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If I sober up I could find my phone. I wonder if I can do a Google voice text.
 

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Google voice isn’t gonna fly
Excuse to craft perfected sage
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“Hey R sorry I didn’t text you on Thursday [?] I lost my phone lol”
I need a talk to my friend
 

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OK, good news is I'm actually in the mood to go out. Bad news is, I don't have the day totally free, in that I feel I should keep an eye on my grandfather. He'll be fine. I can go out. Bad news is, I already got stoned and I haven't even taken a shower yet. OH, I was gonna walk 2 hours each way to the U. Really? That's a 4 hour gay walk.

Nah I'm gonna try to get a girl to come home with me on the short walk from the centre.
 

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Well, I haven't gone out. I took a shower, watched an art documentary, did post a comment to my ig, which i hope is sincerely friendly, while looking cool to the art community and hot girls. I even meditated and visualized. I painted, ate breakfast, brushed my teeth, did landscaping, and helped my grandparents. That alone would constitute a decently productive morning in my book. However, I haven't gone out.

However, getting way too high and the point is I'm on a binge without having taken a break. So I'm getting to the point where my brain is too stoned to remember my mental tricks. That I have developed. But sometimes you do have to sit around for 2,3,4 hours meditating, even if you're sober, so the weed is nice when you get that couch lock.

I think this is good. Because the name of the game, right now, for me, seems to be: "Chill." Or, alternatively, "Relax." Being home is OK, as long as you're not getting riled up about something. And you can use the time for deep relaxation, which I believe is worth a lot even if you tense up again later. Best scenario, you fully relax and then naturally find yourself bounding out the door ready to get pussy.

My mental notes to my self seem to be, every time, oh, if only I had stayed chill, or been more relaxed or not gotten nervous.
However you need to go out to get the benefits of being around hot women.

But you also would perform better if you force yourself to relax before going out.

Need to strike a balance between fixing your issues and doing self care, and actually going out and meeting women.

For instance, I haven't been to the gym or really worked out at all in like over a month. However, I've done the most approaches of my life.

I hate my current gym, that's part of why I don't go. It's also a planet fitness but way more social circle, like, the instant I walked in. Whereas the other gym just had a different vibe and I could just walk in and smoothly get a girls number or even walk out with her (never did successfully). So I need to find a new gym, if I get money I will go to this fancy gym with a sauna that I used to go to. Reminds me of this slutty family friend that went there, I thinks she's now a doctor and married. If only I had lowered my standards back in highschool that would've been a great lay. She's fucking hot. Never had game later anyways, and was nervous when trying to get her at the gym. It seemed like an ideal place for a lay, you can go in between the locker rooms in a massage room

Some of my best outings I went out without showering, but then I felt like that was the reason I was getting Maybe next time'ed quite consistently.

 
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Ok I’m conflicted if I should make it public because I’m an artist. Girl from target(cashier) I wrote it down for her and went later I public for a bit then freaked out -paranoid- and went private again she didn’t dm me or follow me. But some kid from the town did I’m assuming she showed her coworkers. I haven’t confirmed his request.

I’ll be tallying for the tourney using their system in that thread. Here, I’m tallying approaches, because I’m currently doing 4 approaches/day for 30 days.
Not sure if i wanna just start now. Because August did not go well. No I’m gonna make up for the missed days in August.

so yesterday the points are 5 for newbie challenge.

I’ll have to go back and tally later. 30 x 4 so 120 approaches in August is the goal.
OK, I just went back and tallied the approaches from the August Snatch Tournament. I approached 83 women, so I missed the mark by about 40 women.

I didn't get laid, but it was very eye-opening. It increased my self-confidence and happiness. I definitely got in trouble with security, but I could've easily not smoked weed and that would probably make me seem normal. I struggled with my mood during my breaks from the weed. I gave up at the end but remained with enough momentum carrying forward into September with me going on a groundbreaking sarge on the local college campus even though I wasn't even sure I wanted to do the tournament again. However, the plan for September is to scale back and try sniper game now.

I'm thinking though, after going back and reviewing the newbie challenge, I didn't come close to completing it, so I guess I will give it another go until I complete the full challenge.
 

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So I’m chilling here after the newbie assignment. Of course I don’t think I can get laid tonight but I might try. It’s getting to the point where I’m off to rehab so I gotta get laid once before I go. If I don’t get laid tonight then the weekend depression will hit where I feel too sad that I don’t already have plans.
I’m going to do the night game.
I will start by going to pick up some pregame alcohol.
i want to try to fuck a girl in the bathroom of the grocery store, the thought is overwhelming so I’m just gonna chill. The “hi” stuff of Day 4 is still very enlightening
 

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ADVICE I'VE GOTTEN IRL:

Sister (2 yrs younger): take yourself to the dog park. Like our dog, when we took her to the dog park she was normal. Then when we stopped she got weird.

Sister 7yrs younger: get a penthouse apartment. fbg$

Cousin (male same age): be chill, when you get over 30 you start to chill out.

Natural friend (47 y/o male coworker "bad boy criminal" claimed to have fucked every girl in school when he was 17): take benzos...do anger management...just say random bullshit to the girls... if you're good at painting your line is fine...finally, he said, be a drug dealer, that's how he fucked girls out of his league socio-economically.

Cousin (younger brother of other one): getting famous will solve the pussy problem

(alleged) Dude that befriended me at the local cool bar. : Dude you're good if you just relax the back of your neck.

College male buddies and my female last ex: DM your ex on Instagram(the one that got away. I deleted her number and she unadded me on snapchat.)

High School best friend with a cool job: "get a cool job"

last ex (same as above, current friend): be more creepy
 
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10 years of work theory.
So if your perfectly normal neighbor suddenly goes mad and starts making strange paintings in their basement, and in 10 years, he is suddenly a rich artist and you are saying you knew he was a genius all along?

It took chase 10 years to get it right?

People throw that around. 10 years of hard work! it was really hard but this major life improvement.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/sudden-genius/201102/does-genius-follow-the-ten-year-rule

So, to start, I am not a famous artist yet. Let's see if I'm on track. So lets say I get famous in 2025. Now, 2025-10=2015. That's exactly when I sort of went cookoo and became a serious artist. Painting as a specialty came a bit later, so I guess by next year I should be famous in a general way for my art.

Ok, so let's see, dating. found Found GC in 2012? that's 2024 minus 12. I would say easily there was 2 years in there not trying. Oh yes, Freshman year and sophomore year of college I went completely au naturale. Beyond that, I wasn't even trying.

By Junior year, I was definitely scheming, and used the GC. There you go. So this is my year to get this right.

Anyway, I remember wanting to get good at girls when I dropped out, and it morphed into doing art. So, I expect them to get fixed in the same order one right after another


Not to mention all that time not really trying in between. A lot of time not trying at all, not reading at all. So if it's not my year this year, I'd give myself another year or two. Or you could start now as the start of my serious 10 year journey. Be a mPUA in 10 years.
 
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Did the Hi-Traffic route. 11:30am on a Friday. Zero traffic.

Except on the way back a hot girl jogged right past me and I felt turned on. So at least I was having a good time. I'm sure she goes to school here. It wasn't so much her figure as how close she passed me with that fat ass of hers. It feels more personal, like I actually might fuck this girl...
 

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i still want this girl from right before I started the noobie journal. so i texted her this

Sep 5, 2024, 4:51 PM​



Hi








Sep 5, 2024, 8:31 PM​

You sent​





Hey






Fri 8:42 PM​

You sent​





meet me for a drink at [name of bar] [name of girl]








Seen
 
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OK, here's the plan. I'm going to take Chase's warning very seriously, and not use the same line over and over on campus. Thinking back, I already saw a blue haired woman this one time that I was giving off a bad vibe and chasing a girl. LOL
 
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OK, I think I'm gonna do the next step on the newbie assignment tomorrow. Yeah I have an errand and I actually have to take the t stop this time.

I found the numbers of the two girls from that college that I want- can I say which? So I want to get it perfectly. I was thinking I could call them from my home phone but decided against it.
 

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I have deleted my art website so I may spend some time on there writing a final newsletter or something. Oh well, you can always start a free blog later. And it is time to get gallery representation, or remain amateur forever- so I won't have to promote my art by myself.

It was all in good taste in my opinion, but most people can't understand modern art. But, i was supposed to remove my existence because my sister's fiance's mom didn't like it and I ruined everything. Everything, is my fault apparently.
 

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self-sabotage, (which is something like a trademark bad trait of mine)
start a new band

ibe fruitful and multiply your low self esteem.


Anyway. I want to get a trophy wife, but I don't think I'll discuss that here. I guess I could get advice about marriage. But this is sex journal.

Here, I want to discuss sex. And the newbie assignment, is by the book. Here, I wanna discuss pickup, but, also, sex in general. So I wanna get with the girl from earlier in this journal. I didn't fuck her. The one that looked like the movie star.

So, She's in netflix. She's big on it. I didn't really watch her show. I hate to say, I'm not trying to marry her, I wanna get it in with her. but im over her.



So I was thinking, I gotta DM her on instagram ASAP
 
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I tried day 12 of newbie assignment and it went horribly and I realized that it’s making me do weird stuff. I should be doing the line instead.

I can’t just start over and do girls chase game when my self taught thing is working. Maybe that’s why I’m on the forum, because the articles don’t do it for me anymore.

But then I read not to do it on campus (one line over and over) so I thought of doing the newbie assignment near there (instead of there) and creeped everyone out ?
 

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So I’m just thinking out loud. Capturing fleeting thoughts?
Fix car and drive to Pittsburgh instead of going to rehab

go to rehab in FL which sounds nice now…then go to PITT and be straight-edge in PITT

ipso facto ergo sum: go balls to the wall artsy fucker now.
 

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go to rehab in FL which sounds nice now…then go to PITT and be straight-edge in PITT

ipso facto ergo sum: go balls to the wall artsy fucker now.
Sounds like a good plan, dude.

-Hank

PS. I am your alter ego, and I am going to complete the newbie assignment for you
 

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GONNA GO TAKE THE TRAIN TO GO CHILL AT THE RESERVOIR. THEN WALK BACK, CUTTING THRU THE CAMPUS.

NO SCRATCH THAT.

THEN GET LUNCH AT THAT AREA, THEN GO TO THE BAR THERE AND DRINK THE REST OF THE DAY. IM GONNA TELL THAT GIRL TO MEET ME THERE TONIGHT.
 
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