Tyme2K's 363 Day challenge: 2013 year of adventure

[Tyme2k]

Just noticed day 24 is missing from this journal, here it is.

Day 24 - Wed. Feb 27 2013

Work super early. Downtown Plaza at around 4. This has to be the worst mall in history, parking is shit, there's about a 60% vacancy, the biggest stores are Macy's that's half closed, a cell phone shop and a Hyundai car dealer.. In the mall I know.. wtf

Hit up the joke of a Macy's and grab a couple shirts for the club, nothing fancy, just somethin new. TRY some day game, but all the sets make me wanna puke.

Mix with James. Get there and I'm not in a social mood tonight, I cant get out of my head and start talking. James introduces me to two girls and calls me out that I didn't say shit. He said I gave an awkward smile and should have engaged. I get what he meant because I didn't engage more than Hi. They weren't attractive to me, so I wasn't going to engage them more.. I definitely should have though he's right.

I'm sooooo in my head, just not prepared for this upbeat environment. James is mingling with some friends and I feel a bit akward just standing there. I wander, TRY to open sets. I feel like the biggest chode. I'm trying to get out of my head by walking through the dance floor maybe I thought some vibe would rub off on me. I see a girl look at me Curly HB6(Maybe a 7, she doesn't work out, weighs about 110lbs, but with a slight pooch Have I ever mentioned I find fat repulsive) , but I keep walking. I walk back and this time the same girl eye fucks me, so I have to open. I go up and just start dancing and talking in her ear, dance talk dance talk, my game was tight even though I wasn't in state. actually credit to the first 20 mins of juliens latest video. He said when you know what you act like when you're in state then act like it before even if it's in congruent. She turns around facing me and starts feeding me validation, then grinds on my dick.

Fuck me I got sucked into it again, fucking validation. In my head I'm getting so angry at myself because I hate the validation but I cant seem to walk away. I'm loving the fact this set is going well and my ego is sucking it down like a 4lb leech. Definitely all the WRONG ways to game.

Anyways we grind for a bit and I move her to the patio we talk then she suggests we go dance again. It seems the interaction is starting to fizzle so I say lets meet back. I go walk around look for something to open and don't see shit. Keep wandering still nothing, fuck, I lean on a pole for a bit and start texting, or more reading through my texts from earlier. I make it back and reopen her with body language. This is something I want to work on, less energy powerful eye contact strong kilo, non apologetic. This is how I want to open in the club.

We dance, patio then back to dance. This time tension is through the roof. I can tell she is getting really turned on so I start to heat up my sexy eye contact. Dancing and I am staring into theis girls soul. I start teasing her lips moving in then pulling out. Moving in closer, then pulling out. Then bam she attacks my lips. So funny. She says she couldn't wait anymore, I say it was fun teasing you. It was really though, something else I'm going to work on.

I finally say let's find your friends. She introduces me to the group, It's this guys bday and he is awesome. I really like this guy, and I'm hoping I will run into him. I want him in my social circle. He knows promoting and really is socially in tune. Great eye contact, clear strong voice, he is a natural.

Anyway number close and walk the girls out of the club. My biggest problem is this girl is not hot enough, she is chill, but she doesn't work out and it shows. I will have to figure out the friend zone on this one. I really need to learn how to do this without sending them into auto rejection.

Tomorrow is my brother's bday, going out for that.

Things I'm going to work on:
Kino opening
Teasing the kiss/makeout
introductions, transitions into small talk, and social circle

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 34 - Saturday March 9th

Worked actually caught someone, been 4 weeks lol. Planned to go out with some friends for a bday celebration. Went to a bar they hadn't made it to yet.

Waited for Mark, and talked with the bar tender I went to high school with. I wanted to get her number a while back, but never pulled it. Actually had two different instances where I could have got it and didn't clsoe idk why. Now I want to close her again this night and never really get an opportunity cause it's soo busy. I try to start convo with her while it's busy, goes no where she brushes me off.

We wander the streets and some girls stop in the middle of the road for us even though there's no stop. I walk in front and start teasing them. I ask where they were going they point and say right there. That place is shit I tell them to come with us and they can drive. I act like I'm going to get in but I don't wtf. I should have just got in the car and assumed that shit. Instead I pussied out and they say they will meet up with us later, I say no you wont and walk off.

Random girl on the street, real cute works at spaghetti factory I guess. I open her hard make her stop in the street after she already passed me. Flawless. Start gaming her she says she's in a hurry but I can have her number. I say wtf am I going to do with your number and keep plowing. I make her stay there and seed a meetup. Then I number close and text her later trying to meet. She sends me some BS shit test about how shes only "12" well 18 but "it's the same thing as 12" I just ignore the shit test and ask if she's single.

I game these two girls that are not very hot imo, but in the bar there isn't many options. Couple girls with the group, but I'm not interested. I plow through the two at the bar and eventually the friend starts saying shit like, you want to go to another bar? then she looks at her friend and says, I want to go to the bathroom. Of course I know what this means and I get about 6 inches from her face and say in a condescending tone "you should go to the bathroom then" I was so amused by this. What followed really made me laugh. She stnads up expecting her friend to go with her, but the friend stays with me! So funny. I was done with the set though, they were unattractive and not investing enough, so I back turn the other girl. They go to the bathroom and then come back hoping I will reopen them. They hang out probably another 15 minutes and I just engage my friends. I see them leaving and give a smirk as the one stares at me LOL. So funny how girls bring their friends to cockblock, I don't think I'll ever understand. Funniest thing is on the way home we see these two getting pulled by some uber chodes, hilarious.

We head to Vito's grab some pizza, which I really don't want to, but mark is dying for some greasy pizza. Of course I have to eat a piece, but I know I'm about to ramp up my workout and diet. Justified.

Two stunners walk in. I open a few moments after they sit down. I'm really chill right now and just plow and plow. Amazing eye contact, but I don't convey intent well and don't know if shes single. I am staring at her wanting to makeout soooo bad haha. Mark asks the friend if she has a bf she says she does. They got their pizza to go and start to leave, my girl says "nice meeting you" and I say you didn't ever ask my name. She asks I tell her and thats it. I let her walk off wondering about the BF thing. I'm sure I'll bump into her another day, but still need to do my part. She could be single tonight and not next week when I run into her again.

Learned/opportunites:
Need to get some more natural number swapping, set up a date then get the number. Gaming is not in the text it's in person.
Do what I say, thoughts, words, actions aligned. Stop hesitating, it only leads to regret.
Do my part in all the interactions, remember my intentions and get that accross to the girl in every set. I don't have time to beat around the bush.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 35 - Sunday March 10th

Work, worked out, read an awesome blog article about the mind and how our left brain creates a lie which is our self. Pretty interesting read that I will have to revisit. Sent it to asian ink she loved it, I think I'm meant to be with an intellectual type girl, not some club girl.

Went to Mix tonight, great on sundays. Go with my boy. Get in ratio is awesome see tons of people I know, catch up with them and open. At first I'm going hard approaching everything. Some ok sets but nothing risky, I guess I was taking it slow idk. Opened about 5-7 sets and nothing was hooking. I pretty much hung around my friends for the rest of the night just observing.

I see these girls I met on day 8. I pretty much see them every night going out, which will really suck now after what I did tonight. There is one in the group that is super rude to me, the rest love me. She was my original target, well I wanted the hottest in the group but that night i met them she was getting gamed hard so I gamed the other. After I talked with them on other nights, but eventually her attitude just bugged me to the point I wanted nothing to do with her.

Anyway tonight I see them come in, the one with attitude sees me and drags the group intentionally away from me. After I see them by the bar and take out my phone. I show her a picture says fuck you this much with a little kid drawing. It's so cute, but it really pisses her off. They run off. I see them again and shes hella bored staring into her phone. I start to come up and dude that's gaming her friend grabs her to force her to join the group. I was already on my way to approach so I still opened. The super hot one gets in my face and I just stay chill. She starts almost having a logical conversation but it's still irrational. I guess it probably doesn't seem like a joke since she was clearly being rude. I seem very affected by her, whatever.

The hot girl tells me by and starts pushing me away. If I'm going to burn it down though I burn it down. I stand there for a bit and they back turn me. I stay there for a few more seconds and walk off. Some weird things about it is that the rude chick remembers quite a bit, she tried to say I have a gf and some valentines day stuff. That was a month ago and she still remembers the convo.

Last I noticed something about myself on the walk home that I am going to try to correct. I have no clue where to start, but I have to do it. I was value scanning all night and lately I've been doing this a ton. I don't open unless I see potential in the set. If I don't think they are hot enough or there's nothing in it for me I avoid it. The biggest problem is I'm not adding value so when I do open I'm only leeching it. It's so terrible and I really despise myself for this right now. I will try to come up with a few things I can work on right now to start practicing adding value to my interactions quickly and effectively.

Learned/opportunities:
I must add value, what do I bring to the table, why do I benefit them talking to me, it has to be SOMETHING.
I don't need to burn it to the ground when I will definitely keep seeing them, this will only cause problems in the future.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 36 - Monday March 11th

Worked, Raley's gamed the really cute cashier, but didn't convey intention. Had a slight pain in my hip from running yesterday, so took a day off working out. Instead I studied a few things I feel I need to work on.

First is actually becoming a real promoter and what it will take to get an abundance of hot girl friends. I came across AFC Adam, which adopted exactly the approach I need to take with pickup. I have always went for A girl at a time, I approach and if I don't fuck I cut ties. This is not the approach I need to take to start my company and become an awesome promoter in this middle town. I am going to get business cards soon, take a look at my style, and really build a network of girlfriends. It has been my dream since highschool to be extremely social and walk into a club surrounded by hot chicks, knowing everyone in my path giving a slight nod/handshake of recognition.

Second is Meditation. I came across a video by Alan Watts breaking down meditation, reasons we need to meditate and how to meditate. I have experimented with it slightly in the past, but I gave up because I could never hit meditative state. I was naever fully able to release my thoughts and become entirely present. I felt that it probably wouldn't effect my ablities to advance through life due to so much controversy over the whole thing. After listening to Alan Watts(and a bit of Ekhart Tolle) and reading a great blog post ruthelesstruthdotcom.blogspot.com, I came to a realization that our minds have created a false sense of thought and self. It runs uncontrollably and takes us out of reality and places us into what we THINK reality is. I spend extremely more time thinking about useless bullshit then 20-30 minutes of meditating and actually experiencing the NOW we actually live in. One thing I took away, there is no "time" there is no past and tomorrow never comes, there is only the NOW. We all exist part of a whole in the universe not in our minds as we believe.

Went out to Low Brau to try a sausage, this place is new and I've been inside but never ate. I ordered a hot linked and chatted the bartender a bit. No deep diving or meaningful conversation just about the menu, beer and stuff. Watched some guy facebook close her. I ordered a hot link with bier cheese and carmelized onions, delicious. Tried two beers only drank one hef, not good, I really don't like alcohol anymore, but sitting at a bar, not drinking is soooo weird to me(and other people around).

I leave and open a 4 set in front of this crappy pizza place. They are pretty akward, but I plow. One girl joins the group late and loudly introduces herself. It seems as if she's trying to AMOG me? I say some shit like that's cool I just met your friends. I think maybe she thought I knew them? They are being insanely rude even though I'm super friendly and not hitting on them. The one that amoged me is clearly a lesbian and the other two are fairly cute and young. I cant tell if they are lesbians too, I don't see any affection or indicating body language. The amogging girl looks to one of the workers and motions him over. He doesn't come and she says come join our group, or get this guy out of it. I'm like wtf? I stay non reactive and start saying how I'm socially retarded and I have no clue how to tell when people want me to leave. I wasn't really entirely sure what to do in this situation, so I just stay in set for even longer. The guy obviously doesn't come in because I'm clearly not doing anything. I'm talking and being friendly, and also have intense eye contact. I eventually say to the girl closest to me that I'm going to leave only because I'm ready to leave. She says a nice witty comment,"I'm not fired, I quit!" I was like hm, type of girl that I could use in my social circle. I just walk away cause I burned it down. I need to figure out the friend to friend vibe.

I'm thinking to appraoch a set with "Friend" in mind I will have to have some canned lines. Things like:
"we should totally be friends"
"I'm not going to try to fuck you"
"I'm seeing someone right now"
''I'm way too much of a player to date you"
"we can hang out as long as it's just as friends"
"you will have to come out with me and my girlfriends"
"let's get brunch together with some friends"

Lastly I want to add some text plowing I was doing to try to get this super cute girl with a bf, Silly Red HB7, out on a date. Met her on day 25 and was so amused when texting her this conversation:

She texts me out of the blue 10 days after I text her some call back humor. I never texted her again cause I knew she had a bf.
Her 1508 - Who is this?
Me 1522 - Come get coffee with me at 7. We will reminisce about how u wanted my name on ur body.(she wrote my name on her arm to remember it, she was trying to get my approval all night and when she forgot my name I ignored her)
Her 1523 - For realz. Who is this?
Her 1526 - wait.. Did I meet you at Old tavern? Friends with (friend) and (friend)?
Me 1543 - So coffee at 7 then.. Starbuck on (address)
Her 1545 - No. Definitely not. I dont live near there. And I have a bf. So no on the coff.
Me 1550 - I can keep a secret. Just come it will be fun. Its not that far.(I'm thinking handle the objections)
Her 1551 - No. No. Annnd no.Im not interested. Sooo forget it.
Me 1555 - Ur so silly. I'm sure you are super happy. Coffee is harmless. Ur not allowed to touch my sexiness anyways
Her 1559 - I wouldn't like it if it was my bf meeting up with some random person. So im really going to have to insiste that I cant.
Me 1602 - I'm gonna have to insist that u are a woman and should be free to do whatever u desire. Clearly u have fun with me(used desire here as a sexual word)
Her 1614 - Im sorry. I appreciate the invite but my answer hasnt changed.
Me 1622 - medicracy is not for the awesome.. what happens when u think "what if" yolo (tried a different approach here, make her think about how lame her bf is and its worth a risk to meet an awesome guy)
No text for a while I wasn't done having fun
Me 1655 - Why's u text me today? U couldn't handle a man like me btw
Her 1656 - Lol. I didn't know the number. It's just a random number in my phone and I wanted to see who it was.(Just read JMULV post on texting, definitely going to ensure I save my name in their phones)
Me 1659 - U get the pix? ( we took pictures when we met of her doing silly stuff, I resent them)
Her 1726 - Charming. But ya I remember those lololol. Spiderman pose.
her 1726 - Additionally, as fun as this conversation has been. its going to have to end. (I was out of it by this time, maaaybe could have been fun some more idk. She was even enjoying it, somehow my vibe transferred thru text)
Me 1758 - You're too innocent for me, I'm an asshole.(I should have left it alone, but idk wanted to throw out another disqulifier)

She had a friend text me and whoever it was semi repeated what I was saying to her, awesome lol. I really effected her she probably had to tell her friend so she could avoid not cheating. I'm going to friend zone them HARD and find out who the friend is when I have time.

Going out with some pua guys tonight, hopefully it's not super dead. The places we are going are off and on, had great nights at both so far. I think in the next few weeks as it warms up it's gonna get insane downtown! Hopefully I can transition into my friend style game and start building a circle of hot girls. Summer will be ideal.

Learned/opportunities:
It's time to stop burning down sets and learn to plow towards making them friends.
Maintaining a chill, confident and fun vibe while texting seems to convey your vibe through the text. I was literally in state when I was texting, I even opened random girls at work while I was doing it lol.
Need to adjust myvibe during indirect "friend" approaches, this needs to be looked at on a deep level. I wanted to go with "put your number in my phone" but I think I will have to put that on hold for my next day game and go more for friendly

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 37 - Tuesday March 12th

Worked, headed out to Comedy spot/Low Brau. Met up with a few new guys from RSD. Both of these guys were pretty solid. Was fun to watch them.

First set in Low brau Smith and I burnt to the ground, literally we were told to leave. Approach was a bit off and I just stayed even though told to leave. I also called one of the girls akward hahah! REALLY bad thing about this set, they were the hottest in the venue, they knew the DJ/event coordinator(which I also know one of them really well) so burning this down was bad for my social game.. I do need to stop burning shit to the ground and this weekend I am going to approache game with a completely new style, AFC Adam style.

I'm not really in full approach mode, and just wanting to socialize. Right now I was on the fence of how I actually want to game, so I was unsure exactly how I was going to work in this venue. It was fun watching Rob though, this guys vibe is really fun he will own massively some day.

I did appraoch a 3 set at a table when I was solo, owned it twice learned a bit about shit testing. Eye contact owns and remaining unaffected was easy as hell. They loved me by the end. I didn't number close for two reasons, they are regulars and my target was in a very emotional state, I couldn't tell where she was with attraction so better I reapproach later.

Rob is running a 3 set, pulls me in. I own cause I'm in a great social mood. End up semi isolating one of the girls and she is investing a ton. This girl and I vibe really well, number close. I think I will friend zone her, shes about a 7 not really my type either. Personality wise yes, looks wise no.

Closed down the venue and we recapped. I'll be going out with these guys again, look forward to advancing together.

Learned/opportunities:
DON'T burn down sets so early in a venue, if my wing is miscalibrated I need to step in and explain the situation.
Remember to reapproach girls and set the friend frame, then number close even if I'm busy in another set.
Need to manage my time in the venues splitting the time between sets, maybe more ADD style??

Day 38 and 39 - Wed. Thurs. March 13th and 14th

So didn't game these days. Met Asian Ink wed. went on a date really enjoyed the amazing weather together, fucked, fucked, fucked some more. She stayed over both nights. Only problem we had a long drawn out argument about me having sex with multiple women. She is bias on the idea because she's done it before and thinks my investment will be lower with her. Eventually I told her for now I wont, but then she said I wasn't happy and I could. So confusing. With my new approach to game we will see what happens anyways. After this argument, I think I might cut her off anyways, we will see how our next meetup goes or what happens this weekend.

Day 39 I went to Improv class, so I would definitely count this as my social skill/circle building. So much fun and really learning a ton. I can't wait until I'm good at improv, very exciting. After Improv asian ink came over and we got in another slight argument cause I was tired not investing? A bit ridiculous imo and I called her on it. Ended up in makeup sex and an amazing BJ.

Woke up this morning to a BJ.

This weekend is gonna be non stop action. We will see how I decide to approach it. I have this internal argument right now, so hopefully I can work it out.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 40 - Friday March 15th

Work, ran, fucking hip started hurting again and the gym I got a free temporary membership to closes at 8pm on the weekdays. Gonna go tonight though, but gotta take a day off from running cause the hip. One of those internal joint pains, hopefully I don't have a pinched nerve or something.

Met with James and Mark we headed out. Started at Republic, two girls approached us but they were fat and uggs so James dissed what they were saying and they auto rejected lol. A super hot like 10 set came in and I bitched out on the approach.

Walked to Low brau, had a beer. Again I bitched out on my approach.

Went to the Park started slowly. I open a two set of Russian girls. Very very hard set. They are completely stand offish and rude. I go indirect,"Hi... How's ur day going?" Their answers are short, but I keep plowing. I start just telling them about what I did that night and how I ended up here. I tell them about this annoying fat chick trying to hit on me to create a bond with them. It starts to work. The one to my right (hotter one) wont hold eye contact with me so I call her on it. The other girl says they hold eye contact with their husbands not randoms. I say oh wow where are your husbands? Oh we are having girls night, now my favorite response... drum roll please... "You know what I think is funny? How girls always have "Girl's night" in a club full of dudes." they say something I cut them off,"You know what my girl friends do when they have girls night, they stay IN and get one of those little chocolate fountain and cover thier marshmellows in it." Now I conveyed I have abundance and pre-selection and I also can relate to them. It also conveys high value because I know what girls like to do to have fun. Any how bitch shields lowered they are my new friends for the night. I even made one girl stand up so I could see how tall she was, compliant.

I roam and see a super cutie with died blue hair. I Open with 'Hi..." and guess what HOLD EYE CONTACT, she laughs and asks my name. If you get a girl asking your name right away I would say there's an 90% chance your appraoch was spot on, she wants to get to know you and is very interested. She is not used to such confidence and it immediately makes her start thinking everything I say is funny. This was probably one of the least investing interactions I've ever had. I said no more than 20 words the entire time. I would just fill in littel bits here and there and she was investing heavily. So much fun when they make it so easy. Problem was I found out logistics extremely fast cause this girl was down and totally into me. She was from over an hour away, riding with friends and leaving in 20 minutes. Game over my friend came and I used it as an excuse to eject.

I was helping Mark get out of his head. I actually got a bit frustrated with him because he started acting like it was his first time approaching. Him and I have hit this club 20+ times, it should not be a problem for someone at his level. Goes to show we all can get in our heads and get AA. Finally I just start telling him to open a set. Theres a 4 set with a guy Mark opens and sits down at their table. They all literally get up and walk away. If that's not an amazing blowout idk what is lol. He feels embarassed and I give him an ego talk. I also give him a momentum talk, explaining that he needs to maintain the momentum and something will hook. I give him an example and start approaching.

I hit up another russian set, again very very hard. I open with, "Hi......................." I just hold eye contact and make this extremely akward. They girl says it's akward and I say "for who, you? Not me.. Do you always get akward in tense social situations" She starts defending herself I say "you know why it's akward, because you automatically assume I came over here because I want to fuck you. I'm here to make friends and socialize. I want to see if you're smart, friendly or funny. I only have awesome friends." We banter some more until her boyfriend joins the set. I have hooked her now, but my experience is lacking with mixed sets and I kind of draw a blank. I start asking questions about nationality and eventually feel like I'm done cause the set isn't goiing anywhere.

I also open a 5 set of girls just to get momentum. They have super ADD and only one is really engaging me. None were hot so I plowed for a minute and bounced.

I hit up another two set that were the hottest I spoke to all night. I validated a bit too much and tried to force a connection that I understand how shitty it can be to get approached a lot. A guy they know comes in, my kryptonite, and the girl next to me back turns me. I still try to plow but it fucks me over, back turns really are hard to deal with. Smith and I spoke about this on tuesday that there needs to be a way to break through. I don't really think there is, the best way might be to leave and approach again more powerful?? Idk. I ejected.

I hit up an Asian two set inside and plow. They are telling me to leave for no reason whatsoever. I ask one girl if shes racist and the other girl gets mad I'm talking to her girlfriend. She goes up to a bouncer and tells on me. It just so happens I don't know this bouncer and he tells me to leave them alone. I want to justify myself, I don't though and walk away. The most bullshit part of this is she was trying to show how I had low value at the moment and I had no way to defend this. Future reference, careful plowing in venues I don't know anyone.

Mark opens a two set and hooks by saying one girl has bad posture. It worked pretty well and I joined, but it seemed like I was playing damage control. I basically just backed him up and she was explaining she was texting. He wanted to keep gaming her, but bitched out.

Outside the club I reapproached the tall russian two set with mark. The tallest hotter one said he looked scared of them HAHA. Of course I wasn't giving off this vibe as I was probably the only guy that night able to break their bitch shields down. Still amusing and I know it's not going anywhere so I eject.

Learned/opportunities:
Backed up my eye contact theories with solid proof and successful experiments.
Make akward more akward, but stay cool.
NEED to start getting out of my comfort on mixed sets. I should have lots of practice St. Patty's day and tonight.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 41 - Saturday March 16th Pre St. Patricks day/pub crawl galore

Worked off headed out with a bunch of forum pua's. Go to Low Brau first and really don't get much in any sets. The first 4 set we all worked together, and it seemed to be going well. I reapproached later and got amogged by some dude. I handled it pretty well, but the girls weren't into me. Odd interaction to say the least, I don't think I was socially calibrated yet.

End up bouncing to Bar Fly cause there is supposed to be a cool 18+ party there. The cover is $5 which i never pay covers and didn't have cash. Sucks now I owe a friend which I should see Tuesday. We get in it's so dead and it's already passed 11. It should be packed but it's not. I blow out this super hot set right away and too pussy to reopen later. I see some chick sitting by herself. I open and she just moved to town. She has no friends and came solo. She's not that hot but I chat her up. I could have pulled this girl, but just try to friend her. Number close she texts me and over invests lol. I will definitely invite her out just so she can socialize and find out cool events here in town.

Back to Low Brau meet my bro and his friends. It's close to closing and I see two husky blondes. I game hard get them super attracted and investing. I seed that we are going to Petras as a group. I'm really thinking threesome with this since they are best friends that do "everything" together. I leave and come back after the bartender gives them hella free shots. I think he's also thinking threesome. There's a dude gaming them so I walk up pull them away and drag them outisde. Boom bartender is waiting and their RAS right to him. My brother starts dragging me away telling me they aren't hot enough. He is right they weren't. 1 on 1 I would never fuck either one.

Head to Petra's and hit up a 3 set. One of the girls vibes, but very standoffish and her friends cock block. I give her my google voice and bounce.

learned/opportunities:
Try to not get stuck in a set I'm not interested in
Drop the ego and open, open, open.
Go for results not reactions

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 42 - Sunday March 17th St. Patricks party all mother fucking day. Two fights, almost club makout with waitress and solid club number?

Start at low brau to meet up with tons of friends. I game a few sets, but nothing hooks more than light conversation. Friends show up and we party hard. Lots of drinks bought I start getting a nice buzz. Game a few girls in the group, but lagged on number closing the hottest one :/ I will see her again just going to make her my friend, social circle so yeah. Did number close a few purely for friends. Ran into a girl I used to date in Junior high. I should have lost my virginity to this girl, but I didn't. She visits from out of town frequently so maybe I'll close the deal soon.

Brother shows up with hella friends. I keep gaming, definitely in state. Nothing is affecting me and I'm just opening whatever. Sucks tho cause nothing is really solid and girls aren't vibing well. maybe they could tell I had been drinking. Lot's of guards up cause everyone was drinking and it was day?? I try to get all the girls I've been gaming to meet up, but none show. Idk whats up with that shit. I need to really make way more girlfriends and roll deep as fuck.

End up my bro leaves to play some frisbee golf lol. I leave with two of his friends to Cheaters. We are meeting some gf's of a girl we are with. One is a bit standoffish I put my hand out to shake hers and try to pull her to me. She's not having it I remain unaffected. Have convos with friends and my bro shows up. The standoffish girl joins my convo and I just ignore her for being rude earlier. She ends up bouncing probably cause I didn't engage enough. I approach the other friend and say only a couple sentances when the bar tender comes up and tells me to back off. I say OK and stay exactly where I am and continue my conversation. I'm not super close to this girl and she's friends with my friends. The bartender gets more combative and I tell him we're all friends so he needs to chill. He get's super pissed at my light attitude like I'm supposed to back down from him cause he's the bartender?

He comes rushing around the bar and is about to hit me. Everyone steps in and he realizes we are all friends here DURRRR! He tries to shake my hand and I tell him to go fuck himself. He gets super pissed and I go outside. haha. Nothing happened and we left to my bros house. Chill for a few and head to Mix. Run into my brothers friend and drag him with me. I walk right in cause I happen to see my friend working there. I'm really grateful for this guy taking him out to lunch this week. I start gaming super in state still. Momentum is wonderful. I'm done drinking for the night and just open open open.

Lost of sets hook a few really nicely, but they were only warm ups. I eject. Hit up a two set, one is chunky the other is AMAZING HB9 for sure. Game them for a while, they feed me a cherry. I eject with intention to find them later.

Run into a forum guy from GC.com for the first time. He's cool we chat for a min til I see a cute waitress hb7. Grab herr pull her in vibe really nicely. I let her go and tell this guy I'll makout with her next time. I grab her when she walks by a second time, game game grab head attempt makout no go. "I don't do that" she leaves, whatever.

I keep my momentum and hit up a few more sets. Find this super cute asian HB8 I'm insanely in state right now, on another level. Grab her move her talk talk close kino top notch game here. Make her sit blame her push pull escalate. I only end up number closing, get tons of shit for it, but break through with the number anyway. I do this because I started losing momentum and wasn't sure how good the set was. I text her today and it goes decent. Gonna send her some more bait to secure a date.

I see waitress HB7 again pretend like it never happened. Come to find out she works there and is off tonight, knows who I am and all my friends.. LOL oh well. We vibe even better this third time, but she exaplins she has a bf. I tell her my bad and that we need to be friends. We get sidetracked and separated. I will number close her another day.

Now I wander open open open. See a two set go in. They say they are with someone and this dude steps in immediately puts his hand on me. I move his hand and start talking to him. I say I'm just being social making new friends not hitting on these girls. He slightly looks away and I see his arm pull back. He swings to sucker punch me and I back up taking the punch in the chest. He runs forwards towards me as I back up throwing seing after swing. He is tiny compared to me like 5'5" with shit for reach. I should have caught him in his chin but for some reason my reaction was to avoid not fight. I look around to see if any bouncers saw, but none did. I see a friend and tell him what happened they go to kick guy out. The girls try to say I called them a bitch, they don't know I'm extremely cool with 90% of the staff. Oops, they're out.

After this I'm pretty sore, he got me good in my chest. Not sure if he fucked up my surgery shoulder and moved the metal plate. I'll give it a few and see how it feels. Hope I don't need to get surgery again cause this aggressive piece of shit.

I'm sort of in my head since I find out one of them was cousins with this bouncer I've been having a hard time cracking. He just doesn't like me, probably cause I TRY with him. Gonna try to NOT TRY from now on see how it goes. Hopefully he doesn't get pissed bout it.

I see the two set from earlier that was feeding me cherries on the dance floor. I game again tell them we are friends now for sure. I tell them about the fight and how I got dude removed. expresses high value so I'm in. Number close and she blows me up after the club closes. Calls me twice and hella texts. I'm gonna make these girls good friends will be nice from here.

I leave walk home, sore as hell from the fight. Both of my pecks and under my chin hurt. What will be really bad is running into them again solo. I might end up dead lol.

Learned/Opportunities:
My approaches are extremely polarized, I am very intimidating for a guy who's with his girl.
Need to convey a better physical presence so they avoid confrontation.
Number close right away or while I have the set hooked, or potentially lose the set.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 43 - Monday March 18th

LR: viewtopic.php?f=5&t=1265

Day 44 and 45 - March 19th and 20th.

Not much to report for these two days. A bunch of sex with Asian Ink which was ruining my drive to approach. I had to though since I didn't finish Monday with cute asian HB8, whom I'm gonna see again sat or sun.

Last night I did go Wed. to Mix. Went with my friend and an old forum guy who was the first forum guy I ever went out with. Met himm in LA at a huge weekend long convention where we got to hear some of the best in the game speak.

A bunch of forum guys were there, so I observed them most of the night. I was watching for social faux pas that I could read and learn from to ensure I'm not making the same mistakes. I have to give it to these guys, they really don't give a fuck. They will approach anything and everything, eventually each one will be very good.

My biggest inhibitor tonight was the fact the club was dead and I knew almost everyone in there. It put a lot of pressure on me to not get in set and not give a fuck. There was a cute two set that knows the GM(they were under his name on the guest list) I recognized one of the girls, so I approached to find out from where. I couldn't figure it out, but I remember her and her BF. it became akward since I didnt transition. I ejected.

There was an Arabic 3 set on the dance floor. My natural friend says he always opens the ugly one first then transitions to the hot one. In this case I'm sure this would have worked best. I went straight for the hot one with a non state Hand Of God. At first she wanted to take it, but resisted then I told her I'm not dancing with her unless she does. She kept looking over at her ugly friend and I walk away. I'm going to start testing opening the uglier one on the dance floor and either transitioning to the hotter or bringing her into the group.. Just a theory that might get the rude ones to open up.

The hottest girl in the club comes in with two ulgy friends I'll call her Vibrator HB9. Her ass vibrates insanely. I only give her a name because I KNOW I will see her again before this challenge is over when I'm in state and ready to pull. I do open her set and she will not even look at me, I talk to her friend for only a few words and she barely engages. I ejected and returned to observing.

One of the forum guys finds this girl whom I thought was pretty cute at first, but deemed she was high on meth. I spoke to another couple friends of mine who concurred. I tried to tell him this, but I also told him to go for it just for the process. Boy did he try, I have to give him props for really pushing that comfort zone. It was fun to watch.

My natural friend gets some girl towards the end grinding on him HARD as he usually does. Now I have to wait. Club closes go outside.

Out side I'm chatting randomly and see the cute tweaker(if that's possible) standing alone outside getting bombarded by some homeless guy. She's freaking out. I also just watched her friend get pulled by some dude to "go eat" they went to fuck hahah. He was pretty good he danced with two of the three then was making out with the girl within 10 minutes of approaching. Never met him, but if I notice him again I'll start a convo.

Anyway I walk up to the cute tweaker with a solid chill fram like a mother fucking rock. I walk up and say "Hey...." eye contact as always. She lights up and hugs me like we've been friends forever. I stand between her and the homeless guy and start conversing. I stay super chill and she immediately starts qualifying. I only say about 7 words through the interaction and she gives me her life story. I was just looking at her with pure sadness in my heart, this girl had plans to become a teacher. She could have been a great girl, it's sad for me to watch how meth can ruin peoples lives. My friend comes and grabs me away, probably for the best. I'd hate to feel obligated to "save" her especially since in reality I know it's not possible. I know for a fact I could have pulled her home. She was alone and sad definitely was wishing a guy like me would come along. Not sure if the pickup guys saw how I did this, but I hope they got to watch.

Learned/Opportunity:
Opportunity - Learning how to game while not in state, now that I am coming into actual abundance, I don't get the urge to build situational momentum and just want to approach the girls I want to bring into my life. Not sure if this is possible or even good for my game.. I'll try this chill approach for a few days see how it goes.
-I have got to the point where I'm just fine standing solo in the club, it doesn't feel akward anymore since I know inside I am a baus, I am enough and I'm drawing state from within. And I've been meeting numerous people around town, which I seem to run into everywhere I go. Helps with social proof and my inner state.
Opp - want to sit down with each of the forum guys on on one to see where they stand in game, what they want from it and where we can benefit each other. I'll try to set these up for next week..

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 46 - Thursday March 21st

Work, straight to Improv class. Improv class was super fun as always, I'm getting slightly better and starting to understand structure and technique.

After Improv I only had a little bit of time cause work early. I mosey over to the bar next door and run into a girl from work. She invites me to her table with her friends. Hang with her for a minute cause I'm cold forgot my sweater, then head back inside to grab a beer. At the bar I see a cute faced hispanic girl, open.

Vibe immediately keep conversation going for a long time. I don't get her name til late, she hasn't asked me but I can tell she's interested. I notice we don't know each other's names so I introduce myself,"I don't know your name, I don't want to be strangers anymore, I'm Tyler." I keep talking everything goes great although I never move her cause she's with her friend. She does give a large amount of investment though showing me pictures from her latest trip, amazing.

The conversation ended abruptly when a drunk guy passes out and lands on my leg. They drag him out of the bar and I number close. I tell her I'm extremely busy and I wish I could say we are gonna hang out soon, but I have no clue. Text her when I got home she texts back. Not sure if I want to day 2 this girl, she has a pretty face, but I don't like her body type(broad shoulders, small breasts, wide figure, not fat "big boned") She leaves to make it to work at 6am.

Me - Hey (name), enjoyed our time together, let's do it again soon - Tyler
Her - Ditto! Let me know when you are free

I didn't even think about this text cause I know I could probably get away saying anything with her.

I see this other cutie that was checking me out. I grab her as she walks by, shes stifled. I find out she's there with her chode bf. let her go. Meet the door man there and head home.

Learned/opp:

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 47 - Friday March 22nd

Not much again to report cause I'm all sexed up and being lame. Worked then got off walked the streets of midtown. There was 2 sets I should have opened, but both times they were not on my path of least resistance. I said Hi to almost everyone I walked by and striked up a convo with two people.

First girl was in front of me walking very quickly and I wasn't in the mood to run. She popped into a shop that I did not want to follow her in.. Lame. She also looked 16 and akward, cute but akward walk. I guess my level of hot girl abundance is making me not want to settle or game girls not on my level.

Second girl I spotted walking towards me, but she was really far and I couldn't tell if she was cute. I should have stayed on my path, but the crosswalk changed and I went the opposite direction. Come to find out she was the cutest I'd seen all day. Didn't want to run back, meh.

Staying over at Asian Ink's house tonight, food, massages, spa, bj's, sex.. My kind of night. She used to own her own massage studio and her garage was converted for clients she kept after she sold it.

Gonna write down some notes of thoughts I had walking home that I will write a full short on when I get time:

Fate
path of least resistance
choices
how things can change with one slight hesitation
what other life paths are available
how much control is there

Learned/opportunities
Need to figure out my next step to master game, now that I have multiple girls trying to have sex consistently how do I balance that and meeting new women?
When approaching even mediocre I should still stop and acquire investment as to follow the process
Need to start opening the impossible sets and get out of this comfort zone

 

[Knight]

Going to read this sometime if you don't mind Tyme2K - I hope I can learn something.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 48 - Saturday March 23rd

First night I brought two girls with me. Went to a comedy show they were hella late. Show ended headed to the club.

VIP as usual, this time with two girls. I worked the room as usual in front of the girls so I was a baus to them! Early in the night there's a great ratio then it fills up with chodes. Really at this point in my game it doesn't bother me that it's a cock fest especially when I'm rolling with girls!

Anyway I game a few, funniest set was this 3 set of 6s and 7s. I open interrupting one which kinda became my goto throughout the interaction. They are super rude, but I keep plowing. Then they tell me to take a seat and I flip it on them for fun. I say I'm here with my girls and going to go find them. They are shocked to hear I'm with girls and now want me to really stay. I leave. Later these girls see me with mine come up and start rubbing my back to get my attention. So hilarious.

End up running into a forum guy from GC. I bring him into my set, but it seems like he doesn't know what to do. The girls and I can tell he feels awkward. Come to find out he opened them St. Patty's, the cuter one told me he came up and she immediately didn't want to talk to him and gave him lots of hints to leave, but he didn't get it. I backed him up of course, but not much I could do. She was in a relationship during St. Patty's anyways and was doing the same thing to me. She's now single and they're both in love with me.

The best thing I did tonight was "Be the fun." Everyone wanted to be around my vibe I was opening girls all over that usually would be cold, but they were extremely receptive. Even if I didn't have my girls with me they were opening amazing. This could have been because I was in my "Drunk State" cheating I know. Some girls were giving me shit loads of IOI's and really weren't hot enough, but it was a good feeling running sets. Sober I may have been able to accomplish more. The biggest drawback of being with these girls was that I felt like a baby sitter, they didn't want to be away from me. Understandable to a point because of the cock fest, but still was hindering my ability to game other girls.

We end up leaving the club after some arabic chode blows himself out with the cuter girl I'm with. Go back to my house and one of the girls gets really drunk and is trying to fuck me. I just keep her at bay and game the cuter one. Cuter one is sober and chill, we're talking about how she can get a man, I give her a couple theories and she sort of accepts. Sober wants to go home bad and we drag drunkie out lol. I text cute asian HB8 to come over, but I she's super drunk and I pass out. She texts me at like 340am "F off" oops lol. She's still coming over right now though so guess I secured the FB.

Learned/Opportunities:
Need to get a larger group of girls to roll with me so I don't have to babysit.
Might be difficult to manage guy friends once I get a crowd of females.. They will definitely want to join the group and create awkward situations. I might have to be a dick sometimes.. Hopefully they will all understand and it will inspire them to get more women.


Well phone is blowing up tons of plans today, club tonight after meeting Cute Asian hb8. Should be rolling with same girls as last night, I will just have to manage a bit better.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 49 - Sunday March 24th

Off work. Ended up meeting up with my old FB, went to her house to drop off a shirt she left at my place. Her number was disconnected and I assumed nothing was to come. Rang the doorbell and she was ecstatic to see me and said her phone broke, she lost all her contacts. After a bit of conversation that she was going through my phone and found out much more than I was telling her. I explained and she got very emotional, slammed the door in my face. After she came back out and we bounced to my place.. Not sure if this was a good idea, and I tried to explain this to her... anyway dropped her off and headed to mix with some friends.

Mix was super packed which actually makes it difficult to game. I met with the same girls as last night and one was getting gamed by some creepy dude. The other likes my friend so they chill most of the time. I opened randoms some claws which actually were very effective in stopping the girls but holding the set after that high level opener was difficult. Danced owned the dance floor a few times, but sooo many people mad it hard to get in with beezies. No new numbers, but I did schedule a date with the "friend" girl I've been chilling with. She doesn't like the club scene so I will try to close her tonight, gonna call her Kuntry HB7(after I see her naked this might go to an 8). Forum guys comment on your take of her, she is the blonde in the set.

This week I am really feeling abundance. I have no spare time at all, getting texts from girls left and right to hang out. One just sent me a text 20 mins ago saying "Let's playyyyyyyyyyyy!" yes with 12 y's she wants the D lol. I cant even manage all the girls right now, but I still want hotter and more of them so the game will continue.

Learned/opps:
PUSH MY COMFORT ZONE - Last night there was tons of beautiful women and I was not gaming to win, in a sense I was gaming to not lose. I had already got laid and should have just gamed and pushed. At least for a couple numbers.


Sorry if I was rude to any of you guys last night, I want to spend time in set with chicks or my long time friends. Some of which I really owe a ton, they introduce me to key people and really have helped me on my journey.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 50 - Monday March 25th

Date flaked. Once I get something in my head like Chipotle or SEX I want it. So I call an FB. Try one she has to work in the morning so I hit up another.

I don't think I want to try to set up with the one that flaked again. I freind zoned her and was thinking she was interested until the flake. I'm super busy this week and don't have time for that BS.

I was thinking I could go for as many different girls as possible this week, but I may have to hold off until next week. Tonight I'm meeting up with a cutie I met a couple weeks ago, so we'll see how that goes.

Until tomorrow.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 51and 52 - Tuesday and Wednesday March 26/27th

Tuesday worked in Cute Asian HB8's town text her to meet up. Met up and went to dinner. This is only the second time I saw her, so it was nice to know I secured attraction. Took her back to my place and we did what we do.

Wednesday, off work ran hella errands. Got a text from Cute Asian HB8 she was at dinner in midtown with a friend. I think she only text me cause she knew I was going to the club tonight, I let her roll with me. She is really fun to hang out with, she gets drunk and tries to play me. Getting attention of other guys I just dance and observe. Some times I will open girls and start dancing with them. Even had a cute blonde open me and start dancing she got pretty jealous over this. I was pretty drunk tonight and really need to cut back.

Texted the girl that flaked Monday teasing her for her date she was supposed to have on Tuesday. She flaked on that obviously, I semi invite her out for the night, then try to get her over, no go.

She texts me around 1030 asking how the club is I say packed. Then she asks if I'm having fun, I don't respond since OF COURSE I am! Hahaha

Have a date meeting at my place tonight we'll see how it goes. I'd give this girl a 7 or 8 I usually like to see naked first. Improv tonight and I HAVE to workout. Been slacking on this lately.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 53 - Thursday March 28th

Improv class, had a couple really great beats. Met a friend at a bar. This guy is really amazing with game, best I know for sure. He is really on another level with self amusement, and not giving a fuck. We met by gaming two girls that were friends. The one I met in that set I was supposed to go on a date with last night and she flaked. He is already pretty much with the other girl, according to him he will give up all his girls for her.

I did one set here some girl I thought was cuter, but she was VERY unattractive. Still chatted her as a warm up. At the same time my friend was gaming a girl with her boyfriend. It was pretty hilarious to watch, but he really did not give a shit and was trying to blow out the guy. Turns out the guy was pretty decent and shot down most of his attempts. Still fun to watch. i chickened out on the approach, but I need to go with this guy some more I can insanely improve. No alchohol tonight so that was a plus.

Went home to meet my date, she texts me 15 minutes late to meet her at a bar accross town cause it's her friends first night bartending. Mind you I text her before if we were still on and she said "For sure!! See you in a bit." I tell her thats too far and we should meet closer. I failed to mention I was walking, but whatever implied. She says OK and she will text me when she's on her way. Of course, no text. She is not really my type anyways, and she keeps doing all this crap. This is the second flake, I really feel I don't have enough comfort/rapport/investment to get her out. I'm busy for the rest of the weekend, I'll text her Sunday to give her shit about it.

Learned/opps:
Girls will literally say "Ok I'll see you there" and NOT show up. This is completely unacceptable and I do not respect this. Debating if I need to communicate or just leave it be.
If I'm ever going to get good, I need to release all inhibitions no matter what they are.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 54 and 55 - March 29th and 30th

Friday March 29th

Planned to meet Asian Ink hadn't seen her since last Wed. and she was weary since I wasn't returning her texts timely. She said she felt a disconnect. We had an amazing night, hadcore sex for countless hours. In the morning, more sex. We started talking about the open relationship topic, boy was this a rough conversation. Eventually she decided that she was OK with me seeing other girls, which I reassured her it would not affect us.

Saturday March 30th (graphic)

Left Asian Ink's house straight to family dinner for Easter. After met up with my FB which we had planned to roll to a night club together. I was running behind and couldn't find the promoter to let me in after guest list closed. She was not in club attire anyways, so we bounced to my place. At my place she told me I could do ANYTHING I wanted to her in bed NO restrictions. I made her deep throat and ravished her for hours. After she sucked the cum from my dick and swallowed. I told her to promise me she will not sleep with anyone else but me and she will not get jealous that I'm seeing other girls. She turns 21 next week and will definitely want to roll with me to the clubs. I will probably limit her to one night each week or maybe every other week. We'll see.

Dropped her off Sunday and headed to work. I'm now seeing 3 girls regularly 2 of which know I'm seeing other girls. One I haven't talked with about it yet. I have some girls coming out tonight to hang with me and some friends in a VIP booth. One of which I'm seeing, another I want to see. I'm not sure how I will swing this, but it will be great reference experience regardless! I'm thinking I should pawn off the one I'm seeing and go for the one I want to add to the rotation, if I cant close her I pull back the other one and take her home to fuck? Idk just gonna wing it.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 56 - Easter Sunday march 31st

Oh Easter Sunday... Had to work, lame and boring. My buddy texts me, "got a booth tonight, invite some girls." I guess I know I'm doing something right if my friends know if they want girls all they got to do is ask and I deliver.

I shoot out a mass text, "My friend has a booth tomorrow. Come join us it will be crazay! Give names for Glist."

This text got a ton of responses in which I gave my friend 9 names of all HOT girls. Big problem however, my main girl right now, Asian Ink HB9(I have raised her number to a 9, subjectively she kills everyone in the room with personality and looks. The biggest head turner I've ever been with) finds out I'm going and is free. She wants to bring her HOT friend and come party. At first I'm reluctant as there will be multiple girls I want to see and have hooked up with at the venue, I'm worried about potential drama, but eventually tell her to come. I fuck up though and tell her these girls will be there as a warning, oops.

We roll in a group of guys waaay too early, but it's ok since we have a booth. Cool thing about being early is the ratio is insane. There's probably 2 maybe 3 to 1 which in the future could benefit, open all the girls and seed hangouts later, number close or come back into set later as a known/rock, save them from creepies etc. My girl shows up with her friend who is bangin hot probably an 8 cause of age and fake tits. They immediately shoot off to the bar then back to the table for more drinks. Asian ink starts getting drunk and I fuck up again by telling her which girl was there that I was interested in. i've spoke about this girl before, and she isn't really hot enough, well she voices how unnattractive this girl is to me then gets super angry/jealous. She then starts flirting with some buff filipino guy. He is runnin shit and extremely physical. It escalates to the point wher it is clear she will get pulled by him. She even told me at one point she would fuck him and she told him I want to fuck other girls.

I eventually go in and pull her away. I talk to her and begins the 12 hour argument of me seeing other girls. She believes I should be content only sleeping with her. We argue everywhere for the rest of the night. The weird thing is she starts talking about her friend joining us for a threesome. She talks up my sesual ablities and my size to the girl who is upset about her bf. We go back to her place and there were multiple points I could have fucked them both. I decide not to since my head is night in the right place, I'm afraid I wont be able to perform, and I'm wary about how clean the friend is(which would also effect my performance and if I'm gonna get something it might as well be the most amazing threesome on earth right?)

We end up going back to my place and don't get any sleep. We argue til like 8am then it chills down and we fuck for the rest of the morning. We still talk about it between sessions and it eventually ends in her saying, "fine we will both fuck other people."

The whole time she just wanted to see if I care that she could easily sleep with someone else. She also believes I can hook up with anyone I want to, which is nice hearing from a super hot girl like herself.

Learned/Opp:
I can invite girls that I've been with, getting with, and want to get with to the same place as long as I don't specifically state anything. Nothing came out naturally that I didn't bring up and everything was repercussions of what I said.
Women of all ages thrive off drama
Instead of stating I want to see other girls, from now on I will only state I'm not looking for anything serious nor do I have the time.

 

[Tyme2k]

Day 57 - Monday April 1st

Called in to work due to lack of sleep. Ran some errands then went to dive bar solo.

I went basically to let off some steam and maintain momentum of going out. Problem was I didn't approach a single set. I stood against the wall and observed. Eventually a girl came and opened me by dancing in front of me, She was trying to pump peoples state in her group and around. I give her a high five and start bustin some moves. I'm not in the mood to be high energy and feel its incongruency. I eventually sit back down and be anti social. Finally I see a friend and we shoot the shit for a while. He is more of a natural, but he pushes himself to chat up girls. I see him out every weekend and he knows a lot of the same circle I roll with. I have naturally winged him and pumped him up in set then eject, not sure if he got any lays out of it, but he definitely appreciates my presense and has my back for sure which I saw tonight.

I end up going outside and akwardly stand there for 20 minutes. I end up leaving walking home by myself which really I'm more content with then being in the busy high energy environment. Probably due to the lack of sleep.

I don't know why I'm not pushing my comfort some nights and other nights im on another level. I was standing there in my head thinking about all i need to do is approach and I know my game will fall in line and I will have an experience of a lifetime, but I don't I stand there and don't care. I don't make a move. I think I feel that if I do get close to pulling I will want to pull and I wont be able to perform, lack of sleep and oversexed. Who knows.