Jake D.'s Rebirth(Progressions 2)

[Smurf]

So last time I tried to improve myself, I kind of fell off the map. What I want to do this time is exactly the opposite. I want to continue to improve myself, and I feel like I will be much more motivated this time around.

If I don't post myself approaching girls or going on dates, I will post observations every day or I'll post something on the social side of things.

First reason I'm doing this again: I remember a couple of days ago seeing a girl I wanted to approach. I really wanted to and she even gave me some IOI's (Approach Invitation, whatever you want to call it) and of course, I PUSSIED out. As soon as I left her proximity, I got this sick feeling in my stomach, like I had just eaten something that gave me food poisoning. I never want to have this feeling again, so to prevent that, I'll be approaching a girl if I get the chance to.

Second reason: Other than a core group of 5-6 friends, most of my friends seem to have lost an interest in a clean, healthy lifestyle. They let drugs consume them, never want to do anything that doesn't involve marijuana, and basically blow off plans I try to make or leave when we're hanging out to go smoke. These are not the kind of friends I want around me. I want friends that are clean, and if I can't have that, I want friends who at least have a positive influence on me, and approaching girls and creating a larger social circle will help me do that.

Third reason: I need some sort of time consuming hobby. Lately I've been sitting around my house, doing nothing. It's not that I don't have other hobbies, I guess I just need another one. This is a hobby that could potentially last a lifetime.

So, to kick this off, I'm going to talk about the one half-ass approach I did today.

Today, I went to the gym with some of my good friends(positive), then afterwards, we spent the day doing nothing, really. One of our friends left for dinner and wanted to hang out afterwards, but deciding that would lead to nothing good, I decided to head home early.

I caught the bus home, and on the way, a girl got on the bus. Blue dress, looking cute. In the back of my mind, I remembered that feeling I had when I didn't approach a girl that I wanted to approach, and decided I would. So one stop goes by. Two. Three. I was really procrastinating and making plenty of excuses, but near my stop I decided I would use negative reinforcement on myself and I would have to punish myself if I didn't say at least a WORD to her. So before I got off the bus, I said, "Hey, I had to say you're really cute." I didn't introduce myself, and the opening was neutral at best. Even so, she responded with a kind, "Thank you!" Then I got off the bus and headed home.

That's where I am right now. I plan on one-upping myself every time I leave my house.

So until next time guys, Jake signing out.

 

[Smurf]

So today I worked out and had a bro day with some friends. This was planned and I didn't see much of an opening to approach any girls. Instead, I practiced some of my facial expressions with good friends and tried giving some sincere compliments. I also had a conversation with a stranger that I'll talk about in the morning.

 

[Smurf]

So as I was walking to the gym in the morning, I got approached by a man from behind, who opened himself with a metaphor: "Do you see that house on the corner? Would you agree that it has a builder?" To which I replied, "yes..." Then he says, "So wouldn't you say the universe has a builder?" At that point, I knew he was onto some sort of religious mission of sorts.

I myself am Buddhist, and he was obviously a Christian. I didn't really want to convert myself, but I didn't want to let the guy down/let him know either. I had just read Chase's article on being a mirror, but I'm pretty sure I used it in the wrong place here. I told him I was also Christian. I was interested in what he had to say, but he wasn't going to change my mind. So for the three blocks that we walked, I mirrored him, and I actually did learn a few things.

So my question is, should I have mirrored him, or should I have told him I was Buddhist, and let us go separate ways?

Until next time,
Jake, signing off.

 

[Smurf]

Semi approached two girls today. It's not much but it's a start for me.

First girl

Me and a friend went to Sonic to get something to drink. We ordered, got our drinks, and sat in the car for a bit. A little after that, a girl my age came and asked us if we needed anything. We replied no, and continued to have our own conversation. She jogged my memory a bit and then I realized that she went to my school. This changed things, as I didn't want to do a direct opener and have it fall flat on it's face, risking my reputation. A little later, I was thinking about her, and kept turning around in the car to see if she would ask us again. Deciding that she wouldn't, I got out the car and threw away some trash as an excuse to get out of the car. I turned around to see her (after timing our collision perfectly... ) And opened her with a "Hey!"

Me: Hey! Don't you go to (My school name)?
Her: Yeah I do, I think I've seen you around!
Me: Oh yeah that makes sense, you looked familiar! What's your name?
Her: (Name)
Me: Oh cool, I'm Jake!
Her: Hi! What year are you going into?
Me: I'm gonna' be a Senior, what about you?
Her: I'm gonna' be a Junior.
Me: Oh nice, well see you around!
Her: Yeah!

Now that I look at it, this conversation was oozing with... Boredom. This was just an average conversation, but I'm still proud of myself for saying something.

Second Girl

This isn't so much an approach as an attempt to rid myself of Double A. Me and two friends were walking around the mall, just hanging out(or so they thought...). We walked into a clothing store and I spotted a semi-attractive girl walking through. At first I wasn't going to say anything, and I don't know what compelled me to, but as we were walking out, I walked up to her and said:

Me: Hey, you look really cute!
Her: (At first she gave me this really nasty look, like I just threw mud on her, but then she lightened up after I opened her)
Her: Oh thank you!

I then proceeded to walk away calmly. I know these aren't that exciting but for me these are steps in the right direction. I hope that someone reading this could give me some tips and what not. Hopefully I'll have more action-packed material coming soon...

So until next time,
Jake, signing off.

 

[Smurf]

Couldn't do any approaches yesterday because of a little kick back with some friends. Today though, I approached two girls walking in the park.

Me: Hey, sorry, but you two look incredibly cute!
Girls: Oh thank you!

Trying to get rid of my Double A.

Goals: Make conversation, continue working on fundi's and non-verbals.

 

[Smurf]

Today I did a couple of "approaches" but none of them brought fruit, but I feel like one of them could have if I had really pushed it. If you're reading this, you'll see below...

First Two Girls

Me and two other friends hung out today, just shootin' the shit and generally adventuring around town. One of my friends suggested we hit up a local Target. Normally I'd turn this offer down, but I thought about the possibility of an approach and went ahead with it.

We got there, and played some demo video games for a bit. We walked around the store, and I didn't see much of anything that was around my age. After almost circling the store, I saw two pretty cute girls in the make-up section. My friends told me they looked like they were too young and I ignored this. I put off the approach for about 5 minutes( mostly because the pussy side of me was making excuses: why approach in the make-up section? There's people around...), but then I finally walked up to them and said,

Me: Hey, sorry to interrupt, but you guys are really cute.
ThemOne of the girls got this weirded out look on her face, but the other seemed really appreciative of the compliment) Thank you!
MeI thought the girl with the odd look would be a problem to start a conversation with(That's Double A talking) so I then walked away)

Second Two Girls

After getting a bite to eat( I need to remind myself to bring mints/gum with me because my breath smelled like burgers...), we headed over to a mall on my suggestion. We walked around for a bit, spotting a few cute girls here and there. I randomly spoke to some people, trying to get rid of my introvertedness. I noticed two girls sitting at a table at a Starbucks. For some reason, my brain keeps trying to rationalize if they are too young or too old to approach. I need to get rid of that and approach no matter what and suffer the consequences. Need to gain a leader mentality. Anyways, I walked up to them and said...

Me: Excuse me, but you look extremely cute.(I only addressed the one I wanted to approach)
Her: Oh thank you!(She seemed flattered)
Me: My name's Jake
Her: Oh I'm (Name)
Me: So what are you guys doing today at the mall?(Banal conversation, I know, but I couldn't think of anything to say, and I was extremely nervous. The only thing I think I did good here was addressing them both so the other didn't feel left out.)
HerShe turned to the other friend)
Other friend: Hmm, I don't know..
Her: Just wasting time.
Me: (I know here that that could have been an invitation to have a conversation with them, but my mind went stark blank)
Me: Alright, well you guys have a good day.

Those are the only approaches I did today, but as we were walking in the mall later, they managed to get in front of us and they started looking back and smiling. I KNEW this was my chance to get my first number, but I didn't take it because I was nervous. Oh well, I'll do better tomorrow.

Goals: Get a number, have a conversation, work on my sexy vibe along with fundi's.

So until next time,
Jake, signing off.

 

[WinnerWinner]

The second two girls were giving you obvious signs of an opportunity to lead them into an adventure.

That's the superficial level though. I suggest you dig deeper because it seems like you aren't even able to make conversation with people you know, from the way I see your quick interactions (this if from my own experience). You've got into this community to get girls. One thing is to be able to break the wall of approaching a girl you don't know but you gotta build a foundation too.

and.. there are other two very important things to this that I can think of right now:

1. You gotta know what you want and know who you are (tip: you wont get closer to yourself by focusing and having interactions less than 10 seconds)

2. "pickup" is very simple but not easy - you are a man, she's a woman. NOW LEAD HER INTO AN AWESOME ADVENTURE WITH SEXY YOU!

so...

spend more time on yourself and develop attractive traits

1. and/or stay longer in the interactions until they ask you to leave or they leave themselves

2. and/or keep doing the approaches you do but analyze the whole thing, from before you saw her to when you see her to after parting away (only do this when you know what you want)


Have fun

 

[Smurf]

Thanks James!

I know I have to stay longer in these approaches most definitely. I'll try today or tomorrow to get a number, and I'll push until they either leave or ask me to leave.

As for developing sexy traits, I'm constantly trying to work on my fundamentals daily. If you mean Byronic Traits like in Chase's article, I'm gonna' have to think about that. I might make a post in my journal just listing some of those out.

Anyways, thanks for everything you said!

Jake.

 

[Smurf]

So today I didn't have much of a chance to approach. Went to the gym, saw a cute girl but didn't want to say anything because I know she's a lifeguard there and my friend's a lifeguard there and she apparently has a boyfriend. Eh. Went to the mall and saw NOTHING, which was completely out of character for a place like that. Maybe I wasn't looking hard enough.

I met up with some friends and we decided to hit the gym (Twice in a day, nice). As we were leaving, we started messing with the weights on the front desk. There was a cute girl who I started flirting with a bit. I'll go back tomorrow and see if I can turn it into something.

Later in the night we went to go possibly pick up a friend from work. We wanted to surprise him but he didn't get off when he said. I did a half ass approach to this girl with another girl (sister?) and what looked like their mom. The opening didn't come off smooth and I decided to eject too quickly again.

Hopefully I'll have a story to tell: good or bad.

So until next time,
Jake, signing off.

 

[Richard]

Jake, nice job so far, you're doing quite well at your start My advice to you is to work on having more conversation, ask more open ended questions for better practice. Review a few of Chases conversation articles to get an idea of what kinds of questions you should ask, and in addition, look up the "ripple theory" of conversation

 

[Smurf]

Thanks man. Unfortunately I'm gonna be in a position where I can't approach for two weeks. Of course I'm gonna try but I can't guarantee anything. So the next time you hear me it might be from school through social circle.

So until next time guys,
Jake, signing off.

 

[Smurf]

Hey.

I'm with my dad the entire day so no chance to approach. Thought this was a great opportunity to use eye contact flirting. Writing this down so I don't forget it later.

Went up to the mountains to run a trail. I was in full ugly non-fashionable workout clothes. (Note to self,get nice workout gear.) We walked around a farmer's market for a bit.

Saw a girl with her dad. perfect. I waited until she noticed me then responded with a sexy smile. She responded well and gave me some smiles of her own. Later she started walking in front of me and I knew I hooked her. Too bad I couldn't approach.

We'll see how the rest of the day goes.

So until next time guys,
Jake, signing out.

 

[Smurf]

Haven't been able to post because of school work but there's a girl that I'll explain in more depth when I get to a computer and can type, it's a long story.
See you guys Tuesday ,
Jake.

 

[Smurf]

School's kicking my ass, but I'll try and have a good story up tomorrow for you guys.

Jake.

 

[Smurf]

It's been a long time, but I'm back...

Today I decided to actually get some progress done by pushing things further than normal and seeing what I can actually get away with.

Things didn't work out exactly like I wanted to today, but some interesting things happened nonetheless.

I talked to this girl from one of my field reports. It was this morning.Let's call her Miss S. I went up to her in and started bantering with her. Throughout the conversation I'm touching her, messing with her things, etc. I then tried to set up a "date"(Not really a date necessarily, just something to get me to deep dive her because I haven't done that at all.) for us to talk at lunch. When I said this, she got MUCH closer to me. We were touching at the side from shoulder to hip. She replied with a "maybe". For some reason I saw this as a challenge to my time so I told her, "Listen, tell me yes or no now so I can make other plans if I need to." She responded with, "Okay, where do you wanna' go?" I told her we should stay here. Then I ask her where she'll be (Chase by me?) and she says by her locker. Cool, so I possibly got something going here.

So at lunch, I had thought about it a little too hard and got a bit nervous. I threw those thoughts out of my head and went by her locker. She wasn't there so I went to the bathroom. Come back out, she still isn't there. I decide, "Fuck it, whatever," and I go outside to grab something to eat. I walk by her locker AGAIN and she still isn't there. At this point I'm almost done with this, so I walk outside to go play some hacky sack. Then I think about it and text her:

Me: You still wanna hang out? (Bad wording, probably sounded like I was chasing.)
Her: (8 minutes later) Sure
Her: By the XXX lunch line
Me: (Thought that was her trying to get me to chase her, wasn't having that at this point. So...) Come to the hall by your locker (And I drop it there.)
Her: (12 minutes later, ugh..) I'm here

So I took my time walking over to her locker, partially satisfied that I got her to move (Compliance?) and partially ticked off that it took so long for her to text back and wasted some lunch time. By the time I get to her, there's about 10 minutes left in lunch.

I see her down the hall, but I don't make eye contact until I get about five feet away from her. Annoyingly, I see she has two guys with her. By the looks of it, I figured they were Orbiters, but I wasn't sure at the moment. My plan was to plop down right next to her, but I made the mistake of standing up for about ten seconds next to her. Why is it a mistake, well...

Her: You can sit down, you know.
Me: (Headdesking myself in my mind at this point, I sit down, my shoulders and legs touching hers. Good proximity?) Of course.

At this point, I asked her TheTool's line (Even though this wasn't really a "date") So what trouble have you been causing today?

NOTE: Maybe I should change this to: So HOW much trouble have you been causing today? Insinuating that she has been causing trouble, making it more likely that she will respond positively, because... She said, "Nope."

Then right after she offered me some goldfish. I complied, taking the bag of them. We then bantered for a bit, and since she dances I asked her why she dances, stuff about it. I'm not very good at deep diving yet, but she gave me lame responses. It didn't SEEM to affect me too much, however. Touch wise, we were touching when we were sitting, I tied her shoe laces together, tickled her knee. I couldn't think of any chase frames in my head at the moment. About the two guys...

When I tied her shoes together, I tied one of the knots really tightly. She couldn't get it out, so she lifts her feet onto the guy's legs and asks him to undo them. He COMPLIES. (Really bro? Oh well, better for me.) After that, she leans back and whispers to me, "My bitches," to which I just chuckle. From this point on however, I make sure to command her to do just about everything. "Hand me this", "let me see that", etc. To make sure I didn't land in that category.

Overall it didn't really amount to much because of the setting I was in. As I started to leave to grab my things that I left outside, I put my hand out to her, lifted her up and gave her a hug goodbye (Another good command?) Before I leave, she asks me, "Are you hanging out after school?" To which I reply "Yeah" (Immediately regret this, should've retained some mystery and said, possibly, or something like that.). On to after school...

So I honestly didn't plan on staying after school, I wanted to get a workout in (which never happened ) but it didn't work out like that. I ended up hanging out with some friends in the parking lot for about 15 minutes. We were messing around in a girl's car that we knew, and I could see Miss S. and her friend walking around. I'm not sure about this, but it looked like she was looking for me... Anyways, one of my friends, let's call him Mr. Adrift for future reference, had to go to work, so Mr Adrift and my other friend, Mr. Ginger, left while me and (Mr. Flirt) stayed at school. I suggested we stay because I wanted to know what she would do if I happened to walk by...

So me and Mr. Flirt walk back up to the front of the school towards this group of people we know, I guess it's my outer social circle, and met up with my other friend, Mr. Fluffy. About twenty feet away, Miss S. Was sitting on a bench, which I saw out of the corner of my eye. My friend Mr. Flirt was egging me on to go talk to her, but I wanted to wait because I had a hunch... She gets up and calls my name. I tell her to come here and give her a hug. We banter and talk for a bit, and I steal her goldfish that she still has from lunch. she climbs over me trying to get them, and I hold them out of reach. Blah blah blah, all meaningless bullshit because as I'm writing this now I realize I should've ISOLATED HER, goddamnit! Oh well. I'm not giving her too much attention as to not put myself in the chasing position. We're still extremely close to each other, touching with our shoulders, hips occasionally. (I realize this is creating some sort of pre-selection, because after she leaves, this other girl that rejected me for my number comes up to me and drapes over my shoulder... Mmm I like pre-selection LOL) Eventually she had to leave, because her sister was driving her home (Funny, because I dated her sister for a day, LOL.) She then says something about having to go and I spread my arms for a hug. Her sister then comes up to me and tells me she doesn't have time for that (M'hm, whatever). She then tells me to come hug her because it'll make her sister mad. I'm game so I go and give her a big hug as she's leaving.

Don't feel like texting her because I can see her any day I want, so what's the point? If I want a date I can ask in person, which is much better IMO.

Things I did well: Touching, proximity, I used a somewhat sexy tone when talking to her.
Things that went badly: Didn't ISOLATE!! , work on the Deep Dive, AND ISOLATE! Haha.

So tell me what you guys think. I'm curious as to where you think this goes and also on my writing, if I need to add more details, if it's boring, etc.

Jake.

 

[Smurf]

Had a good day yesterday. This is an FR++ that I may or may not post up to the actual FR's because: one, I'm having trouble remembering everything that happened, and two, I didn't do much work myself. Actually as I'm writing this, this is against so many rules and processes that I don't know if I can gain much from this at all. This is one of those situations where the girl is going to want you no matter what you do. It kind of sucks but whatever, I got some "practice" in.

Another note, everyone may call me a pussy, but I'm not ready to lose my virginity. I'm just not. That's why I didn't push for sex here.

You're probably tired of this stupid rant, so ON TO THE INFO!

This girl, let's call her HornyWavyHair, I've been talking to a little bit at school for a bit now. I started talking to her...Hmm.... two weeks ago? I wasn't really interested in her because she's not really my type, and I was interested in a girl from one of my other FR's, Miss S, or Miss SassyPants. (https://boards.girlschase.com/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=3874 Anyhow, she hangs with a group of girls that either wait for their friends to go to swimming practice or go to swimming practice themselves. I didn't expect much of this, I was just expanding my social circle. At first I'd just lead the entire group, tell them to do things, make comments at the right times, etc.

One day we were all standing and sitting on/around two benches. I was with Mr. Flirt, this other guy in my class, call him SkaterGuy, who was dating one of the girls in the circle. At one point I sat down just started flirting with HornyWavyHair, which she responded really well to. Some guy came and sat on my lap (probably hoping to discourage me. This guy is definitely an orbiter, but he has a small part in this story, so why not call him Captain Orbit!) and then got off rather quickly.

I asked him, "What? Why did you get off?" (Sarcastic tone of course)
He says,"I'm not comfortable with sitting on guys' laps." (HAH)
So then I switch tact and decide to flirt a little harder. I tell her to "protect me", reach down and grab both of her legs to cover mine. All while this is happening, Mr. Flirt is running interference (or maybe he's actually flirting with the other girls...It's hard to tell sometimes) and I then lean over her legs pretending to take a nap. She starts playing with my hair, and in my mind I'm like, "Okay, it's on, but I still want to try and make it work with Miss SassyPants." She also has this way of talking that almost makes it sound like she's moaning at the end of her words. THIS NEXT PART MADE ME THINK I HAD IT IN THE BAG: I started mocking her for her voice, exaggerating the moan a lot, to which she then SHE started actually moaning at the end of her words... Yeah, it's on. After a bit, Mr. Flirt and I are about to go home, so I grab her number then (Bad: should've grabbed it earlier at a higher point) leave to go home and HornyWavyHair heads to swim practice.

Some of the text chase frames:
THE TOOL: I used your line in texting instead of a date to see how it would work. I know it's a waste of a good line, but I knew for some reason this girl probably wouldn't want to talk much if we got alone.
HornyWavyHair: Hey! (SHE texts me FIRST? GG.)
Me: (Probably too much investment but) Hey, HornyWavyHair! What kind of trouble you cause today?
HornyWavyHair: You know just burning down the city and shit (Good, she's playing along.)
Me: Good thing you avoided my house, I'd have to hose you down (Here's the set up)
HornyWavyHair: Maybe I just haven't reached your house yet
Me: If you ever get here prepare to get wet
HornyWavyHair: Well I'll just avoid your house then
HornyWavyHair: Also that's what he said (Gotcha'.)

So about a week later (I'm keeping up standard flirting and whatnot), there's an event at my school and I predict in my head that she's going to, but I ask just in case. I ask her to hang out with me before the event starts, to which she sends me a long reason why she can't and wishes she could. Usually that'd be something I blow off, but it seemed sincere.

At the event, it was jammed packed and I couldn't manage to sit next to her. She had already asked me a text to ask if I was coming (I was working out with a lot of friends and I got there fifteen minutes late), I probably shouldn't of replied but I replied "Yes". Then when I sat there for about five minutes she sends me another text: "I wish you were sitting next to me " I text her back: "We'll sit together later" to which she says, "Okay".

This is where I get unnecessarily scared. At intermission, I planned to sit next to her, but she was talking to a friend of hers, which I already tried to get with. Uh-Oh.

YOU CAN CHOOSE NOT TO READ THIS OR NOT
This other girl I had failed with because she plays games, I didn't know how to handle it so I ignored her, thinking it would show I wouldn't take her shit. She gave me attention but I ignored her a little too much and we stopped talking altogether. At a football game, I apologized to her, to which she blew me off. That was last year, and at the beginning of this year, she still wouldn't talk to me, not even as friends. So at a Halloween event at our school I gave her some candy. She says, "Are you being nice to me again?" Goddamnit, that's what I've been doing!!!
BACK TO THE STORY

So her and this girl were talking, and I'm thinking, "Fuck, she's gonna' tell her what a douche I am and then it's over, etc." when I should've been thinking: "They're talking about me, good." So I let that happen for the rest of the time that I'm there at the event. It eventually ends three hours later, and we all head outside because we can't be inside the school building after ten. I'm talking to her, one of my other female friends and this other guy that JUST so happened to be that orbiter from earlier. Eventually things work out to where we're holding hands while waiting for our rides. She's moving her finger in circles around my palm in my hand (Something I've never seen before...interesting...I SHOULD'VE ISOLATED HERE, DAMN!) she eventually gets picked up.

Me and my other female friend are waiting for Mr. Flirt to pick us up. Mr. Flirt and I are gonna' hang out later so I decided that he'd probably give this girl a ride home. If this were the regular situation, I would've let it go, but there's a couple reasons for what I do next. One, me and my friends have a bet for who can make out with a girl before our other friend's girlfriend gets back, where he automatically wins. I use this sort of stuff for motivation, so maybe it's bad but whatever. Two, she's going to another state for the holiday, so I wouldn't see her for a week. Now here's what happens next.

Me and Mr. Flirt decide to try and get her out to hang out, which I thought wouldn't happen. Here's the texts:
HornyWavyHair: Hey
Me: Hey! Going home already?
HornyWavyHair: Ya
HornyWavyHair: What are you and Mitchell up to?
Me: Don't worry about it, dirty girl you!
HornyWavyHair: Why what are you doing that's so secretive?
Me:Come hang out and find out
HornyWavyHair: Really?
Me: Yeah we'll pick you up
HornyWavyHair: IDK if I can
Me: Be spontaneous and do it!
HornyWavyHair: Well what are you guys doing?
Me: Going on an adventure
HornyWavyHair: What kind of adventure:
Me: The fun kind
This went on back and forth until she finally agreed. We went over and picked her up.We started talking and found out she smokes =\. We at first head to a park and get out of the car. Mr. Flirt heads to the playground but we stay near the car. As soon as we get out I grab her by the hip and we start making out. I try to end it quickly but then she pushes forward and we kiss some more. Eventually I do end it and we walk to my friend. Then we get back in the car and we decide to try and pick up one of her friends, but she's too tired to. Forgot to mention this is at like one in the morning. We then pick up one of my friends that smokes. She smokes with, let's call him AsianStoner. After that, I'm in the backseat with her in Mr. Flirt's car. We head to Mr. Flirt's house and me and her stay in the backseat. She has her leg over me and is rubbing my leg.

We're making out, I'm fingering her and rubbing her boobs. (Anyone got any tips for making out?) That lasted for twenty minutes until my mom called asking where I was. By this time it's two in the morning. So Mr. Flirt takes us all home. Best wingman, bro ever. Ever.

So any tips, comments? I'll add to the things I did good and did not later.

Jake.

 

[Smurf]

So the girl from the above and I might be getting into a relationship soon which should lead to sex. Unfortunately, this is gonna slow my experience. Hopefully I can learn some relationship dynamics though.

Jake.

 

[Smurf]

Debating why I'm in a relationship right now. I like the girl but it seems like I'm just testing the waters of being with a girl, which makes me feel bad. I feel like I'm just in a relationship to see what it's like. I'll try and work on the power balance because sometimes it's with me and sometimes it's with her. Wish I could dive into meaningful conversations easier, too. I'll work on all of this, and not getting too attached by having an abundance mentality.

Jake.

 

[Smurf]

Honestly I don't know myself, Casanova. This is my first relationship. Most advice I can give is to keep the balance in your favor and don't change your personality after you get in the relationship no matter how much social pressure there is to do so. That's about all I can tell you until I get better with relationships.

Jake.

 

[Smurf]

Made some resolutions for today since its almost New Year's. They go like this:

1. Become a better student. How?
-stop procrastinating.
-set aside two hours to homework and looking up facts and news.
-Learn something new every day.

2. Achieve solid fundamentals. How?
List of fundamentals:
-conversation
-posture
-eye contact
-voice
-fashion
-working out
Can't think of any more, so fashion and working out will be ongoing. The other four will be worked on by a monthly schedule. Three months to each of them as follows:
Deep diving and eye contact for six months, voice and posture for another six. I might divide it differently later on.

3. Learn what I want to do in life. How?
Try lots of different things, experience life on college.

4. Learn to break dance. I added this because I've always wanted to.

That's it for today. Should get me posting a lot more.

Jake.