
2). Don't submit when you know it's bullshit - She would make up excuses about why she couldn't XYZ (mainly fucked even though she's wet in my bed) and they were almost always terrible. Logically jump over her dumb excuses, and push emotion to make her give in to how bad she really wants to fuck
3). Know when to set boundaries - I eventually got fed up with her shit and made it obvious, and she came crawling back. I can tell you this much from my experience with her: she's got plenty of orbiters and other guys to fuck. I had to dominate her in more than one area (logistics, escalations, power control) to finally reel her in.
4). Don't be afraid to say whatever's the fuck on your mind - Even if she's thrown off or initially responds poorly to some of your reactions, she will ultimately respect your honesty and reasoning more than if you were be cautious and act against your feelings.
There may be more but those are huge.

Started making some strides with rogue king here. Tapping into high school friends who had begun their own networks gains me people from their networks, and so on and so forth. It was flattering, about 5 people I didn't know had either heard of me / knew who I was or said the same thing about my roommate, and he didn't even go to my school.


With snapchat game (I'm still not a huge fan) I think it goes something like this:
1). Get a streak with the girl (show off your life), the snaps aren't about her - that's chasig
2). Wait for a back and forth exchange between you two
3). Make the snaps about flirting with her
4). Get nudies / tell her to meet you at X

When hyper-sexualizing, it's important to wait for a green light, or else you're that creepy guy at the bar. I'm sure that a low percentage of good fundamental guys could find some girl horny or desperate enough to hop on a dick without one after being taken off autopilot, but green light muy importante.

Me: Is this a bra?
Her: Yea
Me: Wait no it's not *touching the back of it, then sliding to the small of her back*, I can't unhook it with one hand
Her: You could just do this *pulls bra up, but not enough to flash*
Me: Good thinking, are you single?
Her: Kinda (I have a fuck buddy but no strings attached)
Me: Kinda, I like that answer. Give me your number

She's struggling with the droid, so I tease her

Her: Is this right?
Me: You're good, make sure to throw a sexy nickname in there though
Her: *puts nickname as Kitty Kitty Meow Meow*
Me: Mmm I hope you know I'm only calling you Kitty now

Lol.

If a girl is trying to change the subject on you during texting, go stoic, wait for her to invest more, then be flirty before the kill shot. Or be flirty then ghost, let her get worried why you stopped answering, then kill shot. Don't put up with shit, it's hot.

Then, boom. I had another first date lay.
This is called an escalation window:

She asked me "what's your plan?" toward the end, and I told her she should show me a tour of her house before I go to my party
Her: *smiling nervously* Well going to my house includes going to my room
Me: I know *mischievous smile*, I can't wait to see it
Her: Well, I don't have sex on the first date or anything
Me: Well, my dick isn't in your pussy quite yet, Spunky
Her: Maaaybe we'll go there
She's eager to show me but I could feel her anti slut defense starting to peak out

And this is a good way to go from foreplay to sex if ASD / LMR is giving you a hard time:

I start fingering her to get her body working with it, pressing down on the area that my finger is pushing into when I bring it up. Her hips are moving into my hand movements, and I'm finger her hard enough for the bed to be shaking. I'm getting really turned on by the whole thing, and ask her if she's on birth control. She says no and I say lemme grab a condom. Her anti slut defense kicks in and she's all spooked like "WAIT! We're not gonna do that" and I just kiss her to cut that verse out of the song and keep fingering her. Now I'm more overtop of her and my dick is peaking out of my underwear. I start moving my hips to dick tease her and she loves it. Eventually I pull back when her eyes are closed (meaning she's just focusing on the pleasure her pussy is getting) and I solely dick tease her and she's letting it happen, so I stick it in raw. Slowly but surely, I start fucking her missionary.

I saw a discussion about whether going out after sex is good / bad, and I think it's definitely good if you're not tired out from banging. If you're in that, fuck yea mindset after sex, go get another one. The momentum is massive.

Me: I'm gonna give you the tip whether you're showing your cleavage or not
Her: What?

Lmao.

When on Tinder, make the date happen FAST. The bitch will likely lose interest, get a stale taste of being on Tinder after a few days / week, and probably flake. It's happened to me 3 times as opposed to faster moves being made.

After that lay, my manager said to me privately, "I know what you are, I know what you do", after seeing me bring in the 5th (?) different girl to my workplace. I was running a refined routine at that point. He probably thinks I banged every girl I brought in. This was when a player reputation began, even though I wasn't truly a player (and I'm still not, IMO).